I'm depressed and have been for about 6 months. my life has become really messed up. I'm constantly runnung away, I don't eat normally (I only eat when people buy things for me or make them for me because they'd just be wasting money), I've attempted suicide twice while no one was home (sliting my wrists and drowning myself), I'm getting the worst grades I've ever gotten etc. I just want to know what I can do. I have alot of cuts and I told my friends that if I cut again to tell the school counselor but they kinda went out of control saying that I can't hurt myself at all. I can't do so much as whack a wall or stub my toe or they tell. and one friend said he would tell my mom and my sister (my sister whom went through the same thing and warned me not to cut and would never talk to me again and my mom who would ask what I don't have that i would do all this and blah blah blah) What can i do to get out of this mess?

i don't know why you're depressed so it's kinda hard to help you. just write down all the reasons that you're depressed and think of solutions to them. put down some reasons for why you're depressed and i'll try to help you. have you been to see a psychologist. depression can mean yur brain chemicals are unbalanced and you need medication for that. also, don't try commiting suicide or running away anymore, that isn't the way out of things

I don't think it runs in the family because she's not my real sister. she's just a really good older friend, she's really like a sister. the meeting tomorrow. (kinda scared) what's a behavioral problem? I realize i am like this because my "sister and m friend" pointed it out and so i researched it, took wuizzes looked at all that stuff and so i am pretty convinced i have it seeing as i fit the description perfectly and got the highest scores on all of the quizzes. I am getting help. forced help, but help just the same.

I'm sorry your going through all this. You say your sister went through a similar thing, maybe depression runs in the family. I would go talk to someone about it now.

It could be more then just depression, maybe a behavorial disorder? They have medicine you can take and counselors you can go to to get through this.

If you already realize that your like this, and you already told your friends to get you help, then your own the right track. Maybe you should make the move though, people will respect you for it and talk to you like your an adult.

Good luck and don't worry, just go get some help.

The exact same thing happened to me before...it kinda helps...I guess it all depends on how they approach it...or if you are dead serious on actually killing yourself...because if you aren't, then it will help big time. So don't be worried, it will be okay...

well i gues so. I have a meeting with them I think on Thursday (them being my advisor counselor and the principle) This can Not be good.

DOn't be worried that people now know. they aren't going to yell at you, they only will want to help. Try not to be so worried about it, they're there to help you.

Goodluck

Maybe you should talk to a shrink or get some kind of help. I mean if you keep going on without getting any help than think about where you might end up.

Maybe its a good thing she found out. Perhaps that can help you get on the path to recovery. All of us freaks at YN will listen to you and support you, don't ever be afraid to vent. Believe us, suicide is not the answer. Most teens go through a tough time, its part of puberty. And it sucks. But we've all been through it, or, in the case of Joey and WJ, we'll go through it at one time or another. Just do your best not to inflict harm on yourself. What helps sometimes is to wear a rubber band on your wrist, adn when you feel the urge to cut, snap it against your wrist. That helped me when I had a problem with tricholomania.

SHE FOUND OUT! my school counselor found out. she's gonna tell me parents and my homeroom teacher. man! I didn't tell her a thing. sha asked if i was sleeping well and if i was playing with friends and some other suf and she's like "I think you're depressed"

 Wait-Is someone planning to go SCUICIDE???    

that'd be me. OK here's the deal. I have a meeting with my principal thingy on Friday for an hour and I don't know what its for. I am so scared. I'm starting to think that my friend told. I really hope he didn't. *trembles with fear*

Wait-Is someone planning to go SCUICIDE???

Its hard to get your mind off of it...hang out with your friends, got to the movies, go shopping...you get your mind off of it for a few hours, but share some time with your friends...that sorta stuff...I know it is hard but sometimes it helps. Now I am a hypocrit lol...if you want to e-mail me my e-mail is

larkjaycocamper@hotmail.com

I may not be very helpful because I am in the same situation but alot of time it helps like I said before...I'm here if you feel bad!

luke

>Timid1

I have and idia.. get ur mind of of that stuff.. go do stuff w/ ur friends. and just anoy all that stuff w/ school... i have cut b4 and doing it really didny help it doesnt make a difrence really .. just read alot thats what it did .. or watch tv or play games on the computer ..... just relax.. i hope that helps ...

 Timid: do you think maybe the reason your hurting yourself is because your sister did it? 

I don't think so. mabye. But I don't think so. And I know I should see a counselor but I'm kinda scared and I'm really shy. I don't want them to tell my parents. I mean I reeeeeally don't want my parents to know. I don't want to be sent to a physic ward either. I just don't know what to do!

Timid: do you think maybe the reason your hurting yourself is because your sister did it? That you want to be like her and because she does it that your ment to do it. Self confliction does not solve problems, it only creates them. One way to help yourself is to go to a counselor. Then maybe you can begin to learn to love yourself. Most cases of self confliction and deppression are caused by thoughts that your nothing. I kno because i went through the same thing. Maybe its the peer presure to be like everyone else, or something thats making you stress. Depression is only a state of mind, you can only create it and only you can make it go away.

lucasflorin isn't the only one that will listen... No matter how bad things get, you can always talk to someone about it.

I don't know if you're really in a mess, or if a mess is just creating itself around you. Chaos happens, but it rights itself. Like lucasflorin said, sometimes you have no idea what's going on, things just happen strangely or you feel bad for whatever reason.

I think you'll make it through alright, though. I hope you do.

thanx and you can't ramble to me too! everyone could use it.

I know exactly how you feel. I have thought about it but never actually attempted it. People usually ask, "Whats wrong that makes you want to do this?" Well, sometimes I can pinpoint it and sometimes I can't. Like if I get in a fight with someone, then I can be like this is why I am sad. But then there are those times when I will be sad and nothing at the time is really really bad. I have lost alot in my life and that can be a reoccuring reason. Which has brought me to cutting. I hope that you can overcome whatever is bothering you and you know I will listen if you want to ramble on and on because I have been where you are right now and I still am. I have a theory, no one can help you better than someone going through the same thing.