My life hasnt been the greatest in the past two months...basically everythings gone to hell...ive been thinking soo much, life is so confusing...people are confusing...we are always striving towards something, but WHY it doesnt make sense...we have millions of emotions, but why...does it matter that we are happy or sad, why do we love (can we love?). i really dont see a point behind ANYTHING, (yes anything) that we do in our lives, or anything we feel...its all pointless, i dont think there truly is a meaning to life, and if there is no one will ever know, so it doesnt even matter...im trying to say that ive come to the conclusion that there is no reason live really, ive taken up to cutting, it helps, somehow, in some strange way...but it makes no sense, i know its pointless, i'll never understand life, and i dont want to live if i cant understand why...doesnt ANYONE understand this, or am i just crazy?

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Originally posted by benje309:
Here is the question: WHY NOT LIVE? Living is great, as long as you do what you want, not what others force you to do. Life is crappy at times but you just really need to take one day at a time. Live life to the fullest.

(RIP SJP)

I agree about taking life one day at a time.. but for some people its not that easy.. I also cut myself.. i attemted suicide once but my friend stopped me. I have been trying and trying for months to stop cutting but when i get stressed or im upset i always resort back to cutting.. i even went to councelling for awhile but it didnt help because my couseller couldnt help me. Living one day at a time may come simple to you and others but not to some. Can people please understand that most cutters do try to get off the addiction and live a normal life.. but its so hard. Once you've started you cant stop.

I know where you are coming from. About 5 months ago i attempted suicide. The school had found out and they sent me to some crazy house. While i was in there i realized that there were many people rooting for me to make it. To this day i look back ands i realize what a mistake i made. I put my baby through all of this. I love my baby and that is what made me pull through. You have to hang on for all the people rooting for you. You already have one person rooting for you. I hope you find your happy personality back instead of the dark one.

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Originally posted by benje309:
Here is the question: WHY NOT LIVE? Living is great, as long as you do what you want, not what others force you to do. Life is crappy at times but you just really need to take one day at a time. Live life to the fullest.

I couldn't have said it better myself!

i understand how you feel, I felt so down the other day, and well I won't get into my story, but the fact of the matter is...don't make a rash decision, (as far as we know) you only have one life to live, so wait a while longer and try to improve your life through positive means... try serving others or community service... if you have long spaces of time by yourself, fill the void and go to a nursing home or go visit someone you know... don't let your mind go to that kind of stuff... also, be careful about the music you listen to..I love evanescense, but when I'm depressed a couple of their songs make me stay in a depressed mode for longer (and it's weird because when I listen to their music, it's almost like I want to be depressed, because I relate so well...)... but there are many other tips to make you happy or happier or feel better about life...

I was just skimming the board and you said:

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Im saying why live when being happy or sad, really doesnt make a difference, their just emotions. what the hell do they matter.

Well, emotions and events are basically what life is... you have to know how to control your emotions though... you have to make them work for you... it's ok to be sad, but try to pick the best out of the situation, even if the best thing is that you learned a good lesson (it sounds cheesy, but it worked for me) You see, on Friday, I basically got screwed out of 1500 dollars and am missing the chance of a lifetime, and I was miserable for a long time, but then I said to myself, I now know not to get suckered in like that and that not all people are genuine and honest... and instead of just sitting there, I decided to expose this guy, so I called one of my best friends (her dads a lawyer) and we talked and I know so many lawyers and politicians that this guy doesn't know what's coming... the point of this book is, make life work for you...make it fun, spice it up a bit (not with destructive things like drugs, alcohol, cutting, etc.) but with good things...i realize that's not easy, but if you do that kind of thing, you'll find life (or at least I found life) to be that much more enjoyable...

Here is the question: WHY NOT LIVE? Living is great, as long as you do what you want, not what others force you to do. Life is crappy at times but you just really need to take one day at a time. Live life to the fullest.

(RIP SJP)

i have bin askin myself the same question 4 ages now and i still dnt no i feel exacaly the same as u

Well at least stay alive long enough to learn about existentialism. It may help.

And to the initial question: "Why live?"

