People kill themselves cuz they cant deal with there problems DUH

Aquagon gave a good point.
People about to suicide or thinking of it (like me) don't see the importance of all the good things or even run away from them.
However, sometimes it's just too hard to see a point in everything. If you weren't in a good mood for a week or two, and then got refused by some friend + accidentally hurt yourself + have been scalded by your mother for hurting yourself you might feel absolutely unneccesarry and etc. and think about suicide... and if similar things continue for 2 or 3 days, you get pissed up by everything...

I thought about suicide a few times, however, there was one thing stopping me. Guess what? No, it wasn't the green leaves of forests. It wasn't the golden rays of sun. It even wasn't the love of parents hidden somewhere in the deep dark ocean. I just got a feeling, that the last moment before death, I will most likely be so scared of dying and want to come back to life, that the feeling would be very painful and disgusting. This feeling drove me away from suicide... for those times. not sure for the next few times

Speaking as one who has committed suicide (except not)......

I have friends that are cutters, burners, whatever-ers; they see that part as a stress release.

Sometimes suicide just goes a step too far, you know? A mistake.

But other times it's viewed as their only option. If you're "destined to be alone forever", physically/emotionally/sexually abused, had a bad stretch of time (it varies.... I don't know what to say specifically) then offing yourself looks appealing. It looks better than what you're living in.

Gem's onta something. I think it has to do with depression.

Why did I try it? Because i have a chemical imbalance in my head. Basically the chemicals in my brain don't function right so I can't always control my actions or emotions. But thankfully I got help and put on medication to correct my imbalance. I am proud to say I have been off my medicine for 2 years sucessfully.

I haven't thought about it in a long time. But what I remember from when I use to think about it. . .was that there were these voices in my head. And I mean actual voices and what they were always saying was bad. and it was always about myself. if a girl didn't like me the voices would remind me of all the reasons why I thought she didn't. If I failed a test. . .the voices would go on and on about how stupid I was and they were so good at making me believe it too. Its funny, come to think of it. . .they never had anything good to say. . .maybe thats why I stopped listening to them.

to cinderella120:

Thank you so much. It was really hard for me to write that because I'm not that honest about what I've been through to my best friends, let alone completely anonymous strangers. The only reason I wrote everything there was that I hoped that I would get through to at least one person, and if you're it, awesome!

you are so freakin' right.
guys listen to her, she has a really good point, and it is a really touchy topic.

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Originally posted by VeggieGirl87:
Suicide is such a touchy topic. No one wants to talk about it but everyone is worried about it. You asked why, well I can't speak for everyone, but I can speak for me and all of the people I know that have tried.

Over the summer, I overdosed unsuccessfully. I was caught, taken to the emergency room, had to drink the charcoal, and then sent off to a pysch ward. Why did I do it? I felt very alone, I didn't feel understood, I felt hopeless, I didn't think that I would ever be good enough, I didn't think that anything I did would ever matter because I was just one person. The list goes on and on. That's only what I can remember because I wasn't exactly being myself or thinking rationally when I overdosed.

After spending four days in a locked psych ward and being put on anti-depressants, I was allowed to go home but I had to spend pretty much the rest of the summer in a pysch day program at a local hospital.

Since this summer, I haven't had suicidal thoughts except when I'm angry or if I feel lost, uncertain, helpless, hopeless, and any other synonyms you can think of. I've come pretty close to trying to overdose again but then I think about my little sister and I can't do it. The look on her face when she saw me in the emergency room . . . she couldn't understand why I almost went away from her forever. She and I are very close, and she looks up to me. I don't want her to do what I did. I think that's what keeps me going the most.

Then there is also the issue of cutting, which I have also done. Don't do it. It scares. People notice, especially if you're an idiot like me and start cutting in the middle of your spanish class. Most of the people I know that have cut do it for a release of anger or sadness or loneliness. It's been all three for me.

What do you do after you attempt suicide? I continue going to therapy and taking anti-depressants. My doctor thinks that I will probably be on them for the rest of my life because I've had multiple major episodes of depression. I also try to focus on other things outside of myself. My doctors and therapists keep telling me that I need to think about me right now, and not worry about other people. I can't do that though. I always have and always will put other people ahead of myself. That's why I joined this site. The Click thing, it lets me feel like I'm doing something productive and actually making a difference. And this, I hope, will keep other people from making the same mistake I did.

Don't try suicide. Chances are it won't work and then your life is changed forever. Trust me, there's no going back if you do it.

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You are probably just seeing part of them, they could really be so freakin' unhappy yet just put up a extreme happyness front. belive me you should ask them if something was bother them. When i was considering doing it (commiting suicide) i probably would have rethought my thoughts if someone had asked if anything was wrong in my life. yet you need to be someone that that person can trust, so don't be the school gossip!

Disclaimer: I am not a physician or psychiatrist nor should I be substituted for one. Any advice given is done so with the strict understanding that it is not 100% reliable and not expert opinion.

When I commited...scratch that...attempted suicide, it was because I knew deep down in my heart that no one loved me. In all reality I was on anti-depressants at the time and they had a reverse affect on me and made my depression worse which allowed my thoughts. It is different for everyone. Not everyone commits suicide for the same reasons. But from what I can tell it generally spawns from a feeling of lonliness or a lack of self-worth.

