My boyfriend used the word "depressed" to describe me last night. It was more of an accusation than a sincere concern. I am frustrated that I have to feel guilty on top of feeling bad about my life.
So I ask this question. It is really wrong to feel badly about your life even though there are people out there "worse off"? Saddness is a human emotion not limited to the poor, or divorced or injured.
So when I cry because feel neglected by my poor parents who tell me "no, buy your own.. we don't have the money." am I being selfish? My boyfriend, too well off to understand. Doesn't know what it feel like to go to the mall with our friends and watch them buy prom dresses, $50 jeans and new cell phones... all while I watch wondering if I'll be able to afford gas this month.I don't want to be spoiled, I just want to feel secure. I dont, atleast not when I am surrounded by people who can just drop $120 for a pair off shoes and $50 for a bra!! In reality, I don't need those things.. but onyl because I have a pair of shoes on my feet. Yeah, theyre odl and ugly but becaues theyre there I am supposed to smile and say I'm lucky.
I don't think I'm depressed, just because I cry or just because I feel bad. After all, my rich bf just bought my prom dress so that I could come home to another night of my parents bickering about money woes. So I realized, it's not the actual material things that make me happy It's that feeling that is associated with having those things. My parents could be jsut as happy without them.. but theyre not because they focus on the problem. So maybe I don't need new shoes, just a new attitude instead. I can say that I earned the laptop I typ eon write now and that's why it and everything material and not in my life means more to me than it ever will to those who have thins handed to them shiny and new

Don't worry. I completely understand where you are coming from with this. I know this feeling well, especially since I live in an upper class neighborhood where everybody around me is able to afford things that I cannot. I grew up not having not much more than what was required (food, clothes, etc) but you know its alright. I realized I wanted more. I am seventeen years old now and I work 3 jobs to save up for a car. I used to feel bitter even though I knew there was people worse off than me and I don't regret feeling that way, It's just that as I got older I wanted to change feeling that way to make a better future.