I wasn't mad Iceland nor was I mad at anyone. I was just hurt by the things people said on here and while I was tlaking to them. Also, it hurt when peple were jumping into all these conclusions.

Hey, I know it's hard to suddenly have someone say "Oh yea, I have to stop talking to you" or "I am going to delete you" but it was hard for me too. I have to do this for about 39 more people and it's hard to say it. If I say it nicely, people want an explaintion and they dont just let things be. If I say it mean like I did with Spud, they do get annoy by me and leave me alone but they stay mad. So it's like a lose, lose situation here. I rather you people stay mad at me though than worried and stuff.

It's just how it has to be. Try not to jump into conclusions and stuff.

I'm sorry again but I do want to leave with good terms and letting everyone know how sorry I really am.

Spud, don't say sorry. It's totally understandable why you did what you did. However, can you do me a favor, you never did say good bye, can you do that, please? I would really be happy if you can do that. Whatever, you get the time to would be great. Thanks!

If anyone has anger or some issues with me, please tell me now. I don't want to leave with people angry.

Bye n have a nice day

I hate getting confused on my own post.

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i just missed her thats all

Teddy, I never hated you ever. I missed you posting on Youthnoise a lot. It was really cool to see you on here once again...you sound angry, but it's cool nonetheless. You were nice. And I will ALWAYS remember that you really like mashed potatoes.

Teddy, my apologies. I just couldn't understand what went wrong that night and I didn't have the courage to find out why.

Spud this is to you, it's from Teddy. She wanted me to post this to you:

"Tell him that I am sorry for everything I did but I did NOT stop talking to him because he did not respond back to me. I stopped talking to him because of another reason that I cannot say. Now it's not against him and he did nothing wrong but this is how it ended up to be. I am sorry and I will miss you but Good bye n Have a great life.
Thanks a lot of saying that but that's not why I decided to deleted you and it's not the same reason why I told Nicoley that this will be the last time we talked. I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT I AM SORRY"
-JM

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especially you Spud. I know I am heartless. Thanks a lot of saying that but that's not why I decided to delete you and it's not the same reason why I told Nicoley that this will be the last time we talked.

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One more thing to Spud. I made a typo I meant to say the reason I deleted you was the same reason I told Nicoley that this will be the last time we chatted.

She doesn't know why so you don't know why and no one knows why but please do not jump into the conclusion that it's because I am just a B-I-T-C-H

I am sorry for swearing!

Bye n have a nice day

Teddy I'm sorry, I over reacted... I'm horrible, I know.
-JM

I am sorry JM. You asked, correct but I wasn't trying to threw it in your face. I just said that nothing was wrong. Okay, maybe that this throwing it in your face, but I wasn't doing it in purpose. I am sorry, that doesn't cut it though. I am really sorry but I am not willing to tell you what is wrong and having you throw it in my face. I know you won't, your a great friend to have but I am still scared. It's nothing against you, I am just really messed up and have trusting issues.

Bye have a nice day

Eh.

I hate you all.

Now let this thread die.

Good luck.

I give you no pity, just *hugs*.

'Bye N Have a Nice Day'

Bex

Teddy, you didn't have to be so mean to me. I just asked you and you threw it in my face... You told me about some stuff, now you say that you think people wouldn't believe you? Than why did you tell me? Sh!t, if people don't believe you and you're telling the truth and you know you are that's what matters. When you tell people it can get off you're chest, they can also give you advice, and yes, everyone will give you some sort of damn pity. That's the way things go! OK?
-JM

And you Missy, do not come to me trying to help and asking what is wrong now when I tried to open up to you and tried to ask you for help and you turned me down saying that I was looking for you to solve my problems. Well, if it matters to you at all, I was looking for a friend not someone to solve my problems. I was looking for a friend to help me and be there for me just like I was there for you when your parents were being cruel. I believed you when everyone called you a whinny immature self center little girl, I stay there when you got me upset and made me cry and just wanted the same from you. But you didn't give it to me but now here you are IMing me asking me what is wrong. Thank you, I mean that, I know you care but I need a real friend not someone who will be there half the time. I'm sorry!

Now I am done

Bye

One more thing, if I told you that I was going to kill myself or that I was dying or something terrible is going on in my life right now would you honestly say that you will believe me? Come on, this is the Interenet, I could be just lying because I am looking for attention and pity. Gem is smart about this stuff. She knows better not to believe me nor anyone over the Internet. I know that if I tell you the truth, half of you will only put me down and call me the liar saying I am looking for attention or some stuff like that and you know what, maybe I am, how do you know who I really am and what is really goin on? You don't! However, if I am telling the truth and you walk away from me like I am lying, that's going to make things worse for me, that's going to hurt me because I came to you for help and you walked away without even thinking twice. I just see no point into telling you people my business if I see myself just getting threw against the wall.

So in conclusion, nothing is wrong! I am not dying. I am not sick! I am not trying to kill myself! I am not nothing to you people so that's it.

Now I am done!

I'm sorry again

Bye n have a wonderful life

Also, not that it matters, but I have something that I am sick with that almost killed me plenty of times so why would I just kill myself after I had over 15 operations just to keep my stupid moronic self alive?

I hate myself, true but I am not ungratful.

Can you people stop talking about me? It's nothing like you think, especially you Spud. I know I am heartless. Thanks a lot of saying that but that's not why I decided to delete you and it's not the same reason why I told Nicoley that this will be the last time we talked. Please. just stop jumping into conclusions that I am going to kill myself because I hate myself. Have you ever heard that life may just kill you even if you do or don't want to die to begin with? I am not going to tell you people what is going on because there's no point to. You can't stop it nor help me so what is the point in telling you? So I can find somekind of pity? For your information, I don't want pity.

Look, Nicoley, I am not mad at you but I really didn't want you to post something on YN because there's a lot of people here who just don't like me, GREAT Examples: Spud, Foxy, Missy, Iceland, Icm, and the list goes on. I didn't want them to have any memory of me and this post, just made them remember and I hate that. Thanks a lot for your worry and concern but everything will be okay.

Spud, I just don't know what else to say but I am sorry. You don't understand and there's no point in explaining it.

Everyone else, I am sorry too but it's nothing how you think it is but think whatever you want. I don't care anymore.

Now Bye n Have a nice life all of you!

She's really nice, but she has an overpowering inferiority complex. She's incredibly nice but convinced she's the worst thing ever.

It just gets annoying trying to tell her she's nice.

She's not heartless, Spud.

I REALLY have no idea who this "Teddy" person is, but I really can't stand anyone hurting themselves. So I hope she feels better soon.