Dear God,

I can't find the words to reach you. Have you forgotten that once small child, hiding beneath a blanket in a darkened clost? Where were you then Did you count the tears I wept for you? Did you miss the voice you once gave to me? Did you hear the silence within my heart?

I have looked for you in many places, but yet you have left me silenced and alone. Tell me, do you hear me now? For I am silenced no more!!

Dear God,

You're not real. Your son, heaven, hell, and satan I do believe aren't real. I know that when I die, I'm not going to be standing infront of some big pearly gate waiting for judgment. I feel like I've already been handed my judgment and there's no way to change it.

I know that things don't have to be seen in order to be real, but if you were really real or had the power that you have, then why are natural disaters happening, why are children dying, why the wars and violence, why 9/11? There is no lesson in innocent people dying and if there was it's not working.

iamastar

Dear God,

I think I've earned a bit of a break. When you keep piling on this stuff like you are, I really don't feel like I'm doing your will. It's hard to reach out into the world when I don't even know how to help my own family. I know everything starts in the home...but seeing the suffering in my family just breaks my spirit so much that I just don't know how I stand it. I just need help in picking up the slack...I just don't know how you expect me to do it all by myself.

-Meagan

Dear God,
Why are there so many tests and challenges in life? Wait I already learned this answer at church. Seriously with some of the things that I am seeing I am second guessing everything again. I could really use some help over here. Come if it is what thy wants.
-EAS

Dear God,

It wasn't fair, what you did. I still see Matthew every week in my preschool Sunday School class, and I can see in his eyes all the pain his family is going through. It hurts to see so much suffering in someone so small. He is so young; she was so young - only ten. They didn't deserve this.

God, please take care of Jessica. She loved to laugh, she loved you, and she loved the color purple. Even when her hair was gone she never lost faith. You gave Jessica leukemia, now can you give Jessie a good home with you?

Love,
M.

Dear God,
I think things will work out. Thanks. I wonder why you let things like this happen though. When I look down the pediatric wing of the hospital, I think why. Have yo turned your head. Do yo not hear there suffering. I ask you why can't you make it stop!
-EAS

thanks

Dear God,

I still hate you. I just thought you should know.

-M.

Dear God,
Why do you put so much faith in me? I don't think I can do what I think you are asking. Why does she think that I am the one that can save her? I don't think I am as smart as she thinks. Why weren't you there to help her when she needed it? I could use some help now putting the pieces back together. What do I do? What do I say? Thanks though for everything so far.

-EAS

Dear God,

I don't know what you want from me. I really am trying to avoid the "Why Me?" mentality, but it really is a good question. I would love to know what qualifies me to be put in the position I'm in. I really don't have confidence in myself as far as this whole situation goes and I really just need some strength and guidance. Please take care of my mom and sister as well, I worry about them.

-Meg

P.S. You couldn't make my summer go by more quickly, could you? I really want to get back to school...

Dear God.
I love you, thanck you for all you do in my life. God please help my dad he really really needs you. God why is the world so so so sad....why do people have to hurt each other and be curel? God what is heaven like? Why is it wroung to be Gay? God I love you and always will... please help me to stay close to you because I REALLY want to find out what heavens like. What happens when we die? God, take away my worries. I'm not sure what else to say now, because it changes from day to day you know that. I love you.


Love Heather. your daughter.

Dear God,

I don't understand. I keep hurting myself, and I want to stop, but I can't - I need the pain. Isn't there a better way? I hate myself for what I do, but I don't know how else to release what's inside. I know I'm screwed up; can't you help me?

God, I think something bad happened that night. I think he... did something to me, but I'm afraid to talk about it. I can't tell anyone, but I suppose you already know. It wasn't beautiful, God. It definitely wasn't beautiful. I hate you.

Love,
M.

Eloi, Eloi lema sabachthani?
My God, My God, Why have you forsaken me?

Why do these people deserve all this pain? all the hell in their lives? why must we suffer? why must we be beaten, raped, shunned, ostracised and outcast? why must our kin be torn from us?
I thought you were supposed to give a shit and love your children
so why?

-your son and your servant,
EWG

Dear God,

When did I stop being a little girl? When did I lose the feeling that I was free and everything was okay? When did the little things stop making me happy? When did I become to old to hold someone's hand?

I want to be a little girl again. I want to be able to be lighthearted and carefree, and let the sun shine on my face, and to smile. I want a little joy like picking a pretty flower to make my day; I want to have someone's hand to hold and someone to trust. I want someone to hold me close when I am sad or scared.

When did all of this end, God? I know it used to be there. But suddenly it's gone - and little things seem more and more insignificant. I am growing up and I'm not ready yet.

I can look at my little sister and see all of these things reflected in her eyes. When did I let them go?

Love,
M.

Eloi, Eloi lema sabachthani?
My God, My God, Whay have you forsaken me?

Father I know that I haven't been the best of people in the world, but I will do better, I know I've said it before but I really do want to cast out the demons who inhabit me and drag me in to darkness

-your son and your servant,
EWG

Father-
Do you listen when we call out to you?
-EA

Dear God,

My parents say that my church is the only "right" way to worship you. Is that true? But don't you love everyone? God, I don't want to be a part of my parents church anymore, but what if they're right and you hate me?

I want to die, God. Please, please make it end. I'm too scared to do it on my own.

Love,
M.

Dear Hypothetical God,

I've heard that everything happens for a reason. Why did CP die, then? Why did Tarius die? What reason could you possibly have for that? You're God, so you must know that Tarius was supporting both his mom and baby sister. What are they gonna do now? Why would you do that? You've devastated a lot of people. What for? Why can't you just leave us the fuck alone? Why the fuck should I believe in you if all you're gonna do is kill the people who are close to me?

Fuck you, God. Fuck you straight to hell.

-Michelle.

Dear God,

If that tree last night was how you were going to end it for me, I just wanted to tell you that it didn't work. It wasn't close enough to my house, and anyway, don't kill my sisters. They still want to live. And also, now the kids who lit the tree on fire are probably in a lot of trouble. And they took my next door neighbor away in an ambulance. Is this all my fault, God? Did something just get screwed up in the process? Please end it soon. Just me - not the entire neighborhood.

Love,
M.

Dear God,

Yeah okay, we've been through this, you know exactly how much I hate your fucking ass. A couple of nights ago, you know what I mean, I gave up I aint every comming to you again about anything. I've accepted my demons, and they atleast stick with me more faithfully than you do.

Fuck you God and thats a huge FUCK YOU to Jesus too. You said you came to die for me, well FUCK IT. I don't want it, I don't even fucking care anymore.

You know what you've given me, and what you have done. So you have no excuse.. thats right you tested me and I failed. I've gotten over it. You should too.

Fuck you.