ok i hope i dont sound pethetic(sp?).... so i go to a small christian school.like there is only 5 girls in highschool lol but its fun..........most of the time.recently our youth group decided to go camping and im not a camping kind of person considering i terrified of spiders and some snakes(and i live in florida btw) well when my friend sarah got back i found out that one of the girls,bethany,had been talking about me(making fun of me,calling me fat, etc.).she called me and sarah fat but to my face she says im not.i also found out she said im ugly and thats why i dont have a boyfriend(never have and im 15 lol its sad really ) and that my boobs are big(dont care on that one considering she doesent have any so).then i found out that ann(whom i thought was my bestfriend) had said she dident really like me much,made fun of my weight,said i was annoying and stuff.and some of my other so called friends said stuff about my as well.problem is they are all skinny(not anorexic just skinny) and guys always have crushes on them and stuff.ive tryed to look the way they think is "good looking" but i cant seem to lose weight.in my eyes i dont think im all that bad looking but im just not as skinny(fit) as them.and i know it may be stupid but they have all had boyfriends and currently have one and i never have and i think its the way i look.i mean i dont want a guy who would go after me at first cause im hot(like in ann and bethanys cases) but guys dont approach(sp?) me they approach them.sometimes i think ill never have one.i mean the guys at our school are like brothers to me and they're not my type and maybe it would be different in public school but still it just bothers me alot and i have break downs because of the way i look and feel like a guy will never love me and it may seem stupid,immature or whatever but ann,bethany and other girls i know are happy,"good looking" and have boyfriends and im only happy sometimes \.i just want to be able to eat whatever i want and still be skinny(like ann and bethany can eat whatever and stay skinny).i dont want to have to change but i feel like i have to if im ever going to have a boyfriend or be happy.



to give you and idea of me:
hair:brown,medium length
eyes:brown
im tan(cause of the florida sun lol)
height:5'7(may be 5'8 now.i havent checked in a while)
weight:170 but sarah(she was surprised i weighed that much) and some of my true friends say i dont look it.they say i look like i weigh 140 or 150 but i dont think so.
shoe size:9
pants size:12 or 14
shirt size:L (could wear M but i like my shirts a little looser.)
and i love to play basketball and i love one tree hill.

I know how you feel. I had a best friend and we were friends since we were five, she got this new best friend sorta and started being rude to me in front of her. I'm over-weight and that's kinda been a touchy issue between us, and between real friends it shouldn't be. A real friend would like you for who you are, not what you look like or what you wear. I walked away from that friendship and I feel so much better about myself. I think you need to look at your relationships with your friends and consider whether or not they're a healthy relationship. As for the guys, I would just wait. The right guy will come along someday and when he does, you'll know it. Don't feel bad about yourself because of what other people say. Be proud of who you are, and stand up for yourself! I hope this helps, and good luck!
~Kirsty

ehh who cares? It doesn't sound that bad. You're prolly look good. And trust me skinny is overrated. Just be happy with yourself and find a cool guys who likes you for you. Don't change to make others like you, it never works out usually. And trust me you ain't that bad. I was 5'5" and reaching upon 200 lbs. at one point. You're prolly pretty and they're just jealous. Just ignore them and be thankful for your REAL friends.

Pfff. Screw 'em. I bet you're lovely.
They're probably jealous of your...uh...boobage?
I'll let that one slide.
I've said it before, and I'll say it again...not all guts like skinny girls. in fact, few of them do.
Especially when they see a corellation between skinny women and smaller bust size.
Well. That has something to do with it, I suppose.
That, and it's kinda hard to snuggle with a girl you feel you could break in half.
Well, the truth is, you can't eat anything you want. However, this doesn't mean you have to starve yourself. Try to think about calories, and make sure you have a balanced diet. Drink more water and eat your veggies.
Actually, the ex-girlfriend I liked the most was the one who weighed the most.
That's because she was the one that was the least insane.
Which comes to show that personality is important! Don't claim that you are a demon, or beat your boyfriend! Shaving your hair off is a no-no.
Here's a tip: Guys like being friends with girls. It's an excuse to being around them. they would much, much, MUCH rather have a girlfiend than 'just-a-friend', but that's how it should start out! Talk to guys you like, be thier friend, and show your personality! They'll see how sweet you are, and like you, too. But most of all, MAKE YOUR INTEREST KNOWN! If you're friends with a guy, and want them to ask you out, psychic messages don't work!
You sound like a sweet girl...but I'm 18 and have a special gal. Sorry...
But I can still give you one of these! *Big huggle* ^___^

Hey i know exactly how you feel... my friends used to call me annoying behind my back so then I found better ones. I just really got confident about myself and about the weight thing... I know it is really annoying when you feel like you're "fat" that's how I felt. I don't know about you but I had some eating problems... I was never truly obese but I knew that it would catch up with me when I was older. Exercising for me was a great way to build my confidence and feel stronger and fit.

Also if you really want a boyfriend don't think you can't be hot without being skinney. Don't think that you have to look hot just be confident.

-e