SMJ, god I am so sorry you feel this way. And for all of you that keep posting about Jesus and how for someone that wants to kill themself, they aren't doing a good job, you all need to stuff it! This person is in need of support and all you do is judge them based on what you think is right and wrong and stupid or not. You people are rude and ruthless. If you would stop and smell the roses for like 5 seconds I would hope you would realize what you are saying. It's like you are trying to tell SMJ what to do. That's the last thing they need, but I wouldn't expect people as shallow minded as yall to understand that much.

yeah well, I try to get out of my house but can't. I'm working 40 hours a week. It's already over 1 month into the summer and I've not been out with friends at all. I recently told my cousin about my pill overdoses and the cutting. She's 19 and wanted me to stay with her for atleast a week but I could stay as long as I needed. She was even willing to pick me up at my house and drop me off when the visit was over. She said I just really needed a change of scenery and a chance to relax and unwind....my dad said no. I told him that there was no point in life if all it is is work. I burst out in tears...my dad started laughing. He then said that that was my problem not his. Boy am I stuck! ...and yeah...still trying to find god...still not hearing him

Well, sounds like you are in a rough situation. I'd worry more about what you are going to do while you are alive than all this suicide business. Because I think you will live. You didn't kill yourself after your first post, and you haven't yet. You came close. You even tried to do it. But humans are... well... human. And it takes a lot for a person to really take their own life. Now I suggest you get away from your house and go live with a friend or something before you are pushed to your limit.

i didn't change my mind overnight...it wasn't my mind that changed. It was Jesus.

Anyway, you're all thinking i'm crazy by now, but w/e...i'm better now. Please, either open up your heart to Jesus and tell him about your problems (you will be set free) or try what HalosonEarth suggested. it sounds like a good idea. it's great...once you're not suicidal anymore, you'll only have dreams of when you were suicidal...but then you wake up and tell yourself, "that's right...i'm not that way anymore. what a nightmere!" at least that's what i'm going thru right now...at least i'm ok in real life now.

try talking to Jesus about it, or, if you're not religious, try HalosOnEarth's suggestion. She makes a good one.

SMJ, I don't know if you're a christian or not, but I've heard (I can't guarantee this) that in the Bible it supposedly says that suicide is a sin. I'm not sure but I've heard you go straight to Hell for it... being you're a temple of God I don't doubt it but God is forgiving and He would understand your pain.

Sweetie, suicide isn't the way out. I know this because I've had friends who've tried it. There are medicines to help you and it doesn't make you crazy.

I know a GREAT place for suicidal people. It's completely anonymous (I've tried it and my friend has and it helped us). Go here: Samaritans. It is 100% anonymous. They delete all your e-mails after 30 days and they don't tell ANYONE ANYTHING ... EVER. They help you. They won't judge you and they are free!

Please, at least try

i don't understand this...how could you just change your mind over night....

well, i'm not sure if anyone will care... ...but i just got back from a youth conference.

and, i know what you're thinking right now: "oh, my god, she's a biblebanger!!!"

lol. i wouldn't say that, but i do have a lot more faith in people and esp. in God. This past weekend, i wished for my suicidal feelings to go away and grant the grace needed to forgive a few ppl. that really tore me up, including a teacher. and, you know what my experience was? once i just opened my heart up and believed that there was someone out there who loved me so much and would want to listen to my problems and not get help for me, i just bawled. And bawled for a straight 2 out of the 3 hours i was at the conference. something in my conscience (which, thinking back, was God speaking to me) told me it was okay to cry. It was okay to mouth out my problems. No, i didn't yell them out, but wicked memories flashed and i whispered them quietly as i wept. It was on and off...and, when i wasn't weeping, i was resting in the spirit. Fine, you can call me crazy...i understand if you would. How was i? first off i felt incredibly weak, but overall, just very peaceful and grateful that someone would be so willing to give me a hand and truly listen to me. and, hugging all of the new friends i'd made at yg and the old ones i'd forgiven was sooo wonderful.

what was the point of this story?

the point is, it doesn't have to be Christ that you open up to and just pour your heart into. But maybe someone that you just trust so much, and know will listen to you and not get you help right away. b/c we don't need to be talking to a shrink we don't know. we need to talk to God, or someone who has the power of Him in a way (an adult, a best friend). and, believe it or not, you WILL BE HEALED. Please, i'm begging all of the suicidal, TRY WHAT I DID. IT HELPS. all you have to do is open up your heart and mind, let it all out one night w/ God or someone you trust. Don't try to hold tears back, or anger back. Just let it out!! This past weekend was a true miracle b/c since i've learned to forgive ppl, i now do have some friends. i have new friends from yg. heck, i even have a bf!!! (i wasn't expecting that). if you want to just die and "get it over w/"...fine. but i'm really sad for you, and i'll be praying for you. however, if you just want to get BETTER and LIVE...please...find the perfect time and place to just let it all out to someone or God.

