Get some popcorn and a chair because I'm opening up a bit of my soul here.

So basically I have a dilemma. I'm growing increasingly alienated with anyone, but particularly my peers. It seems everywhere I turn people are either self-centered, total whores (sexually, morally, politically, and fiscally), completely unintersting, or just plain assholes.
I end up coming off as a hardcore conservative when I'm really nothing of the sort. I care about personal discipline and a strong moral code.
But I'm also disgusted and/or alienated by Christians, or anyone who'e religious. And they're the only ones who seem to consistantly have SOME sort of a non-cynical morality.
For example, recently one of my friends has become very Christian. Sort of threw me off balance. But she invited me to come hang out with the kids from her youth group. I had a great time, the best time I'd had in a while actually. But I felt like an outsider because, frankly, Jesus doesn't save anything, let alone me.

On the flip side, at college I'm offered all sorts of debauchery, drugs, and pleasure, but I'm disgusted by 95% of it. Rich kids suck ass, as do kids trying to hang out with rich kids.

So basically, I'm left with three types of people: Really cool but simultaneously scary/alienating people. Total douchebag hedonists. And the workaholics and/or personality-impaired.

I can't seem to find anyone I really want to associate with. Friends or otherwise. I feel like I'm descending into this pit of personal isolation. I'm drinking too much, and want to just be alone half the time. It's driving me crazy because I used to be a fairly outgoing and funny guy. I still am, but I just can't find a group of people that I actually want to spend the effort on. No matter where I go I'm feeling alone. It seems the more people I'm around, the more alone I feel.

Who knows what to do about this eh? I need to go out and meet people, but it seems like the people I actually want to meet don't go to social gatherings, ha. This is what I get for thinking to much and crafting my own personal standards. Sure I'm independent, but I have nobody I feel like I should associate with.

I feel like I should go get counselling for some antisocial/social anxiety disorder. But I'm extremely wary of those things. The reason I'm so isolated is because I don't like people for specific reasons. Reasons I usually feel fairly strongly about.

strangelove...how are you?

Hi!
I think you and my only friend would get along. He's digusted by rich kids and religion so you would have that in common. He's really really smart when it comes to science, but he's not one of those creepy smart science people.

In general you two seem compatible if you want to see his xanga I could give you the adress.

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We are sorry but our services cannot help you, there are some personality types that do not fit into our database.

You're lying!! lmao.

Well.
If you don't want to transfer, being a LONER is the sacrifice you are making. Wow. You've been a loser for quite a while now.
My "Christmas present" for you last year was something along the lines of evading your loner-ness and getting a girlfriend.

And, silly, maybe you're not as friendly as you think.
But you're awesome either way.
Don't get me wrong.

Nobody is more cool than Glove.

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Originally posted by yogore:
I think you're just too selective/prejudgemental, which isn't a bad thing, but you need to realixe that. You can't stereotype someone based on who they hang out with or a select few actions. But that's just my [late] 2 cents.

Yeah I figure that's where I have to go. It's not really an issue about being prejudgemental, or at least I don't think so. I feel like I think like this is because I was accepting of people in general and just found a lot of them to be terrible assholes.

As far as the college situation goes, that sounded similar to mine when I went to WVU.

I think you're just too selective/prejudgemental, which isn't a bad thing, but you need to realixe that. You can't stereotype someone based on who they hang out with or a select few actions. But that's just my [late] 2 cents.

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Oh and Celtic, in a slightly related peice of humor: I took that free compatability test eHarmony is always advertising on TV. The result? "We are sorry but our services cannot help you, there are some personality types that do not fit into our database."

Holy shit. Either you have multiple personality disorder, or that site truly sucks. Or both. Or neither. Daaaaaaamn...

Well, you are awesome, and I may be going to Washington with my class this summer, so yeah.

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We are sorry but our services cannot help you, there are some personality types that do not fit into our database.

Now that's gotta hurt.

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Glove, what do you want us to tell you?

That I am the most amazing person in the world and that an army of my supporters is soon to rendezvous with me so we can march on Washington.

Ha, I don't know, I was half bored when I started this and needed to vent. Go figure.

Oh and Celtic, in a slightly related peice of humor: I took that free compatability test eHarmony is always advertising on TV. The result? "We are sorry but our services cannot help you, there are some personality types that do not fit into our database."

Well, your batting average can only get better if you keep swinging.

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Ha, I think I just need a girlfriend :-p

Perhaps.

If you're TRULY desperate...

AtomicSneeze is an intern at YN in SF. She's also on the YAB.

Glove, what do you want us to tell you?

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I'm going to have to agree with crzyme and say transfer. Honestly, paying all of that money to be unhappy?

Quite frankly, because the program here is the best on the East Coast. If I graduate with decent grades, which I am headed towards right now, I'll basically get paid to go to graduate school by universities. And I can't throw all the money and connections I've invested here out the window.
I'm just going to have to sweat it out.

What I'm talking about isn't just college, it's just in general. Not nessecarily the same groups of people (ie. rich kids, etc.) but just people.

I'm not entirely sure. I just feel like it's not healthy to feel this disconnected, and I think it's getting worse. I'm a funny, interesting, generally friendly guy who has a lot to offer as a friend or whatever, but I just seem to be missing something that actually makes me fit somewhere. Not that I don't have a problem with not fitting, it's just that I'm afraid I'll get bitter, angry, and end up alone in the long run. Ha, I think I just need a girlfriend :-p.

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AtomicSneeze
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Registered: October 10, 2001
Posts: 174

Talk about a veteran...

sounds to me like you feel like an outcast and a misfit because you're different, and because you're not blindly following every norm and tradition that society dictates.If that's the case then, certainly, certainly, CERTAINLY, you MUST realise that that's a feeling you smash immediately because difference is just about the only interesting thing left on this planet anyway........and if you lose that then you're just another headless, boring drifter in the saga of enslaved zombies that listlessly roam the earth..........

.....or maybe you probably REALLY just discovered that the world is a veeery boring place to be because everyone (except a few specially anointed) think alike and talk alike and act alike..... and that the "new" things you see now have all happened before, and that you will probably see them again real soon.....

.......or maybe you probably just did this thread to pull someone's legs and see waht people had to say - -were you, like really bored when you did this?


....or maybe you have just been living so easy and comfortable, and happy and satisfied with who you are as an individual that you've begun to worry about how easy and comfortable and happy and satisfied you are because you think its just too good to be true, and anyone who is that content with themself is surely troubled?or something along that line?

........or maybe you have exhausted all your knowledge acquisition powers and have become so wise in worldly things that you cannot find your equal in knowledge and power (i doubt it)and are now experiencing the loneliness of the chosen few who are destined to walk this earth alone, seeking yet never finding what they're looking for.........

......or maybe you're really worrying about nothing at all....

......or maybe you're just too damn arrogant for your own good....

IDK --- this is pure speculation.........

I'm going to have to agree with crzyme and say transfer. Honestly, paying all of that money to be unhappy? My friend went to one college because they had a academic program she was super interested in, made some friends, but in the end was REALLY unhappy. Get the best grades you can and then GET OUT. Your college has GOT to make you happy, and if you're looking for more diversity of opinion, activities, whatever it may be, you WILL find that in a larger, most likely PUBLIC, university. Yup.

So, about Kate's idea:::

A Monastery! Fun. And then you could sing like that one band...um...Depeche Mode. Yep. That'd be cool. And funny. PROBABLY more funny that cool actually.

I am to bored to read it all, but HOLY CRAP, I will say that.