This isnt really funny per say, but now that I look back at it, I cant help but smile at my idiocy as a freshmen... I have always thought that suicide was not the answer for anything, so instead I did as much damage to my body as humanly possible... honest, when i was in 9th grade I tried everything imaginable... i would snowboard off 25+ foot rock faces, would jump out of boats going 65 miles an hour... I snowboarded behind a snowmobile through a half pipe once... I finally screwed up my back so bad that I couldn't walk, then my neck broke, nearly died... so now I dont live life so close to the edge that I'm trying to hurt myself.

If cutting is considered suicidal then i guess i was with you guys; iamastar and veggiegirl.

I used to cut also. I gave it up when i realized it doesn't just affect you, it affects hose who care about you also. i cut because i couldn't stand the pain i was feeling and i needed a way to let it out. Back then i felt alone in the world. But i am clean now for the most part. Once in a while i feel the need to start again, but i have great friend who have always help me through.
Suicide ain't worth it.

I can understand what you are going through VeggieGirl87. I have thought about committing suicide and almost went through it. I can relate with the things that go through one's head when he/she thinks about killing his/herself. I started cutting myself this summer.

I wore a hoodie but wearing it wasn't an all the time thing. I tried to keep that part of my arm out of view from others and it worked for a while. When I would cut, I would keep a knife in my bathroom drawer so when I felt that I needed to take the pain away or to feel like I had control of my life I would cut.

I think that the reason why no one noticed at first was because I would cut in the same place. I have cut myself in the same spot 6 or 7 times. There are two different spots above that place that I have cut only once in those two spot. In real life it looks like I have only cut three times but in actuality the number is close to 10 times.

My mom saw the three scares but she doesn't know the whole story behind how many times I have actually cut myself and she threatened me that if I did it again that she would put me in a mental institution.

Depression, maybe?

But what do I know..

Suicide is such a touchy topic. No one wants to talk about it but everyone is worried about it. You asked why, well I can't speak for everyone, but I can speak for me and all of the people I know that have tried.

Over the summer, I overdosed unsuccessfully. I was caught, taken to the emergency room, had to drink the charcoal, and then sent off to a pysch ward. Why did I do it? I felt very alone, I didn't feel understood, I felt hopeless, I didn't think that I would ever be good enough, I didn't think that anything I did would ever matter because I was just one person. The list goes on and on. That's only what I can remember because I wasn't exactly being myself or thinking rationally when I overdosed.

After spending four days in a locked psych ward and being put on anti-depressants, I was allowed to go home but I had to spend pretty much the rest of the summer in a pysch day program at a local hospital.

Since this summer, I haven't had suicidal thoughts except when I'm angry or if I feel lost, uncertain, helpless, hopeless, and any other synonyms you can think of. I've come pretty close to trying to overdose again but then I think about my little sister and I can't do it. The look on her face when she saw me in the emergency room . . . she couldn't understand why I almost went away from her forever. She and I are very close, and she looks up to me. I don't want her to do what I did. I think that's what keeps me going the most.

Then there is also the issue of cutting, which I have also done. Don't do it. It scares. People notice, especially if you're an idiot like me and start cutting in the middle of your spanish class. Most of the people I know that have cut do it for a release of anger or sadness or loneliness. It's been all three for me.

What do you do after you attempt suicide? I continue going to therapy and taking anti-depressants. My doctor thinks that I will probably be on them for the rest of my life because I've had multiple major episodes of depression. I also try to focus on other things outside of myself. My doctors and therapists keep telling me that I need to think about me right now, and not worry about other people. I can't do that though. I always have and always will put other people ahead of myself. That's why I joined this site. The Click thing, it lets me feel like I'm doing something productive and actually making a difference. And this, I hope, will keep other people from making the same mistake I did.

Don't try suicide. Chances are it won't work and then your life is changed forever. Trust me, there's no going back if you do it.

It's usually because they feel alone and that it wouldn't matter if they were dead or alive. They actually realize that they are cared about.
This is a generalization though. It is usually much more complicated.
If youre thinking about doing these types of things talk to someone please.

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suicide...why do you do it?

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Well..... Obviously they wouldn't be here to tell you, now would they?


If at first you don't succeed; Stop with all the drama.

hey crazyloo
ok i thought about you know what for many years knowing that i could never go though with it. but it seemed like the only way. but what stoped me was my family and friends. what would they think or do when i was gone. would they care? would they even notice? so is a person thinking of suicide and they dont have loved one that they know of who care than it may seem like they have no reson to stay. it also might be caused my depression. later on that what i found out what was going on with me.
PLEASE IF YOU A THINKING OR HURTINH YOURSELF OU KILLING YOURSELF TALK TO SOME ONE YOU CAN TRUST. IT MIGHT JUST SAVE YOUR LIFE.

Just about seven months ago I had my first real run in with suicide. I can't really explain how I felt but what I can tell you is that it's not fun feeling alone and thinking there's no one who cares about you. Luckily, I was brave enough to go talk to someone at my school. At first I was hesitant because I knew they would call my mom and I didn't want her to find out. I just wanted someone to talk to; someone that I thought would understand but I got that and a whole lot more. I have found out that once people know that you wanted to commit suicide it scares them and they are afraid you'll do it again. I wouldn't blame them. I am just starting to realize how luck I am even though I do have my down days I pick myself up and I remember what could have happened. Killing yourself isn't worth the pain and it isn't the answer to solving your problems.

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SO DONT HOLD BACK YOUR LOVE AND CONCEAL IT LET IT OUT TO EVERYONE NOT JUST TO YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE!

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Translation: Sleeping around prevents suicide.