It won't let me noise mail you back now...so just email me then

stephaniemjohnson@hotmail.com

thanks for the "noise-mail", for some reason it wont let me send one back so uh ill just say this, dont worry about it, and if you need someone to talk to then just send me another e-mail, i dunno when it will let me reply again but ill keep trying, ive been through alot and i have a friend who used to cut, so i know a bit about what might be troubling you, im sorry about your dad, and your room and your music, if it were possible i'd try to get you your music back because i know how important it can be to people...
-mike

oh ummm...for the record...I'm a 17 year old FEMALE.

Just got in a fight with my dad. I'm forbidden to go into my room unless it's time to sleep at night. My room and music were the only things that kept me sane. But now, I don't even have that. Now even the privacy of my own SPACE has been stripped from me.

We have a plant growing in our backyard though. It's called deadly nightshade...it's a narcotic. If you eat enough of it's berries you die, plain and simple. I estimated between 80-150 berries if/when it's time that way might work. It's funny though, my Dad said that if I don't like what he's doing to me...I can leave. Little does he know that I have plans.

On the whole, I am exremely dissapointed to your damnation to the sucidal poster- SMJ. Now before you start with the 'You don't know me! Don't judge ME, demon child!' please not that I'm not trying to question your faith or put a damper on your relationshop with your god- I'm just here to make a point and I suggest you don't get bent out of shape or pissy because it's unproductive.
You telling a suicidal kid that he will go to hell if he commits suicide is a rotten thing to do. It might make them more depressed or maybe it'll just make them feel like beating your brains out. Either way, it's wrong. It seemed to me, and I may be wrong or have missread something- but you seemed to take the posistion that you believe only god has and told him- "You're hell bound! That's what you is, punkass!" Do you have a right to say where he's going? Does your mortal mind know where he's going? NO! You don't know this kid- and you don't know that if he takes his life he's going 'straight to hell'. If you break a commandment you don't go straight to hell.
I can see your viewpoint- 'Life is god-given and therefore he's the only one who can take it away', but you're not god and you don't know where SMJ is going.

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And yes for your information you could live an angelic life and still go to hell if you kill yourself!!!!

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SMJ, Coolfgirl said that. Why are you thanking her for saying something she quite clearly contradicted?

COOL DOWN! I wasn't talking to you, I was talking to that JesusDrumChild kiddo.

thank you so much for saying that. I don't want to go to hell....for a moment I was getting worried. But I don't think a God would kill you for taking YOUR life anyway. After all, you are just trying to end your own misery when you do it. It's not like you are hurting someone else.

suicide is not a joke. i never said anyone said it is. i'm just saying, it's nothing to joke about.
Lauren

So naive
I am not judging anyone!! And yes for your information you could live an angelic life and still go to hell if you kill yourself!!!! I have no powers that God has not given me. I do not hold myself above God. We're all freakin human so we're a little judgemental sometimes!!!! The point is that taking of any life is wrong!!!! It's that simple!!!! I only speak what I know is true. so if u can't accept it, then don't, I'm not forcin u to

i never said you did. whatever, it's what you belive. i know that. everyone had different opinions. a lot of us don't agree w/you.
Lauren

cuase you're christ's child just like me. i care about everyone, even ppl who treat me like trash. it's just who i am.
Lauren

ppl cannot control depression, ok?! i've had it since 8th grade, and i'm gonna be in 11th grade. herma was right, it just makes the depressed person feel worse. i'm surpised i'm not freaking screaming right now. unless you have had depression you can't say we can control it.
Lauren

you don't go to hell if you kill yourself.
Lauren

How could you say you 'love' me when you have no idea who I am?

hey-
don't kill yourself. ppl care about you.. ppl love, you, i love you as a person. i'm not lez, i'm a christian. you're end up hurting the ppl you love.
Lauren

look,if it isn't then l wish you farewell to your journey into the eternal.Don't wonder,sooner or later(perhaps soon with the way the world is going)we'll get to meet.

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but u think god's gonna care when u say awwww but i had a disease, u still did the deed and ur still goin to hell!!! ppl can control depression!!! suicide is not the only way out!!!!

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ok...now you see if you were right next to me right now, i would bludgeon you with a spork...you foolish little boy, first off...saying, YOUR GONNA GO TO HELL to a suicidal or depressed person is only going to make them more depressed, or want to kill you, thats an ignorant statement...hell was created to keep people in line...anyways back to the true subject, smj i used to be suicidal, i had to deal with depression, an anxiety dissorder, and a panic dissorder, having panic attacks and throwing up all of the time really made me go insane, you should have heard the thoughts running through my head...and yes, one time i did come close, oh so very close... but i didnt do it, ill tell you now, one of the hardest things in the world to do is kill yourself, and its not worth it, i hate to sound like a therapist, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel..i know that the tunnel is hell, ive been through so much pain in my life myself, from seeing my brother get almost decapitated by a speeding car... and plenty of my own personal mental dissorders..it was hell, im on medicine now, and about that statement that guy said about depression being controlled...you can put me on as much medicine as you want, but there will always be a tinge of depression in the back of my head, i suggest you go and read your bible you ingorant fool, i can tell you this now...your ignorant and blind, you will live a pointless life and you will be forgoton...and dont you dare say you will be with jesus or something like that, its all a myth...a fairy tale..your just too stupid to realize it...just you wait...you'll find out the truth soon enough...
anyways enough of my anger...im sorry your down i guess the only comfort i can offer is someone to talk to who's been there before...i hope the best for you
-mike

I never said I could condem anyone, I'm just trying to warn u here that u will be condemmed if u kill yourself. And if u wanna know where it says u'll go to hell if u kill yourself... look at the ten commandments. #7 thou shalt not kill, that means other ppl and yourself!!! I know some cases of depression are caused by disease, I've dated enuff ppl with it to know that!! but u think god's gonna care when u say awwww but i had a disease, u still did the deed and ur still goin to hell!!! ppl can control depression!!! suicide is not the only way out!!!!

*whew*!!

hey, did you get my email? did u still want someone to talk to?

omg sumone that is finally like me!!!! and the only reason i staying alive is because im pregnant!!

~brittany lyn~

Exactly, SMJ, it doesn't say you'll go directly to hell if you kill yourself. I just don't reccomend killing yourself. Death will pamper your postponement.