Why not live. Heaven, hell or lack there of all sound really boring to me. Everything's good, everything's bad, there's nothing! *Yawn

I completely get where you're coming from. I've been cutting since I was 13..a little before that but 13 is when it got addicting. I tried to kill myself about 5 times and ppl just kept saving me. I still don't understand the meaning of life or anything that goes on in it...there are even times that I don't even enjoy a single thing I do in the day and I just want to stay in bed. However, I've found that I can get through days with the help and love of my boyfriend and my twin sister and my best friend. They are willing to do anything to help me and it gives me hope that there is something better...I just have yet to find it. You have to find ppl like that...my hope for you is that you do find those ppl and get some hope...if you ever need help or someone to listen leave me a message. I'd like to try to help out the way others have helped me...good luck.
~Serena~

Im a cutter too...Ive asked myself that same question...I tried to kill myself a couple of times...see my baby was murdered 2 years ago but Im living for my other son (his twin bro) but I found that therapy helped Ive been going for 2 years but I still cut...sometimes only every couple months now...but you will find a reason to live in time ...mine is my son who just turned 3 June 5

People, im really not trying to sound whiny. And its actually been like 5-6 months in reality. its hard to pinpoint where all went wrong, and i know people have been through worse, but im just trying to find the answers i need to live. It's just hard for me to have will to life if I cant understand a reason.

Why live? I've often pondered that question myself...there are many people struggling around you to live, the people with diseases, the people who live between a rock and a hard place.
Why live? Live for the ones who wanted to live, but could not.

Honestly i get wut u mean. but to be blunt ur complaining about two months of hell when there are ppl are there who have been through hell longer. things get better hun, i mean living i think we all live for a reason even if the reason is to not have a reason to live at all. u get it? i think we all live to be part of this existence. i hope u feel better tho but not to encourage anyone 2 do anything crazy i leave u with a quote:
"Death must be easy because Life is hard."
Think about it who says everything has to be easy we need to go through obstacles so we can learn from it & grow.

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Go try in school and bust out hte straight a's

did i say i wasnt getting straight a's? No, just because i cant stand my life, or life in itself, doesnt mean im dumb, cuz i do get straight a's.

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alright, you said you've only been feeling this way for two months right? i suggest you go seek your friends, whatever you do, don't hide your feelings. your friends can make you feel a hundred times better just by being there. hang out with them alot then you'll see what life is for. it's a feeling, one you get when you're around people you like.

Ya, i know what you mean, but i have very few friends that i can actually talk to and of course their never there, but when i do talk to them they understand where im coming from. Its easier to talk to people who are going through the same sort of things.

alright, you said you've only been feeling this way for two months right? i suggest you go seek your friends, whatever you do, don't hide your feelings. your friends can make you feel a hundred times better just by being there. hang out with them alot then you'll see what life is for. it's a feeling, one you get when you're around people you like.

Duddddeee go talk to a counselor. Dont be a dum*** and kill yourself or cutting or w.e Go try in school and bust out hte straight a's.. Hey thats what i do and i see a point in life.

The emotions matter to us as people, because its how we live. They ae something we grow to feel, and thus it is an imminent part of our lives to have emotions. Life is worth living because our emotions give it meaning. We have the emotions for something, they aren't there for some greater purpose, but they are there for ourselves to feel and grow. Find something to care about, to have feelings for. You have to use your emotions to lead a better life.

im sorry, im still lost though...Im saying why live when being happy or sad, really doesnt make a difference, their just emotions. what the hell do they matter.

People are born to do the best that they can with their lives. People live their lives to be happy because otherwise they would be trying to be miserable, which is equally pointless. Some people do make choices though that make them miserable, but for different reasons. I myself, believe that I live for my family and friends. My life counts to them, so I try to do all I can to make them happy. They only expect you to do your best at whatever you do, and try to make yourself happy. Each individual has a different meaning or calling or whatever in life. Everyone lives and goes on for different reasons. People are survivors, they do the best for their best interests, whatever those interests might be. You just have to find out what you care about, and live for that, because you can only hurt people by dying prematurely.

but even if you are happy, even if you had everythign to live for, even if your never sad, i still wouldnt see a meaning behind it. Like, why do we hope. Why do we strive for happiness, it doesnt do much, its just a label, u can just say, "ya im happy man" but what good is it.