Why do people really start cutting? It seems like such a waste of time. You're hurting yourself. But what if nobody around you notices or says anything? Then where are you left...do you end up committing suicide (or trying) or do you attempt to change yourself?

What in hell am I talking about....

This is my 3rd year "mutilating" myself..on and off.. For some reason nobody noticed, or cared to say anything. For one my parents never noticed. They seemed too wrapped up in work and they were convinced I was a perfect child. I've cut my arms and hands, slashed my stomach, pulled out hair...wierrddd junk.
The only thing anyone ever noticed was the little scar I had left on my stomach ANNNDDD they believed me when I said it was from running into a counter.. how stupid can you get? what am I an incredible clutz?

I realize school and all that peer pressure bull**** adds to it. To make it better, I'm an alcoholic (but I haven't drank since August YAY but that really means no parties). I witnessed the rape of one of my friends. I went away for less than a minute to go to the bathroom. When I came back I was all alone in a neighborhood I didn't live in at 3 in the morning. I had to find people I know and wander around to find her when I was drunk. I found her and the kid later. An 18-yr-old notorious for being a "woman beater". In the beginning of the year he started a riot at a party cuz he hit a girl.I slept less than an hour last not and practically had to fix it myself. And this didn't help my "condition".


I have called my friends crying and attempting suicide.But I've learned to speak. All I have to say is kids really need to be more careful.


sooo....Anyone got any experiences to share??

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Give me something that I need
Satisfaction guaranteed
Because I'm thinking about
a brand new hope
the one I've never known
cause now I know
it's all that I wanted- Macy's Day Parade

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Even when I want to (which I find is only when i'm extremely angry). I made a promise to my friends and my sister that I'd seek help without doing it.

Spud, I know. That 'wound' on my arm as been there for like over a month. And that little sucker still hurts. dammit.
-Sunset

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A while ago someone posted asking about "erasing yourself", and me, being the intelligent person I am, tried it. The wound hasn't healed yet. And all of my friends are mad at me...

i am in my 3rd year of self mutalation too. I regret it sometimes. My friends and family know. My dad has known for more than1 year and half and he still has not done anything about it. He knows i tried to kill myself plaenty of times. Yey he still has not gotten me help yet. I made promise to my friends that i would not cut myself anymore but i usual break the promise. And they get pissed and they stop talking to me then i cut myself more and more then they notice and talk to me again. The reasons i started cutting myself is that i was carving this guy's name into my ankle and. But that was stupid that was lust. I lost my mom when i was 2 years old. My dad can be abusive. He has beaten women and has gone to jail for it. My dad gets so high and drunk and abuses me. Even though the last time he hit me was 2 years ago and 1 week before my birthday. I can't seem to find love at all. When i get c's on my report cards my dad calls me stupid. This time my dad said if i get a c on my report card heo is gonna beat the **** out of me. sometimes i am the parent and my dad is the child. My friends are just as bad in cutting and suicidal as me and i am trying to turn them around. Cause i don't want to lose friends. I try to help people before they get deep into the rabbit hole as me and it's alot of hard work and it's to much stress for me.

and btw, someone mentioned using shards of glass? i dont know if it was an example or not...but you need to be careful about like metal things...tetna shots are not fun. i dont cut myself, but when my mom is yelling at me, i will bite the inside of my cheek to distract me. kind of like mutilation but not as severe. my cheeks have permanent little marks on the inside i can feel with my tounge but no one can tell.

I dont have any experience, but a guy I know does. He was on a four-wheeler with his best friend out in a field, and his friend crashed and the four-wheeler rolled over him. when his friend got there, he thought he was just unconcious and tried to give him CPR. He said his friend's head was bleeding so much and he tried to stop the bleeding and "his blood was all over his hands". his friend had died right when the accident had happened because he hit his head on something, but his friend was there for close to an hour before paremedics came because he thought his friend was still alive. the paremedics declared the boy dead, at 15, on the scene. i dont know how i would live through that. my solution is always running away. lol, i know that thaat is bad, but i always justify myself by thinking that it is better than hurting myself, which it is. try it soemetime. not like packing to spend a night, just like get on your bike and go somewhere. like where there are not a lot of people and where there are lots of trees around. it feels great.

