Oh geez SoccerChick13, I'm really sorry for everything that has and is happening to you.

I know this might not help, but I know how you feel. I would talk about it with you, if you like. If you want me to, I could send you a noisemail with my e-mail.

I don't want to talk about it on here though. I already said too much on here that I didn't want to say. Basically what I'm saying is that one day I was in the hospital for an operation and I came home and I guess the doctors gave me so much medication that I guess, I went on the computer, to this site and said something that I didn't want to say. I don't know how that happen and I don't remember anything. I just know that when I came on the computer again and went to this site, I saw one of my post and right there in front of my face was something I didn't want to say.

You have some guts because what I said on here that I didn't want to say, you said it in your post right now and you asked for help. I'm so stubborn that I don't ask for help even when I know I need it. I am so stubborn that I think I could deal with my problems on my own and I think when I ask for help it makes me seem like one of those people that just is looking for attention. I think I just don't deserve help. I'm not saying this is for everyone, this is for me ONLY. I don't want to bother anyone with my pity problems. I just can't ask for help or listen to people who are trying to help and this might scare you, but I look up to you. You asked for help and you are willing to listen instead of pushing people away and I admire that.

I have to apologize to a lot of people. Started with someone on here.

Billy

I would send you a noisemail and tell you this but I can't because it doesn't let me. By the way, have you been getting any of my noisemails? I guess not because it says that it's not sending it. Well, basically what I am trying to say is sorry. This is harder than it looks. I don't know what else to say so I hope sorry is enough.

Bye n Have a nice day

Hey sk8erprep,
Opps I spelled nosy wrong... ok I'll try that but I need to ask my Dad, you can e-mail me if you want... is that ok? I think my e-mail is in my profile. If you want to can you please but as the subject "For Stephanie" because if you don't my Dad will read it... Well I g2g,
Steph aka SoccerChick13

Soccerchick it ok ur not bein nosey. she moved cause she got transfered for work. aim is aol instant messanger. to get it all u have to do is go to aim.com click the big square on the side that says download aim 5.sometin for free. and fill out the info. it is free. i have it at my dad's house. and i am always here if u wanna talk.

Hey,
Thanks everyone for helping. Nobodysfool704 Yeah Good Charlottes a great band & they also had a hard life,I already have the c.d's I just got their c.d's a few weeks ago & I'm listening to them right now...lol. Annielou I'll call the hotline,thanks for looking it up for me. Today I found out my Grandpa has lung cancer & my Dad has diebetis (spell check?) the docter says my Dad has to lose weight or he can die...But he has already lost a lot of weight so I think he'll be ok. BillyBarrio I just found out that muscle weighs more I started lifting weights & cut out the junk food & I gained 5 more pounds... I'm just trying to lose weight so I can be healthy,I think I look fine I just don't want to get diebetis (spell check?)Oh here I go again & blabbering on... & everyone thanks again & I'll take all of your advice,
SoccerChick13

I am so sorry to hear how your life has turned out so far. But right now I don't think your weight is what you need to worry about. Sweetie you sound like a person with a good heart. That's where you need to start, not the way you look. I know what it is like to go through what you do. I am 15 and my life has also started rough. My abusive dad left on my fourth birthday. He tried to kiddnapp me--only to seem like the good dad. I have never heard from him again. His whole family deserted me--their own flesh and blood. They think I am a liar.

If you ever wanna talk let me know--my e-mail is on my Noise profile.

Please understand that looks have nothing to do with who you are.

Much luck

Laura

Life is so hard, consider what the person below me said. But listen, somewhere around your age I was fat, alot of family members died and I had alot of problems with my parents. I even moved out of my house at 15 and never spoke to them again. I spent almost a year on the street. Really nothing I can do or say can help, I can't be there for you all of the time, but to me you sound fairly strong and seem like a good person. In the end these things will help you become a better person. By this I mean I have grown to have very strong morals, I would give my own life so my kids will never understand what I had to live. You'll be able to understand others problems and have more compassion for others in need. I know this does you no good now, I am a bit older then you. But I am so glad I never made the mistakes I could have, my life is great now and I am very strong and look forward to a continued better life. The past is hard to forget, but trust me it does fade.

Also keep in mind if you work out, you will gain weight, muscle is more dense then fat. I have no idea how to lose weight, I would suggest a deitary supplement, but I don't trust them. Being active and just eating alot of veggies instead of junk seems to be the best method. Don't drink soda either, my uncle stopped drinking it an lost alot of weigth!

I did a little research for you, sweetie.

1-800-964-2000 A hotline that helps you find an affordable psychologist in YOUR AREA.

When it gets this tough, it's imperative to talk it out. I'm a firm believer in counseling. Making an appointment with a psychologist or counselor is a big step toward confronting all of this difficult stuff you've been dealt...head on.

You will get through this...and come out healthy, happy, ambitious, satisfied with yourself. I know this because you've already taken the first step. You've ask for help from your peers on this site. Even though it's the internet, and you don't know the kids who post here, I know it was difficult to be so honest about such personnal issues.

I wish you the very best luck.

I abhor those who say, "Deal with it. Everyone has problems"...

...When YOU are in a bind, and the problem is YOURS, it's the most important issue at hand.

i suggest getting good charlottes two cd's, good charlotte and the young & hopeless.(they had a horribly tough childhood). they have helped me and my friends through some really tough times (we are all 14). expecially the song hold on. things will get better, i cant promise, but if you think they will eventually they will. i've never lost a parent so i wont pretend or say i know how you feel but i have been depressed. its not fun. dont turn to anorexia or bulimia. itll only make u feel worse. REMEMBER: real women have curves!!! so be happy your not stick thin. i kno i am. learn to love your self for who you are, its hard and i know that im still trying. you sound like a great person just hitting some turbulance in your life. dont keep it bottled up. and as for the people who make fun of you, itll only make you stronger... just to know that you are better than them.

Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart. -1 Samuel 16:7

Hello! Hi I'm Becca. I'm so sorry about everything that has been going on in your life. I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like to loose a parent. I know someone who can make all of your problems go away and bring utter joy into your life and that person is Jesus. I know that can sound lame and if someone had told me that a couple of months ago, I would have laughed in their face. I urge you to find the Lord if you haven't already. Pick up a Bible and read Matthew or another gospel. Learn about Jesus. He died for YOU. And He knows about suffering. Put your sorrows onto the lord, He will take care of them. The devil makes bad things happen, not God. I used to blame Him but I have learned better. I will pray for you with all my heart. If you ever need to talk e-mail me anytime. God bless you and make your future a brighter place, and it can be through Jesus.

Hey,
Thanks for helping.Not trying 2 be noisy but why did your mom move so far away?? I've stopped eating junk food(well try) & I exercise every day or when I can & haven't lost anything. I lose a pound or 2 & I gain it back. I need to lose 10 pounds or so, maybe more...My doc. will tell me when I go back. I don't have aol or aim... What is aim? Post Back,
SoccerChick13

Hey omg i'm sry! I'm 13 and i'm overweight and my mom hasn't died but she moved 11 hrs. away. I am tryin to lose weight to. I have stopped eatin doritos. they are very fattening. and i watch how many calories i eat. i just read the lables on food. Oh yea and i have started rollerblading not every day but atleast 5 out of every 7 days. If you wanna talk or sometin i'll listen. do u have aol or aim? post bak