When life becomes unbearable? I mean, after the bull**** starts to pile up, people just can't take it. Suicide is an option, but when you look at it, what's the point of that? Like many people have said, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Plus, I quite honestly don't want to die... But, yet, at times things are just to hard. I used to cut to release stress, but I don't want scars on my wrists, and, God, that's not healthy for you. But lately... I've been getting the urge to do it again. I haven't so far, but at times, it's really hard. I just feel so... down when I'm alone. It's impossible to be surrounded by the people that make me happy 24/7, but yet I need them around.

And what do you do when the guy you love lives half way around the world? I want to see him so bad, but he's in Northern Ireland, I'm in Canada and I have no way to get enough money to go see him! *sighs*

Life's hard, but I'm trying so damn hard to get through it. I want to be so happy someday so that I can look back and go "God, it was all worth it." So that I can look at myself and love the person I am. Cause I don't really feel that way right now! Someday I hope I can.

I gave up on my faith not to long ago because I couldn't see how a person who's supposed to be like God could let the things happen to us that do happen. It just doesn't seem right, you know? And so many things within the bible are contradictory... I'm not trying to diss anyone by what I write, I'm just expressing myself. And I don't really want to hear people rant and rave about how God is the perfect cure whatever ales me. Maybe religion is what I need, but right now, I don't think so. So for now I'm going to stick to my little atheist ways.

Well... I guess that's it. I just wanted a place to rant for a bit... Sorry if I offended anyone. Not my intent. *bows out gracefully*

~Kait

Hey. I can not imagine what you are going through. What I'm going to say may not do anything, but I'm going to write it anyway. About the "God thing" if you can't believe in a God who lets certain things happen, can you believe in a God sacrifices his only Son for you. I am really glad that you have ruled out suicide. That would be a waste of a perfectly good life. It may not seem like it now, but your life will get better! Again, the whole God thing, "All things work together for the good of those who love Him..." Jeremiah 29:11 Sorry if I'm sounding preachy, I really don't mean to.

im sorry your going thru some diffucult times. i know its not easy, but what am i to say i mean ive never had hard times like that. but i hope that you can find a good solution other than suicide, because im sure a lot of people would miss you a lot, even though i dont know you i know that most times when someone wants to committ suicide or does they dont realize how many ppl would miss them. just hang in there, and not to preach to you bc i defiantely dont go to church every sunday but although times seem bad, in my view God does things for a reason, i know it sounds stupid bc thats not a good thing to do at all, but its not that hes not there you just have to believe he is, i mean maybe thats what you need?? i dont know im not trying to say im smarter or better than you im just trying to help bc i know you didnt post this so no one would comment, and obviously you want someone to talk to...i like to help ppl with their problems, but obviously its a little harder bc your not my friend and i dont know you. hope things look up.