Why are you hurting yourself just to get other people to notice it? What's wrong with you? If you really want attention there are ways other than hurting yourself to get it. Also, if you lie about what happened then how are they supposed to know? If you say "this scar is from running into a counter" are you expecting them to think "I bet our kid's lying, probably self-mutilation! Shrink time!" ?

I know people who cut themselves or self-injure themselves just for fun or attention and I think thats stupid.

I cut myself and I don't do it for attention.
THINGS in my life have affected me so.....

Anyway,
self-injury isn't something that shouldn't be taken lightly or jokingly.Its very serious and at times it is/or can be addictive.
A lot of kids at my old school cut themselves or self-injure themselves and its become a real problem.When I saw one of my best friends,she told me that one of her new friends tried to kill herself at school. The kids there are under so much pressure and the majority of them are depressed and want help...but are screaming in silence.

If you THINK someone is hurting themselves,ask and try to help them.Its a whole lot better than you telling everyone that they do that to themselves for attention.

If you're asking for an honest answer from someone who spends time and energy digging shards of glass into their skin, here it is. It's not for attention. It's not because of "the pain within". It's not a reaction to something traumatic or a sense of hopelessness. It's a diversion, like lighting matches and watching them burn out. It's something to do that makes time pass, that makes life go by. I personally - and I will NOT generalize, because I might very well be alone in this - cut because I am bored.

heh. this'll be fun to answer

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Why do people really start cutting?

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many reasons

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For some reason nobody noticed, or cared to say anything

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for some reason?! do you want people to know?!

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The only thing anyone ever noticed was the little scar I had left on my stomach ANNNDDD they believed me when I said it was from running into a counter.. how stupid can you get? what am I an incredible clutz?

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hmm. your first question? ive answered it, for you at least. attention. damn you. you give the rest of us cutters a bad name

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Sounds like your mutilating yourself for attention...

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agreed

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it isn't even really like cutting is for attention. It does help. But you're still crying out for something..

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but in your case its all for attention

this is all i have to say to you.
go to hell
get a life
and go f*ck yourself
oh yeah
stop making us look bad!!!

If I did.... I wouldn't let everybody here find out.
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it isn't even really like cutting is for attention. It does help. But you're still crying out for something.. twisted isn't it...

Shock value does count for quite a bit surprisingly. Gotta few friends who pretty much live for shock value. and yea...habits are hard to kick..

It's crazy how many suicides happen daily... It's something like 18 every minute I'm not really sure.. anyone know the statistics??

I kinda do that.But not for attention.For some reason it makes me feel better.It's very hard to explain.I think it's just a phase I'm going through.And some people can't help cutting themselves.When they start it can somestimes become a habit and it's hard to stop.

It's almost always an internal conflict. Perhaps a factor of self-mutilation could be guilt ; ez. a person cutting him/her-self as a punishment for themselves.

Been there, done that. Not going back.

I've cut, I've thought about suicide, I even drank and GOT behind a CAR a drove when I was drunk, just to "fit in." I've done **** like that. I was even arrested. I was put into a "control center for 'bad' kids". I'm not going back. NEVER.

I even got a knife and almost cut my wrist, but my boyfriend caught me before I did. I've been anorexic, ect. I've done it. I've made some pretty screwed up choices. I admit it, it was my fault. My parents never knew, I don't resent them for it. They trusted me, just like your parents. You're taking advantage of it. You're saying "no one can control me!!!" Or "look at me!!!" ect. Some people don't do it for attention. Just, to feel the pain. To punish themselves. ect.

GET HELP NOW.
-Sunset

Every one just seeks self-satisfaction in some way. Some people are terribly happy when they do something to shock people.

Sounds like your mutilating yourself for attention...

Sad...