I'm sick of it. I know I'll regret these scars when I'm older, but I CANNOT stop.
I need to talk to someone. Personally. Tell them about what I'm doing.
I can't tell any of my family. They'd be heartbroken.
I don't have any close friends to tell.
The only thing I can think of is a therapist; I'm beyond helping myself. I need someone else.
The only thing is, how do I get my mom to let me go to a therapist without telling her what for?
Please, someone, I'm getting pretty desperate. I don't know what to do.

I would take the time to write it out, Serena. It makes you look like an uneducated idiot when you don't.

I know how to spell (not that good but hey...) Jenos, I'm just too lazy to write it all.

Wow, a real conversation!

It has been about 2 years on my part, not including 3 failed suicide attempts. Yes, I suck at it.

Hehe (to the Emm comments) and I've been cutting for almost three years.

I cut, so I know what you mean. I have been cutting for quite some time. Emm doesn't know what she/he is talking about, and I don't care enough about her/him to find out her/his gender.

Jenos, it's nice to see someone understands! It really is..Emm something on the other Health, Sexuality, Substance Abuse etc board is saying all cutter have mental disorders and then I come here and someone actually knows what they're talking about...such a great suprise.

Neither am I.

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Isn't that the point? The pain for me eases the stress I have been put under to bring me down to the point I have to relieve myself through self injury. That painful burning as the wounds stretch the day after is a part of that pain that helps me feel better.

*nods* I'm pretty much the same way. The few people that know tell me I should stop but I'm not ready to stop.

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In my skul we have something called "Chill" and its students helping students.

Learn to spell, it's 'school.'

I know u need some1 to talk to personally but u can talk to me anytime, my email is serena_peacecraft1234@hotmail.com And as to your question, don't they have counselors in your school? In my skul we have something called "Chill" and its students helping students. If u want it remains anonymous, I don't know if they have something similar in your skul, but if they do I think u should do that.

I understand that and yes I suggest professional help if you know you can not help yourself. I quit and have been clean for about 5 months now. It's worth getting away from SI, trust me on this one, it'll hurt those close to you WHEN they find out.

hey, i cut too and i cut pretty damn deep. I mean i havent stopped...i tried but then so many things started hapening. And i became anorexic (and still am) and and then i ended up in the meantal hospital 3 times and im only 12! im ashamd but i cant stop, so dont feel alone. i'm here.

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Yes it helps ease the pain for the time being but the next day they hurt and burn.

Isn't that the point? The pain for me eases the stress I have been put under to bring me down to the point I have to relieve myself through self injury. That painful burning as the wounds stretch the day after is a part of that pain that helps me feel better.

Hey, I went through the whole self harm thing and all i am left with now is a bunch of scars all over my arms. Yes it helps ease the pain for the time being but the next day they hurt and burn. Try writing your feelings down...or going somewehrere and screaming.

woah...me too. if you ever want to talk, kurtcobainisnotreallydead@hotmail.com, or StreetlightHope on aim...
i really want someone to talk to.
i do it too...it's nothing as serious as that, but its scaring the **** out of me...and i dont know how to stop. therapists and parents are out of bounds, absolutely no way, kinda thing. i know a guy on hotmail whos helping me a hell of a lot, but...i dont know. just help me. please.
anyway, sorry, i didnt t
want to turn that into a post about me, this is your thread...
just, yeah...if you want to talk, im here.
i need help too.

Here are some other resources that may help you:

Learning to Cope With Self-Injury

1-800-DONT-CUT or 800-366-8288

I think you should tell your mother that you would like to see a therapist, but you would prefer not to tell her why until the time is right... but you must tell her why at some point and time. I know it's hard to let your mother know that you've been cutting... because it was hard for me. I stopped for a while then i started again because everyone was pissing me off and my usual thing that made me happy (music) didnt help me... so i thought cutting would. she saw that i'd started again and she asked me if they were new or old, i told her they were old... but i should have said they were new. Anyway, enough of my story, this is your board. I think you should do what i said first off in the post... and if you are close enough to your mom, i believe she'll do what you say and she'll trust that you'll eventually tell her what's wrong.

It's pretty near impossible to just go up to your mom and say, "Hey I need to go to a therapist. But I swear, nothings wrong."

I attempted the same act, and my mom responded by telling me she's not going to pay that kind of money unless there's something physically wrong with me.

The whole "telling a friend" thing is also kind of...I don't know, they might not think of cutting the way you do, and unless they are really concerned and they really care, they'll probably just throw off some line like, "Oh it's bad for your health. And it hurts!"

In this case, you might wan't to try a school counseler. A month ago I would have thought the idea of talking to a counsler was total bull ****. But I had a crappy day and I figured why not, and she actually reccomended that I join this "anger managment" group at school. I go now, not often, but I do. It helps, you hear a couple other people talk about the same thing you're going through, and it helps to know they understand you and they're there to support you.

That's not great advice, but maybe more "last resort."

Whatever happends, goodluck. And sorry I wrote so much. I'm bored.