cuz i've known i was different since 5th grade. i'd always play wif the boys and do boy stuff! i HATED wearing dresses and all that girly shyt! but i never realy started to think bout wat i liked till later in 6th frade. i tryed to tell a few of my friends i had known since k-gaurd! i just wanted to c wat their reaction would be! they didnt take it too well! so i told them i was just playin! and that was the last of that! that wat till i got to 7th grade...then i came out to (now my BFFL) my friend, Candace! she was shocked at 1st but so i told her also that i was just playin! so she drops it! then about a month after that happened...i tryed to tell her agian! cuz there was just something about her that i knew i could trust and that atracted me to her in a friend way and in a sexual way! but i didnt tell her it was her that i liked till bout....a month till 7th grade was over! she was ready then to b real wif me! she understood wat i was going threw and helped some. 8th grade came around and she was acting a lil wierd! my gaydar was going crazy! i had been wishing she'd b bi since the 1st day i had met her n 7th grade! and one day wen we was chillin at my house in my basement...she handed me a note! it said something like this..."christa, i know we'er BFFL's and i know u r always there 4 me! so i wantted to tell u something! i'm very scared to say it cuz i donno if its true or not! but i think...i...." then i finished the sintence 4 her by saying..."u think u're bi?" she said yes in a VERY shy voice! i huged her and had her tell me more! i axed her wat made her think that and she said...wen i c some chix...i like tolook at them! and i kinda get horny wen i c or hear 2 chix doing it!" and she went on and i told her she was deff bi! but back to me...haha. it's been almost 4 years since i came out of the closet! and i still have no clue wat i am! i know i deff love chix! but i...messed around wif my x-boi yesterday and i liked it! but he's the only dude i'd do n e thing wif! i usua;;u find it dissgusting to mess wif a dude! but i dont wif him! and i love to act like a dude and teach the dudes how to really treat a lady! i think i'm pretty cute! and i try my best at everything! but i'm still so freakin confused at wat i am or wat i want! and i'm so tired of waiting to find out! so plz! n e one who will help.....plz help me figure this shyt out! thanx! mcl, deadlette ~aka~ christa
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Moved to the appropriate forum. And deadlette, for future references, it might be a good idea to type everything out properly, is you don't want to get your head bitten off.