my names carrie, and im 15 years old. i have been cutting myself over family issues mainly, for about a year now. but everything is just getting way to much to handle. i strangle myself nearly every night just to stop myself from crying. i also have thought about suicide to, but now that my boyfriend knows about the cutting i cant plan my death any more. also i never eat, not because i think im fat or anything just because the taste of food makes me sick.
its easier to talk to people on youth noise because its just like writting down what you are feeling and not having to say it infront of anyone.
please if anyone can talk to me or has gone through the same sort of thing please help me..

Ok if you arent Christian, I have your advise, Though its probably not the best. When I was 11-13 I cut my self, slitting my wrists stuff like that, at 13 I ended up in the Hospital for attempted suicide, it was the scariest thing I have ever been through in my life.The thing that is hard is that I dont know your story and why. But think of this, you have a boyfriend and you have friends, and family imagine how they would feel if you really did kill yourself. My friend explained that it was a very selfish task of trying to take your own life. Dont let life get you down like that, I may be athiest, but I know that we were all put here for a reason and you could one day find the cure for AIDs or Cancer, you dont know that. So please dont do anything durastic and think before you act. That is the advise that I give you, please think about it...

I'm so sorry this is happening to you!
Have you tried asking your parents or a friend for help?

Besides that I can tell you that you are loved by Jesus Christ no matter what! Also you should know that everyone feels pressure and everyone gets down. You should try and start a journal of all of your thoughts and keep it somewhere private where no one but you can read it. Add onto it every night and try and sort through your thoughts this way you can let out the pressure and everything you're feeling. Try getting involved in a sport too(doesn't have to be school related)I find running very mentally cleansing.

wasted youth,

i'm a christian.

i went through all of that last year,
cutting, attempt of suicide
i felt hurt, abandoned, fake, unloved, and everything else.
the only way to make me feel better was to hurt myself so that other people around me couldn't hurt me
that didn't work.
it made me feel worse about myself
at school i would be all happy and stuff
i wore a jacket EVERYDAY to cover my scars

my friends juliah and max found out what i was doing and they basicly told me if i didn't stop they would tell my family.
at first i was furious.
i was so mad at them, i felt like they were trying to control me.
they wouldn't even let me use sissors for the LONGEST time.
i got over it. or so i thought

that summer me and my friend juliah went to a christian camp.

i learned that a guy named Jesus died on a cross...
he didn't do anything wrong.
he was nailed on a cross. they put a crown of thorns on his head, he died.
and all of that was for you and me

i know whoever is reading this is probly thinking that they've heard all of this before.
but that man died.
he gave his life.
something he didn't have to do.
he died because of my sins.
he did all of this out of LOVE

i'm not saying you're a sinner or anything
i'm saying that i sinned.
i did wrong

i was like you i thought i heard all of it before
then i relized i turned my back on Him and everyone who loved me
but that whole time.
while i was cutting my self witha razor blade
while i watched the blood flow from my arms
everytime i thought of ending my life
he was there with me
i didn't know it, but he carried me through all of my pain.
but he opened my eyes.

at first i felt so discusting
i didn't think he would be able to forgive someone like me.
BUThe forgave me for all the things i did wrong.

i learned that i was actually worth something
and for the first time in my life
i felt alive and loved and happy

It's okay, but as a side note, if you're this deep in to your depression, advice isn't really something I'd consider giving out at the moment. You have to heal your broken self before you can help someone pick up their shards.

WELL THANKS FOR THE TIP AND HELP WITH MY ISSUES AND LIFE YOU REALLY MADE IT BETTER FOR ME TIODAY I AM ALREADY HAVING A BAD DAY.

Like, we said before babytink, its not that we don't believe that you've been through a lot, we just know that talking to a proffessional is way more valuable from experience. 14 years, unfortunatly does not leave you with enough life experience and understanding of others needs, sure you can relate, however it is unlikely you can offer sound advice that can help W4astedYouth.

Listen carrie i am a 14 year old thats has gone through alot if you need someone to talk to qrite me back!!!!!

Most counselors have gone through the same stuff you're going through. Don't listen to someone who says what the last person said. They obviously don't know how to deal with the problem, and their advice wouldn't be good anyway ( reason: they tell no one about their issues--which is a bad thing--and yet they're offering advice? ). Listen to counselors. They've been there and they are trained to know how to give advice. If a general counselor doesn't "do it" for you, find a different kind. I had a counselor who was an art therapist. That is, she had me express my views through artistic means. She was Christian and liberal and completely cool. There are people out there like that. But please, for the sake of your sanity and safety, don't listen to advice from younger teens!

Carrie, I have family issues too. I have beem in a physical altercation and noone understands me because I tell noone. Look to me for answers. Listen issues are not worth it keep fighting and dont kill yourself you're worth living!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you..
i dont know how to do that im ting so you can just add me on msn or something if you have it..

chocolate_buttns_gurl@hotmail.com

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Dear wasted youth,
I am so sorry to hear you're going though this. But always remember you are NOT alone. I'm sure your b/f cares about you deeply. Everyone's life sucks too much to handle I agree. I'm not going to feed you bullshit and tell you everythin g is going to be okay bc it may not. I have horrible anxiety, I always feel like I'm in a dream and nothing's really here or real. It sucks so bad I used to want to die but then I though of my friends and everybody who cares. You really should talk to anyone. You're not crazy, you're just pissed off. And I don't blame you. I cut sometimes but I know it doesn't solve anything. I have a counselor and I think you should get one too. It really does help to talk to someone who understands and can help you. You can IM me anytime (randashere1415) Even though I don't know you I would hate to see you take your life or be miserable <33
Randa

thanks trisscar..

Hey Wasted Youth... I went through basically the exact thing that you are. That was 3 years ago...

If you need somebody to talk to my Aim is TrisscarKitty... and you can Noisemail me for my MSN.

I'm here to talk to <3