I don't know what is wrong with me! I can not be happy, no matter how hard I try! I have felt like this for more than 6 years. (I am fifteen.) About 6 months ago I finally told my parents that I was sure I had depression. (NO DUH-like it wasn't obvious!) I thought that my problem was just a fear of getting help and that once I got help it would get better-WRONG! The doctor prescribed Zoloft, but it just makes me think about suicide more and more, so I have stopped taking it. I turn to cutting instead, because it is the only way I can get myself to be calm. I also was sent to a therapist, but everytime I go in there I freeze up and can't talk! The therapist said that I need to make a decision about whether or not I want to keep going there-I want to but I can't talk so I don't see how continuing to go there will help anything-but if I stop going there then it is going to basically be back to how it was to begin with and everyone just is going to give up on me! My parents yell at me about everything, and say that there is nothing wrong with being happy and that I need to stop acting like the world is out to get me....can't they see how hard I try? I just can't be happy no matter what I do! What should I do!?!??!?!?!? HELP PLEASE!!!!

have u tried writing what u feel on paper... it might help then u dont have to talk about it and people will know whats going on...

I have the same problem. All I can really say is toughen up. Put your emotions behind you. It's better to be numb, than to feel like you'll never find happiness.

If you can't talk to your therapist, look for one you feel more comfortable around.

Listen take your day one minute at a time and don't worry about anything else. Remember that you are loved by someone. Here is a qoute to help you get through your day " You're a Fighter, Keep Fighting" that is my quote to you.

Hi

Wow, I don't even know where to start with this. I can relate to what you are saying in soo many ways. I guess first off I want you to know you aren't alone! For pretty much as long as I can remember I have had problems with depression. Yes, sometimes there were specific things I might be able to target as to why I was upset, or perhaps it was due to a bad living environment (which it sounds like yours isn't the best either), and having harbored feelings for a long time. However, there were a LOT of days when I would wake up in the morning, and just start crying for no apparent reason. No one could get through to me. I felt like my friends didn't care, or that if I were to try to explain why I was withdrawing from them, school, and pretty much any social activities, that they simply would not understand and therefore I was only going to waste my breath.
It really is amazing to me how oblivious parents can be. My mom didn't know until recently that throughout my high school years I was not only depressed but suicidal. I too, had been sent to psychologist after psychologist...to be honest I never felt comfortable with any of them. I didn't see how they could genuinely care about what I had to say, not to mention having to tell the same story over and over again just gets exhausting! You also said that when you go, you seem to freeze up and not really talk. I can only hope that he/she isn't trying to pressure you into talking, because what they really should be doing is just be patient and gentle with you instead of telling you to make a decision.
Zoloft. That was the first anti-depressant I was prescribed, and it was somewhere around your age as well. I absolutely HATED it, and refused to continue taking it. Ultimately it is your body, and no one can make you do something you don't want to do. I have now been taking Wellbutrin for maybe about 5 months. It honestly took me this many years to realize that something was seriously wrong, and the way I was feeling was not normal. My only advice with the anti-depressants is that the first one you try isn't always the best one. There are so many out there these days, and each one is good for a different person. If you have not done so already, you should go and talk to your doctor about the Zoloft. Let him/her know how it has been making you feel, and hopefully they can find something that works better for you. It is somewhat common for the medication to motivate people who are depressed, but if you are too far gone, sometimes that motivation turns more into a motivation of going through with your thoughts of suicide... your doctor should be monitoring how it is affecting you, and I am concerned if that is how it has been making you feel.
It saddens me to hear that instead of being there to support you, your parents yell at you. That most certainly is not going to help the situation. I don't know if you have close friends you can talk to, but if you feel like you need to talk to someone let me know. I know that sometimes all I really wanted was for someone to listen...

Keep your head up luv <3

Sometimes you're not unhappy for a reason, sometimes you just are.

why?? why are you unhappy? are you unhappy because of school? because of your parents? if you figure out the reason why, then you correct it. believe me, depression runs in my family. i would have to say, endorphins help. and if you do sports, then you make friends so you're more comfortable with strangers, which means you could talk to your therapist better, you get the adrenaline rush, and you don't have time to cut yourself as much.

Crazyteenboy101, please do not advise harmful activities in the future. We are trying to help people, and this is not helping