And, please disregard all of the comments about suicide...that was when i WAS suicidal, and when i actually believed in it. what was i thinking? doesn't matter now...but i'm healed now...and you will be too.

This week I lost someone to suicide, so what you're talking about hits too close to home. If you just committ suicide to die and not be on Earth anymore is selfish. If you have a disease that makes you take medication for the rest of your life or you have bad depressions with your diseases then after you committ suicide i think more people would understand you. The person I knew had a disease and their head one...Think about what you leave behind, as much as you think it is nothing..COULD BE AN ENTIRE WORLD YOU Don'T KNOW! Suicide is no joke, once you do the deed you cannot take it back, you cannot panic and make calls. There's a good chance once you do it you'll want to be saved, but there is no turning back..NOTHING. All you'll want to do is live instead of afflicting pain on yourself, think about it.

Probably because they're not truly suicidal. Meh.

I dont understand why people who say they are suicidal do such a poor job killing themselves.

well...last night I was kicked out...my dad called me a parasite....I took 8 sleeping pills...and blacked out...

im sorry your plan didn't work out for you...keep looking through that cite though...you'll find good ideas

okay, jookly, you're right...sry about that. but i never said that you wrote psycho, crazy; or of ppl hearing or seeing things...so, nvm...

it's still a really horrible condition to live by...in fact, it's hell. no doubt about that

and, please take an easy on suicidal ppl... the LAST thing they want is to be put down...

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Well, last night I was kicked out of my house. I slept in a tent in the backyard. I took a rope and knife with me. I put the rope around my neck and was gonna hang myself..but the urge to cut was very strong so I sat down to cut...I fell asleep and woke up this morning under that tree....looks like I'm living for another day

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So you must have stumbled across a computer outside? Or did you go back inside because you couldn't tolerate the outdoors? In any case, you're alive, and there's no point in killing yourself. BTW- it'll take a substantial amount of cutting for you to die of, say, blood loss..

thanks for that site...I liked it...

by the way WE ARE NOT MESSED UP IN THE HEAD...THESE PEOPLE JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND US! If they were in our shoes, then they would understand us.

Well, last night I was kicked out of my house. I slept in a tent in the backyard. I took a rope and knife with me. I put the rope around my neck and was gonna hang myself..but the urge to cut was very strong so I sat down to cut...I fell asleep and woke up this morning under that tree....looks like I'm living for another day

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jookly, if you have a mental illness, it doesn't always mean you're mentally-disturbed...or, "crazy", "psycho",...etc. you're not hearing or seeing things. yeah, your thoughts run wild, but its more like a case of just not knowing how to handle situations in your life and weakness...not so much the other way around.

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I didnt use the words crazy or psycho, I didnt say you hear or see things.

I will get literal for a moment with you. Depression is a mental disorder which is a synonym for mental illness (dont believe me? look it up). All I said was the truth about depression. You really didnt even disagree, just reworded it.

jookly, if you have a mental illness, it doesn't always mean you're mentally-disturbed...or, "crazy", "psycho",...etc. you're not hearing or seeing things. yeah, your thoughts run wild, but its more like a case of just not knowing how to handle situations in your life and weakness...not so much the other way around.

if you're terminally ill suffering as a veggie in a hospital, would the person be mentally-disturbed to request euthanasia?

same w/ suicide...

both mean taking your life...

Don't worry.. hopefully your boat will come in and things will get better.. preferably before the dock rots.

I feel sorry and pity those people who attempted suicide to solve their problems, it's almost the worst way out, i mean, so wat that you're going through some tuff stuff, you still should try to live through it the best you could, instead of just ending your own life like that. I mean if you want to die, at least die for something worthwhile...

amaris is right. life is tough...but it can't be that bad, eh?