Please don't give me pity. I just need help.

I usually don't like talking about myself. But things have been getting serious lately. I'm in the midst of a panic attack as I type and I don't know how t stop it.I want to go to my mom for help, but she doesn't want to do anything for me. She doesn't want to pay for professional help, even though I desperately need it. She keeps telling me to go for walks, and I've done that, but it doesn't do shit. All she cares about is money. How can someone put a price on their daughter's life like that? I won't even dare going to my dad fore help. His presence puts me in a place I don't want to be. I have no friends to turn to. The guy I thought was my best friend, laughs when I tell him my problems or he'll start talking about his own life. I hate to sound like a prick but I don't want to hear it. But he can't seem to understand that. I've beeen completely alone for the last year, because i don't know how to socialize. It's driving me insane and my parents aren't making it any better. I only feel better when I take 5-10 Unisom pills and sleep for 24 hours and forget everything. I need serious help, but I can't get it.

I try to appear to be cold, mean and uncaring, but I'm not like that at all. I hate to admit it, but I'm extremely sensitive annd emotional. All I want to do right now is bash my face into the nearest hard surface, or something worse. What am I supposed to do? I have no one else to tturn to.

I'll NM her later than

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If you ever want to talk to some one...I'm here for you...kountry_kate3@hotmail.com

Always know that you can turn to yourself and try to have faith in something and find something to drive you some wrong you must right, some crusade you must do. Works for me.

I've been in a situation like that, and am great in giving advice. I know i'm a stranger, but trust me, I could really help. My email is pink_star02468@yahoo.com

I'm sure I can handle a simpleminded little girl, but thanks anyway.

*cracks neck & knuckles & glares* you want i should bounce bubblegum123 for ya?!

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hmm thought u didn't like when people talked about there personal life on the internet ?? hmm and ur doin lmao wow stupid bitch

I don't have a problem with people talking about their personal lives. In fact, I encourage it. I have a problem when it's completely unnecessary, and 95% of the time it is. Like you're little virginity/crotch "problem". It was necessary last week for me to make this thread, because I have no friends, no boyfriend, no one to talk to at all and I was extremely close to killing myself. I needed to vent, so I did. I never mentioned when I'm going to lose my virginty, how and to whom, or the things I need to do to my vagina before doing so. I was just feeling the effects of lonliness and alcohol. I have the capacity to keep my sex-life private, everyone else should too, unless it is an emergency situation. If you think I'm wrong for thinking that.... Well, then bite me.

silly newbie this is a little diffrent than what you were talking about. This is an actual problem were eras you were just being a moron talking about your crotch. I would rail on you more but I think I'll just let EG do it.

When one of us needs support, the others give it. When someone needs to rant, we listen. One big happy family. Whereas you, you insutled and discusted us.

hmm thought u didn't like when people talked about there personal life on the internet ??
hmm and ur doin lmao wow stupid bitch

good I was worried for a minute

Nevermind. I was out of my mind that day. I'm back to my old bitchy self again.

EarthGoddess -
you need to stand up to your parents...it seems like a lot to do...i mean they are your parents but you have to do it.look at them and tell them that you need some help or you could get hurt.....if this doen't work go to another reletive...if there aren't any get help by your self.

EarthGoddess -
Seems to me that you are in a similar situation that i had been in last year, so I know kinda what you are going through. I had no one who could understand what I was going through - I even went to a psychiatrist who didnt help me - only solution was to go on Prozac which i refused to go on (i had major depression for over a year, back then). i went to other people - counselours - but they didnt seem to understand what I was going through. No one seemed. And it got harder and harder. didnt help that i went to a private school with too many judgemental snobs who looked only if you come from a famous/rich family (my dad's company paid for most of my high school education). Ok enuf with that. i think that's enuf about my history.

but from my experience, What heals is through time and change (i now go to a university, and met alot of great ppl). also, try to keep yourself occupied - mentally and physically. i wud suggest volunteering which might boost your selfesteem. also, knowing from experience, having a ruff time now will only mean sooner or later things will definately get better - it's for certain. i think the walks wudnt/didnt work because it encourages you to think more about what's going on in ur life. Take one step at a time. If too many things are overwhelming you, try to deal with the most important ones first, or the ones that are easy to solve thus boosting your confidence.

blah, i am rambling on. u might have thought of these things before. Just know that you are not the only one that goes through this. it is hard to get ppl to understand what you are going thru all the time.

look, just calm down a bit, & breath. breath. there. i will help you if i can, i have a working knowledge of psychology & mental health. you can NM me too if you would like.

well hell if you wanted an ear and some advice all you ever had to do was ask.

tell me what going on and I'll see if I can help in any way (NM me if you want to keep is private)