futility, i cant say i know how it feels to have this happen, but it almost did, and i could only imagine. it may be kinda sad, but i have a poem you could read. sorry i couldnt do more.

No problem. I'm glad that you make this topic.

I didn't have time to say before I had to get off, but... Don't feel like a wimp, or "less than a man" that you have/are crying. Do whatever it takes to let your feelings out, scream, run, pound your pillow, anything. It doesn't make you less of anything. It shows that you got guts. Good Luck. God bless,
-Sunset

Exactly. And thanks, Sunset. That means a lot to me.

This is going to sound really dumb right now....
Futility, I'm sooo sorry. A lot of people don't understand the pain. But, my friend's brother killed himself last year. We were friends, but not really close you know? But, I cried, I screamed, ect. There is a lot of pain. You don't really think about it. But, when it hits, it hits hard. I'm sorry for you and your friends loss. I hope everything turns out OK. If you ever need to talk NOISEmail me.
God Bless,
-Sunset