i was depressed for a long time because of past expiereances and i know for a fact that the only way to get over it is to talk to someone and get it all out!!! i cut my self, over dossed and nearly killed my self before i finally found out that all u need is someone to talk to... i'm here talk i'll listen and give advice...

"no day but today"

hey hillary,

you should try using some of these helplines


Suicide
# 1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-564-2120
# Suicide Prevention

Self Injury/Cutting
# 1-800-DONT-CUT or 800-366-8288
# Learning to Cope With Self-Injury

if you need someone to talk to, you can always noisemail the staff or moderators..we would be glad to help!

so i just signed up...i think this place could help...my parents "want what's best for me" but like im a simple girl i dont really want or need anything but to have a relationship with them where they don't judge me and yell at me...im in 11th grade and i started cutting since i was in 8th...ive had multiple occasions where i've written goodbye letters and attempted to kill myself but i also think of my grandparents..who are my rock..and how they say suicide is like the unforgivable sin so i chicken out but i never want to see anyone ever again...i love sleeping because i dont have to worry about anything...i tried to kill myself tonight but i thought of my 3 best friends and how i would let them down...im trying to be strong but im breaking down quickly and i cant take it anymore ive been crying for 4 hours straight...im tried of feeling like this....

I have been in bad situations .. Where i made bad decisions and i had no one to turn to .. my parents never understand and they always argue with me . about how wrong i am .. i am not the best student . but it seems that to my parents i have to be . and no matter how hard i study i still end up failing.. and the pressure out there from friends is overwhelming .. i seem to have no one to talk to .. but me

im depressed i dont know who to tell to get like help.ive been messed up on drugs for a while and ive been off for a while. i was so depressed when i started and i use to cut but that took that away and i felt good. i had to get off cause i got busted and there was no other way.i just wanna feel good again. id really rather be dead rite now than like this. im afraid to tell people because of the extent it might go to or theyll tell me to get over it but i cant. can someone help me like figure anything out?

I would like to tell you a little of my past hoping that you may see a light at the end of your tunnel,

Through out the first 14 years of my life I had been...

physically abused by those I trusted most...

verbally assulted by those I confided in...

mentally minipulated by those I grew up with...

socially out casted all through out and it has recently happened again...

spiritually misled by every religous leader i've met...

and my sexual out look had been twisted by experiences that took place when I was 6...

I should of gone to jail for three seperate murders had God not intervined,

I lost my mother to liver/breast cancer when I was 16,

I've endured three years of total isolation from my family, friends, and society,

and now have been accused of being a child molester because I pissed off a local bussiness man and his detective friend because I was giving away free skate boards to kids and was hurting his bussiness... and have been instructed to stop helping kids which is the only thing I know how to do...

I say all this because I understand you want to cut yourself to ensure your still human, possible to still feeling pain, to realize there is still something worse then the situation you are in, and sis all three statements are true, however don't let the actions of others determine your future...

you also cut because you wonder if it will make all the pain go away and hurt your enemies by making them look and feel horrible for driving you to this point...

but all it will do is prove that they could, and give them the pleasure of saying that there was something wrong with you...

when in truth they are the ones wrong, don't prove them right... though you feel no love, does not mean no one has love for you,as a complete stranger that is fimilar to your situation

...I can say I love you simply because you are a pure and innocent child needing love...

holly120
i'm writer4 and i have been through the cutting and everything i know how you feel. but if you have a therapist your mom shouldn't be able to listen in you should have the right to keep all the stuff you talk about between you and your therapist but my advice is to look around youth noise for someone to talk to i found my hero on this website the one person you can count on could be on your computer screen right now

hi.im new here and i have been cutting for a year.im depressed bcause of my dad and stepfamily.my mom found out about the cutting and i now take medication and visit a therapist.but i still cut.talking doesnt help bcause my mom is listening 2 me talking 2 my doctor.i cant talk to any one in private and i cant get away from my dad!i dont know how to get better with everyone being nosy or how 2 stop cutting!can anyone give me advice on how 2 get better?

writer4, I am so so glad you are back. I went to a hospital too - she's right, just try to open up.

hey guys this writer4 & i just want to say that no matter how stupid or dumb you think therapists are your wrong about two weeks ago i tried to kill myself they sent me to a hospital & i was there for two weeks,talking to someone who you don't know should be easy they won;t judge because they don't know & if your still not convinced try talking more indepth to a person on this site i met the one true person who understands me & without them in my life its not worth living its never dumb to open up

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ok for those of you who have a therapist...ummm yea idk but i think the whole idea is stupid. you want me to sit there and talkt to some man/woman who really doesn't know me, and pour my soul out to them? sure you can tell them what's going on with your life, but they don't know everything about you to actually come to conclusion on how to help you.

You've obviously never been to a therapist.

Therapists have resources that normal people do not. They give you ideas, new angles to look at things. They don't just sit around listening to your problems. They try to give you ideas to actively improve your life, things that most people don't think about.

A therapist is like any relationship you have. It gets to the point where you can tell them anything because you feel comfortable. Not always the first few times, but eventually. And because of client-doctor privacy laws, you can tell them anything -- excepting homicide, suicide and on-going abuse (especially of a child) -- and have it be kept a secret.

EDIT: Sometimes, it's also nice to get your feelings out there without having to worry about being judged, and to a non-biased third party. I've had a lot of situations in the past year where it really helped me to have a therapist to go talk to.

ok for those of you who have a therapist...ummm yea idk but i think the whole idea is stupid. you want me to sit there and talkt to some man/woman who really doesn't know me, and pour my soul out to them? sure you can tell them what's going on with your life, but they don't know everything about you to actually come to conclusion on how to help you.

Maybe a friend or a friend's parent? You could also try calling a hotline.

my teachers don't lisen to meh! they hate me and ive been to 20 counslers

You really should probably talk to someone about that. Maybe a teacher or a friend's parent who will listen. You shouldn't be living with your parents if your home life is like that. Also, maybe you and your therapist just didn't really get along. It may take more then one try.

i did i went to counsling they all down grade me im always depressed my mom dose drugs and smokes and my dad beats me

You should probably ask someone for help. That's what my friends have been telling me to do. Cutting is one of those things that is hard to deal with on your own.

i need help i cut alot and i flirt what do i do?

try ignoring it all and then they will think something is actually wrong with you.

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I'm not a therapist, but potentially try a distraction method? Like wear rubberbands/hairties around your wrist and every time you feel the urge to cut, snap them instead?

That's a good idea...I'll try it. I do know I need professional help. Maybe someday I will be able to get it, but I'm trying to get better on my own. Also, thanks for the website - it has a lot of helpful stuff.