just so you can get to know me alittle better; I have alot of history for the average 14 year old student, concerning there's alot I have had happen in my time in public school, and I'm currently going to a Alternative Day treatment program. Which brings me to the top of this discussion; I have been pretty troubled in someway or the other I guess you could say I'm practically depressed, about every 2 weeks I think about suicide which I haven't ever come close to trying, just went through a crazy hour or 2 with my parents and alittle with my therapist each time lol. But I have come to realize(especcially now) after about 2 years that my best motivator and coping skill is unconditional love, and there's alot thinking+reasoning by this on my part; but my problem= I have trouble finding enough of it. Now I'm pretty sure Unconditional Love is the perfect word to fit the want and practical need I have, even though it's a slightly complicating thing to understand and recieve at my age, and that's my other problem. My parents are good ones and if you compared them with those of my peers at this special treatment program I go to they would probably be the nicest and caringsome ones. But I have trouble taking the love they give me since I'm simply tired of them and them being the ones giving me the love in the first place I do not know exactly why but it's moreso because of the things I can think of when I think about them and my past of being in the family. Everyone I know doesn't have perfect family but I'm autistic so I make more mistakes then the average person, which are some times ones I have alot of trouble taking in and even fixing. To just say I have a problem with staying in one spot (like same family and same city ect.) is something I wish someone would just realize about me(that cares) would make me relieved. Because I'm really the only person that know's this about myself and one rule of thumb I go by is: what your feeling on the very core inside of you is what counts most, not what the people think or say you feel. So overall I have and still am stuck trying to figure out how am going to recieve the love and attention I've been looking for? Because I can't think of a logical and possible way + the kind I'm talking about is just when someone's always showing that they care for, about you, and in everyway no matter what and are there for me when I need them. Um so... I'm open to anything and anything meaning questions, comments, and suggestions esspecially.
~ If you cant stand in front of me, stand behind me, if you dont want to let me be; leave me ~
Originally posted by girlgrey: Unconditional love sounds nice, but is it? Unconditonal means if they cheat on you, you still love them. If they hit you, you still love them (or for a girl at least.) If they break your heart, you still love them with the little broken peices. Love is wonderful, grab it when it comes, but make sure you don't die in the process. Because some people do. Believing that I was going to love someone forever who didn't want me led me to a very dark place.
I don't think that that's really what unconditional love is. Loving someone unconditionally doesn't mean they hurt you and you just say "okay, I still love you, I don't care if you hit me," it has to go two ways. If someone loves you unconditionally they will love you even when you make mistakes, even when you are not exactly who they wish you were. It is being accepted for who you are. And even if you do love someone, you don't have to put up with abuse. That's not what love is.
Li sempre essera le domande, non importa cio che la lingua.
Unconditional love sounds nice, but is it? Unconditonal means if they cheat on you, you still love them. If they hit you, you still love them (or for a girl at least.) If they break your heart, you still love them with the little broken peices. Love is wonderful, grab it when it comes, but make sure you don't die in the process. Because some people do. Believing that I was going to love someone forever who didn't want me led me to a very dark place.
girlgrey- Living in the grey space between what is black and what is white.
Yeah, my parents love me, but I'm looking for something more
peace I have to tell you this, there is no greater love than a parent has for their children, (exception: the Christian God but that's a parental relationship to)
And there's always someone for somebody out there.
"The very existence of flamethrowers proves that sometime, somewhere, someone said to themselves, "You know, I want to set those people over there on fire, but I'm just not close enough to get the job done"."
I know what you mean! I thought I was the only one who felt that way! Yeah, my parents love me, but I'm looking for something more. I don't know if anyone could really love me, or if unconditional love really exists, but while I'm searching for mine I hope you can find yours.
welcome to yn i hope you get better. im chillerdistiller and i am currently in school 2. im 13 and i think life is a nightmare. i really hope u feel better and if you need something just find me m
Emotions are naught to be tormented, for they can kill a person in more ways than one.
It's not always about reaching the destination, friend.
qouted for truth
life is in all seriousness a journey and the destination is the end of life so would not love and all things in life not be ending points but roads to walk as we head towards our ultimate destination?
"The very existence of flamethrowers proves that sometime, somewhere, someone said to themselves, "You know, I want to set those people over there on fire, but I'm just not close enough to get the job done"."
Boy I think we all could use a hand finding that my mine but t's different for us all but I wish you luck on your quest
"The very existence of flamethrowers proves that sometime, somewhere, someone said to themselves, "You know, I want to set those people over there on fire, but I'm just not close enough to get the job done"."
Love is always unconditional. It's the very definition of love, willing to put the other person first in all that you do. Love, is a form of worship. You are ready and willing to do anything for that person... But I don't think teens your age know how to give it. You sound somewhat mature for your age, which might be a difficult thing to handle, especially in the love aspect. I wish I could give you an answer, but the one you're not going to want to hear is give it time. When you're older and they're older, you might find what you're looking for. If not, there's nothing wrong in the journey.
...a Wandering Star for whom the black darkness has been reserved forever...
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welcome to yn i hope you get better. im chillerdistiller and i am currently in school 2. im 13 and i think life is a nightmare. i really hope u feel better and if you need something just find me m
