If you are a cutter or was a cutter. Can you tell me why you are still doing it, or what made you stop. I'm not trying to judge anyone, i'm just want to now.

Blessings

i stopped cutting for 2 months but it fell through and i cut..but the reason i cut 2 months ago was the day my mom passed away. but i relapsed because everything from my moms death had caught up to me and i kinda couldnt help it i couldnt cry write nothing and so by time i knew it i had gotten a razor i didnt cut deep or nothing just enough to ge tthe feeliong of control and the emotions out i guess. i hate that i did it i never wanted to but i had to.

i stopped because after awhile i didnt think to do it anymore it just didnt appeal to me. simple as that

I stopped because not only was I hurting myself Iwas hurting my friends.

I cut because I needed control. My life was falling apart and I had no control over anything. My mother was interfering with everything and people were pulling me different directions. The cutting made me feel in control. I knew when to stop, I knew how much pain to cause.

Fact!

It is not an addiction, it could be.
Cutting is simply easy to hault.
That is....if you half self-control.

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I started cutting when I was 11,
long story about why and how it started.
So I'll make it short; when I was born I was the burden in the family, I was the black sheep, the outsider of it all. As I grew my parents--my family noticed quite odd unsual things about me.
I was dylexic or however you spell. I'd scream at night, speaking backwards and wake up with bruises or cuts. (Odd isn't it.)
My parents thought I was possessed by a demon...
My family looked upon me as a demon child, so they stayed away from me and made sure I was never unwatched.
During my earlier ages I was treated by a pyschologist, and taken for Speech Classes and Literacy classes as well.
As I got older, my parents showed their true colors and treated me like an animal...
They locked me in the dark garage filled with tarantula's and snakes (literally living on the cracks). I rarely saw them, they'd sent me to country-to-state-to-city.
When I turned 10, I was severly abused and bullied by my brother. Since I'm hispanic it's a tradition, but this--was too far. To the point, when I turned 11 my mom told me she hated me and wished me dead, my dad didn't even know who I was and never looked at me. The left me to the depression stage that today follows me. All the times I was left alone, I cooked, cleaned and so on. My parents were tired of driving me to school, so I ended up not going at all, therefore leaving me behind in my studies. My parents would fight alot and curse and physically fight in front of me. Influenced by their actions and words I did the same. Ignorantly when I was ordered to clean by my mother, I told her in spanish, "Come' Mierda." I was slapped and beaten for my words. Whenever I cursed...I cut. Whenever I cursed I cut and cut, it became a habit. I stopped for serveral years, haven't since. I found ways to soothe myself. But today...that I've grown, my mother has calmed, turned into a stronger and better person still with flaws, my dad an inspiring man but equally grotesque. I recently started cutting but it wasn't worse as it was in the past. The reason why I stopped cutting was because it wasn't worth it. It was pointless, i'll always be sad there is no point in grieving and taking it on my body. I stopped by encouragement of a friend who was also a cutter. This leads to my conclusion (little sumtain sumtain bout me).

Oh! Another reason why my parents called me a demon child was because when I was 13. When I was angry, and when I yelled or talked deeply my voiced literally became demonic, it altered itself not like a rock-star but a real demon.

Maybe I am a demon 0.o who knows?

I suffer from bipolar disorder, and when i don't have my medication (i take it to help me with my depression)or i try to cut down on my intakes (small doses of my mediaction becuse i dont want to be dependent) i get an uncontrolable feeling of depression which turns into to anger at myself. then it eventually leads to cutting. its hard to deal with and even harder to explain

yes i am a cutter and i do it to take away the pain i am feeling on the inside and also do to frustration

I am not a cutter, but when I was in the psych ward I knew a lot of them and now know a lot about them.

