For anyone that sincerely wants to help...
I want thing all to make sense but I have a feeling its a lot to explain. My boyfriend is leavin for college, I have one more year of HS. I am not worried about what happens between us but I feel like I am being abandoned. We have spent sao much time together, he's liek my best friend and next year I am going to be forced to find new people to hang out with. At such a small school, makin friends isn't a challenge, it's more of an impossible feat. I seem to be an outcast, no one in school shares my passion for anything: change, writing, learning, running. I feel like I am stuck in a "limbo." I have some friends from basketball who are very sweet, but I can hardly stand listening to them chatter on about "omg" this, using "like" more than any other word in the english language. I feel pretentious for sayin these things. I feel left out, outcasted, yet like there would be no where I want to go.. all at the same time. One of these girls even points out everytime I use a big word, repeating it like a question. Other people at my school are theatrical or artsy... I am NOT really like them either. It's hard to find common interest with people at my school. I am trying to put myself out there and try new things but I dont knwo where to begin.