Ok so here it is and u have to deal with me for a minute while i vent about how awful my life seems and i know theres people who have it worse than me but when you feel this depressed its hard to believe thats possible.
Anyway, to begin with, i was having an amazing year...even though the first week of '09 was fairly rough due to the fact that my bf was a loser who cheated on me and i had just broken up with him. Anyway I already liked someone else alot more anyway. when we started dating i was soo happy.
at this point i had the perfect life in my opinion. i had a guy i loved to death, friends i found trustworthy, and my parents and I got along. My life had lil drama and I wasnt stressed out at all. I was just constantly smiling. I think I even got prettier but who knows.
well, everything was pretty good up til Summer vacation. then all of a sudden i couldnt see my bf anymore cuz his parents had never liked me but i couldnt even see him at school now cuz it was summer vacation.so instead i tried to talk to him online which was like a major no go. i ended up avoiding all my friends in order to try to talk to him. then July comes along, he goes to camp, comes back, we finally get to hang out, and then like 2 days later i find out im being cheated on. and i know he may not consider it cheating but usually when everyone but u says something that points at u as being a liar. but yea so i basically wasted my time, and avoided my friends for no good reason. however, i actually had met a new friend who was pretty much my bestest guy friend within the week we started talking. he helped me through the entire break-up. which believe me....that was soooo hard... and i know im still not over it which is part of the reason im just like fml atm. but anyway, during this time all my friends who i thought were trustworthy, well i told them stuff, well i found out when school started that those people werent really trustworthy and i dont talk to those people anymore.Also my parents think im a slut now because of some other stuff that also happened over the summer so we spend about 88% of the time fighting now and its getting so bad that i just wanna run away...ugh
but anyhow to sum it up
1. i got my heart and my trust broken by someone i thought actually cared
2. I lost most of my friends because i cared too much about a guy who didnt care about me
3. I lost my parents trust and if u knew the whole story u would realize it wasnt my fault.
4. My parents and everyone pretty much hate me cuz i've turned into a not so nice person since life decided to be a jerk to me. My parents dont let me do anything anymore cuz of everything that happened.
5.I cant get over the dude but i still started dating the guy who helped me through the breakup for some reason.
6. The fact that i have no one to turn to and that im so torn up by losing the one person i was in love with is just making me sad all the time.
so anyone have any ideas how i can get outta this ditch that life threw me in??
What comes around comes back around and says RAWR!
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