suicide. the word i've thought about since 3rd grade. whodaknown huh? a 3rd grader, wanting to kill herself. well i'm long past that. i'm hitting high school next year as a freshman. actually, i don't know if i will. because suicidal thoughts have been crossing my mind awfully to long. it's came to the point where no ones words mean anything. even the guy i like, [you'd think he'd make me happy] if he calls me pretty, calls me skinny. i still starve myself, and still deny starving myself while admitting i am. i realize i have issues. but no one really cares. i mean everyone supposivly cares. but i'm just one kids, out of a million gorgeous, skinny, happy teens. what should i do? i like talking to people i don't know about this stuff. cos with my friends, they will just keep it in their memory box. and two months down the line i'll act happy and they will be like "remember when you wanted to kill yourself" and make it some big deal. honesty, i don't even care. there are a few reasons why i don't just slit my throat right now, but they are starting to not matter anymore.

I know how you feel with the suicidal thoughts. I've had many myself. I was diagnosed with depression so I know what it's like. However like clpo13 said, when your thinking of suicide think of someone your close to and how much it would hurt them if you really followed through. I almost followed through with suicide once but then I thought of my mom and how much she needs me and I stopped. It truely does help to think of someone you really care about. ~Elizabeth

u should not need to do that u need to eat and be=reathe all the tim e n omatter wat happnes cause stop eating and breathing will not solve anything it will make things evn worse .dramagurl206@yahoo.com

HelpMePlease, I know you're in a bad place right now and things seem hopeless...I've had a family member do this, clpo13 brought up a very good point about loved ones because it is true. If you end it, it will be over, but your family and friends will suffer for the rest of their lives.

I urge you to PLEASE check out the Resources YN has. Start talking! and remember, if you find yourself in a life threatening emergency, please call 911.

I've never even been near suicide, so I doubt if my advice will really help. In any case, when you think about ending it all, think about the one person who matters most to you and imagine how bad it would hurt them if you killed yourself.

Of course, this wouldn't apply if no one is that close to you, but I've seen from experience that no one is truly friendless.

I agree with Meagan, except maybe wait a little bit longer than a few minutes Time heals all. Please don't give into thoughts of suicide. I hate hearing things like this because I went through the same thing, even though thats really hard to admit. The one thing I have learned to do, and its not very easy, is to try and look beyond yourself. Sure, things can be bad, reaaally bad, and its always so hard to look through all of that and go on with a happy face. And I know that all of the advice that you are going to get here from people on this site are not going to be able to change your life and your mind for good. So, all I can offer to you is that even though you don't think anyone cares, I care. And I hate to see anyone this far down about themselves b/c I know how hard it can be. Please talk to someone about what is going on in your life.
And just think about this, life is always changing. Nothing ever stays the same. Just think back on your life when you were ever proud of something you did...be it, talking to someone you care about, getting an award for something, playing a sport, making someone laugh, anything. And remember that you will always have the ability to do that and so much more.
My heart goes out to you, and I hope that you will find a way out of this soon.

My mom went through a bout of depression and now she says something like, "When you are suicidal, you think that things can't get any worse...if this is the case, then wait a few minutes...if things can't get any worse, things have to get better."

You need to get help. I recommend calling a hotline or getting a therapist, if possible.