Cutting, from what I know, is an addiction. People do it for all sorts of reasons, but once they start it's not easy to stop. Lynn, one of my roommates said that the blood was this release. She loved how her own blood looked and when she cut it released something in her. Sarah, another one of my room mates said that it didn't hurt at all, she loved the feeling of it and she needed it.

idk, I think that it's just like any other negative coping mechanism. It's one persons way to deal with the daily stresses of life.

ugh, i hate repeat threads with a passion, but now i feel like i must save the world so here we go again, and yes, i wrote the same reply to letzbloud........

k, well, ive been a masochist for almost 9 years. i went through hell and back before i was 8, my mother tried to kill me twice, and she had many mental disorders, and hated me, and just....did some really bad things to me..dont ask....and i felt like i caused them, and began to punish myself whenever i did ANYTHING wrong, but that was more like sleeping out in the cold, etc. my mother died, and i didnt have a dad-he left when i was born or before--my mom had all kinds of men in the house when i was around, i dont know my father at all, -i moved into a household like a hurricane----really bad fits of throwing things, and torture through mental and emotional abuse from both of my guardians, ive been through the physical abuse with my mother and her boyfriends, but the mental emotional abuse i endured was so much worse it was unbelievable. i was rather intelligent, and with no outlets, i became a recluse.I attempted suicide 5 times, but people kept finding me, so i began to thread--thats where you weave needles in and out of your skin--i still have those marks----then i began to just take a belt or a rope and tie one end to the fan or something, put the loop around my neck, and just hang by my bodyweight, not enough to kill me, but it bruised pretty bad, and then, i found out about cutting. in the beginning i cut x's into my arms until they poured with blood, on both arms, i did that for about 4 years, my parents NEVER NOTICED. i was just thinking about them fighting, and i thought about other peoples parents, and then i thought----their parents notice everything about them,and are involved----my parents didnt even notice blood pouring from my arms, and i thought, woah, now thats just not right, it bothered me so much that they didnt notice. my friends did, so i switched to carving my legs, and wearing pants all the time, but you have to understand, when i (im not speaking for everybody, but my experience) cut, the mental emotional pain is so intense, i need to let it out, and i am punished for crying, and for writing in diaries, and for writing poetry and lyrics, i didnt know how else to release it, but when you cut, you can feel the pressure, and the pain flow out of you, and it just becomes physical pain. physical pain i can deal with easily. it just throbs.

you have to understand that it is a part of us, and we cant just say we are going to stop and stop, my friends worry, one of them took my exactos away from me once, but thats ok, i got new razorblades. but still, its a way of release, and at least we arent committing suicide........i mean ,,,,seriously,,,,,and yes, i still think about suicide, but i know when i cut, it will be better for a while, enough for me to regain my strength, and then i can go on.

but if you are worried, DONT TALK TO A COUNSELOR. DONT TAKE THEM TO ANY PROFESSIONAL HELLP UNLESS THEY ASK. or they will never trust you again, and will find a way around it. the only ones who should be taken to a guidance counselor or something are the ones that do it cause they think its cool, or they want someone to notice them, and i spit on those, bc if thats why they are doing it, cutting actually doesnt help them in any way, so its stupid and childish for them to cut.
listen to your friends, be faithful, and dont tell anyone else about what they do to themselves, bc then, 2when it comes down to the wire, and they are desperate, they have a very good chance of coming to you to talk first. listen, dont say they need to go get help, theyre getting help by coming to you!!!! make yourself aware of the subject and the material against it, dont try to make them stop, just stand by them no matter what, when you have friends like that, the world doesnt seem so bad, and you have a reason to live to see the next day...hope this helped.

let's just say that physical pain is way more easier to handle than moral pain . so you forget your sucky life , sucky emotions and focus on the bleeding ! at least that's my reason !

I used to cut but no I don't, and at that, I only cut once so, I don't really care, I stopped becauseigot my knife taken away. It sucked.

Tabb, im still a c utter i cut becuase its the only pain that i feel like i can control or stop at anytime when things get rough i do turn to it and i admit its gotten worse but i no cutting isnt the answer i used to think cutting was shamful until i met a cutter that need my help and turned me to the effects of cuttin and i just started doing it becuase i was in to much emotional pain. thats y i cut even though i no i shouldnt but sometimes i just dont have time to think about it i just do it!

Tabb, It was very hard for me to stop. And I still cut occationally. I really wish I didn't. Its just what i turn to when I'm hurting. But stopping cutting, is prolly one of the best things you can do for yourself...good luck

Then why did you drag it up again?

Why did you drag it up again then?

Repeater! But then again it is a big issue but if you have something to say about it use an old thread don't take up space. And newbies say it so the don't get verbally shoot.lol. But it still dosn't help alot of them.

Because they should know that there are a million threads like this one.

Why do newbies always apologize for what the veterans say about other newbies threads?