ok...well i was diagnosed with depression but now i find i have bi-polar. my friend left this: http://www.livejournal.com/users/amakiir/ and my other friend replied and said she changed her things to so now i've lost two of my best friends and i can't cut anymore and i'm having withdrawls, i've almost ran away twice and i'm always thinking about suicide and i don't know what to do right now. to top it off one of my friends dad just died from a heart attack. help.

I have no idea what to say to you . But yaah I think you need more concrete help than we can give you . I like the anonimity of web too but seriously get out of that place , get some help . Im sorry your friends are giving you a hard time too .

PS i know not the place or the time but like your sign.

Sad, indeed.

What's that?

Ahh, right: Suck it up.

I know someone will probably shoot me down for this but maybe the reason for asking for help over the net is to find people that understand and have gone through similar circumstances. Also, the thought of telling someone you trust about your problems is kind of daunting, escpescially if you've lost others friends and you fear losing more them because of your problems too.

I hope you find what you're looking for and I really wish I could help. Sometimes all you need is someone to listen to your problems.

Just find somebody you can trust and talk it out. You need to talk to someone, face to face not over the net. I hope everything works out for the best for you. Just go get help and remember suicide won't solve anything.

We have to survive the bad things in life to see the good.

andrew... i want to help you. but i dont know what you're asking help for. so i'm just going to talk a little bit... and i hope i say something good.

i hope you dont mind, but i went to your lj. and one thing i can't stress enough - dont stop. for a lot of people, LJ and places like this is the only outlet for your true feelings. and those are something you need to express, or else they will just drive you crazy inside. if you have to, create a new online journal, where noone can see what you're typing, if it makes you feel better.
but another thing - dont alienate yourself. those thoughts of being alone in the world and having nothing or nooone - those will start to get bigger and bigger...you have people who care about you obviously - let them help you take your mind off the bad things, and show you some good things. its the good things in life why we stay alive. LIFE itself sucks. no ifs ands or buts about it. but - candy is good. friends is good. movies are good. whatever your talents are - those are good.

oh. and just because you are depressed and bipolar dosen't mean you have a handicap. there are a lot of people in power who also are diagnosed - but they are still successful. and very loved.

but.. sometimes.. why we think of suicide.. is not always because we want to die. its because its something new. when you grow up from being a child - death takes on a whole new way of scaring people. i had a friend who was suicidal, and she tried to kill herself so many times, in so many different and bizarre ways. but when we talked it out - she didn't want to die, she was actually scared of dying by accident. so she wanted control. crazy, but its true.

I agree with the below posts. Searching for help on the internet is essentially asking a blind man what something looks like.

What Sian said is a good idea, find someone who knows and trusts you and vice versa. Internet can not help you much since they don't know you well. I hope you feel better.

Find a trusted friend, and I'm not reffering to a peer, though if you know a peer that you could truly trust, do so. Talk so someone you can actually see. I'm not sure seeking help on the internet is the wisest choice.

Talk to a therapist/teacher/parent/adult, it'll help.