diefromtheinside... one day i figured out that i was addicted to cutting. i dont like being adicted to things (i was adicted to heroin and ive been adicted to pain pills) i HATE being adicted and therefor that is one reason i stoped. i got away from the person that hurt me the most in my life. im not completly positive but im still working on it... every day is different and i still have the earges to cut but im working on that too.
life isnt a complete waist of time... if it was then why do we live? if we didnt live then what would we do? and hell there would be no time to waist hun. you have to find a point to your life. find something (undestructive) that you do well... believe me everyone has something their good at. it could be some stupid sport or it could be collecting stamps or something... what happened in your life to make you this way? i mean heck, there has to be something that made you think so negativly and hey maybe im not thinking positive, your just thining really really negative lol

FREE LOVE FOR ALL
AMBER

The thing most addictive is a wound self-inflicted.
Think about that I've been cutting for about three years. I have no regrets sometimes you need to be reminded there's still life in you.
Don't worry about therapy you seem to be a happy person you'll get over it.

how can one make their outlook on life postive?!
if you cut you cant possibly like life. o, scuse me i mean USED to cut. life is a complete waste of time. theres no meaning in it. you seem really goddam happy to me. see, you talk about how you used to be a suicidal person. suicidal ppl dont miraculously become postive? i would like to know what made you this way. and dont give me the'i relized ppl love me' crap. theres more to it. are you on meds or sumthin?

im not as happy as you would think hun.... but ive made my outlook on life more positive.... think positive and you will be more positive.... i understand where your coming form... ive been sooo depressed before that i was more then suisidal, i was homasidal or whatever anyway im gunna go now so bubye

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AMBER

god! why do you have to be so happy?! you're always ranting on and on about how happy you are and think of the happy things! not everyone is as happy as you! i'm not sure if that occured to you, but its true.

im prowd of my family.... when the descovered that i was cutting they left me to deal with it and were always open about it. but they did send me to councling... i hated it truely. and just like kryrinn said.... it was expensive and i never really said anything to the last one i had... but nothing ever got taken away from me. its awesome and i feel now that its been about 4 months cince ive last done it... i feel free and i feel good but the thing is.. i still have earges, and i know more then likely they wont stop. i wish they would stop because more then not i go looking for something to cut with but stop myself... i fear that some time i wont stop myself... but i always have the happy things to think about and the people who are trying to keep me form doing it. i love my family and i love my friends.... i owe my life to them

FREE LOVE FOR ALL
AMBER

IF YOU THINK NO ONE LOVES YOU... LOOK IN THE MIRROR... YOU WOULDNT BE HERE IF SOMEONE DIDNT LOVE YOU

i used to cut. i would love to sometimes now, but it would get me sent home.

i was actually thinking about this today.. 2 1/2 years ago, i was in practical lockdown.. i was being dragged to a therapist, shrink, and everything.. had my backpack searched every day, everything... and now, 2 1/2 years later, i'm on youth exchange, to germany - i've been in germany for a month and a half now, and i love it.

but back to cutting.. i really dont have a problem with cutting... it's your way of coping, like some people write in journals and stuff like that...i just called my therapist a "mutterficken arschlösch", and then i didnt see her any more.. they quit dragging me to the 3x week shrink after about 5 weeks, when it was incredibly expensive and i sat there the whole time not saying anything... you're lucky you can still post, i wasnt allowed to be on the internet at all, took my cds, everything...

this one councler i had before everyone knew that i was cutting asked me if i was susidal.... i said hell yeah thats the funnest thing to be when your a teenager and ya know what we all are... he just looked at me and it was a look mixed between confusion/pervertedness (he was a big pervie)and s sigh of relief.... anyway were not all suisidal and when they ask you that say yeah im dead already then theyll send you to the phyke center for "evaluation" and when you tell them it was just a joke theyll keep you there for longer so ok dont tell them that hehe

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AMBER

no. not for cutting at least. i went to couciling for being negative. no on e knows about my cutting rite now anyway . only a few ppl. but wat i did in my couciling or therapy was just kinda tell her i didn't like her. and she never listened to me anyway. she just rambled off on about how she did this and that while i looked out the window. i say do watever you want. they have nothing over you. and they ask really dumb questions. they might ask you if you've ever been suicidal. answer them with an extremely sarcastic answer and they'll just kinda stare at you with a plasterd smile.

if you luck out, your theapist will be good, and you may really begin to trust and respect her. Youre really lucky if you can go and talk to someone you know who cares and wants to help you.

however, if he/she isnt good after a while...dont waste your time. lol. but, you have to know for yourself that you really want to stop and help yourself (w/ help from the therapist).

It might be good if you had a trusted family member/friend to talk to as well.

Think of your goals, dreams, hopes...What you want for yourself and why you may want to stop period.

You go, girl! Good luck!

i use to be a cutter.... councling didnt work. i first had this chick that was awesome... and she and i got along sooooo well and it was weird and i kinda didnt get to the whole cutting thing to her she was more interested why i do it then what im thinking when i did it. then i had this other chick that decided the only way to help me was make me soooooo mad that i wanted to kill her or something anything.... ive stopped because i realized that it wasnt helping anymore... the reason i started couldnt hurt me anymore because im stronger then that... i know that it will be a hard battle to stay infront of but im doing it and you can too... dont let other people convince you of anything.... DONT! its not their personal problem and they cant help you... you have to help yourself and i know you can. i know that everyone and anyone can help themselves and get better its an addiction and years from the time you last do it you will still feel the earge to do it. just remember someone loves you and if you cant think of that someone look in the miror... she/he is right there staring back at you
AMBER

I just never said anything to my therapist. If they asked me anything I was silent and gave them the 1,000 yard stare. That got me put into a mental hospital in lock down so don't do that!!!! Like they all said try to figure out why you cut and find another outlet that isn't drugs or something else bad like that.

Yes. Got rid of that b!tch quick. She was Catholic. My parents are Christian. And thus began the attack on the Dark Pagan masochist. I gave her hell. And I played with her head, such is a practice of mine.

Just try to realize why you are cutting yourself and if you can figure that out then next time when whatever the thing is that makes you cut comes up again have something else planned or have something else to do or go talk with someone.

I know exactly how u feel. i was in the same delima. Except i am younger. I cut myself because i had no where to go or nothing o do to help things and the closet thing in my reach was glass... so i know some kids do it to be pittied but it is natual for a living being to put itself out of misery. sometimes it may seem cruel and our parents send us off to therapy but alls u can do is grit your teeth and get through it. Just try to stop cutting it can ruin everything. Find the outlet of your stress, anger, sadness or what ever u r feeling.