Does any one even reply to the notes on the board because it sure does not look like it. Has every one gotten over there adiction or what. i haven't and i don't want self pitty. One of my friends almost dumped me off because i cut and that's not cool. I'm still trying to stop but no one in my life realy understands me. If you think you can halp a little please nock your-self out.

What's with all the goddamn cutters and poetry? All of them write pity-me poetry..

I am 13 years old and i don't like telling people i cut myself because i am afraid of people calling me a freak and think i am trying to kill myself. That's what my dad thinks. He wants a answer to all this but the truth is i can't give him one. I told every one i stop cutting myself when i was 12. I lied to all my freinds and never stop because i was adicted like a drug.I am now getting help by a consoler and i am starting to think she can't help me. I want some help and some suggestions for other things asother than S.I.(self-injery)MonkeyButt400@yahoo.com

LOL.

then stops and looks seriously as she reads bisexual girl's post.

Kill the bastard. i'm not joking. but then, this is an old thread, so she won't see this post....

LMAO again!!!!

And i'm not a cutter, and i dont belive that majority of YNers are cutters either - there just happens to be alot of cutters here, nonethelees.

It has something to do with the outrageous COLOUR ORANGE!!!!

Well, for the idiots who google "self injery," youthnoise is the first site to come up. Seeing as a lot of the cutters on youthnoise have terrible grammar, that seems possible.

((Yes, I am bored enough to go and figure that out.))

Other than that, I have no idea.

Why is it YN attracts all the cutters?

some people say they don't think its possible to stop. well i think it is because i haven't did it for a year now and i don't plan on doing it either. it took a lot of hard work and my youth pastors were ther for me so i had people to talk to. And if you think you have no one to talk to you can talk to me. my email address is wild_knox@hotmail.com

Sitting here lookin at all the wounds I have made on my arm
Why am I doing this to myself
I should be hurting him
But yet im hurting myself
I try to talk my self out of doin it
Yet I pick up the knife again and make another memory
I see the blood flowin from my cut
But yet I feel numb
I told myself before it was a one time thing
But that one time thing turned into an addiction
The blood keeps flowing
I try to get it to stop but it wont
Have I gone to far and cut too deep
More blood flows to the puddle on the floor
The room starts to spin
I feel light headed and fall to the floor and black out
I wake up I the hospital
I see my grandmother and know that I am alive

I have been through a lot in my life...more than a 15 year old sholud have to go through...my dad raping me...my grandfather dieing.....my best friend killing herself...this is too much for me to handle right now...but i got through this....but there were Results from all this and that was mt cutting myself...that is the only way i feel i can let the world know how i really feel.....

You never lied to me
Until now
You said you would always be there for me
But your not
I miss you so much
You were my all
I went days confused
Thinking you would soon come back
But you didn’t
I lost the only friend I had or ever will have to death
Life now isn’t so great
I’m just awaiting the day I can see you again
I wake up every morning and for a second just one second
That your death was a horrible dream
Then reality hits I know you are gone
But I can’t let you go
I don’t know how to say good bye
I never will be able to say good bye to you
I can’t accept the fact that you left me here
You left me hurting
Even when I need you the most you weren’t there
Where were you?
Why did God have to take you away if he knew I would need you now?
I don’t get this plan that he has
And it’s hard to believe that it will work out
I can’t say I believe in God right now because that will be a lie
But later on hopefully I will start to understand this painful plan he has worked out for me

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Originally posted by QueenOfHell:

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I can't.....they will jus think im crazy.....i dont want to go through all that.......its not that easy.....my family is really complcated

They won't think your crazy. And if you can't call the cops keep a bat in your room. You can't be charged with assault because it's self defense.

yeah they will my family is big on the perfect life and they prolly kill me if i tell them that i have been cuttin......they will prolly put me in an hospital like im some kind of crazy person.......

I'm an ex cutter and burner.It ruined my life.It will ruin yours if you don't get help.Even if you don't want to tell anyone you can end it yorself.All you have to do is start popping a rubber band around your wrist.It's a type of therapy that I learned from a friend that had gotten through it too.It feels like you're doing it but you're not.My cutting drove me only deeper into my own personal hell.Don't make the same mistakes I did.

hey, um... wow, this is the first time I've talked about this, but, I've been an on and off cutter sience I was 13. I'm 14 now, and I don't really think I'll ever fully recover. I'll probably continue to cut whenever I feel depressed or angry. I just cut about a week ago, because I got yelled at by my parents and so many other things were going on and I just couldn't take it. I've used many things. Scissors, broken glass, steak knives, razor blades I got out of a pencil sharpener. And I don't want anyone I know to know I do it. I made the mistake of telling a girl once and she thought I was telling her for attention, which was so not the case. So, I'm not going to tell anyone. But I think some people are suspicious. In fact, I did it at school a few times with scissors in front of a girl, Savanna. I know she saw me. Actually, I kind of wanted het to see me. I don't know, maybe it was for attention, but that wasn't and is not the true reason why I cut. It really does relieve any pain or stress that I am experiencing. The only thing is I scar very easily and I have scars on my wrist from it. But the thing is I never cut deep enough to the point that I bleed, just enough so I can feel the pain. I only cut to the point of bleeding once or twice. Honestly, I think I'm just a chicken. But I can still feel it. Anyways, if there are any fellow cutters out there that ever wanna talk or wutevr I'm here.
Email me at summrlivin05@aol.com

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I can't.....they will jus think im crazy.....i dont want to go through all that.......its not that easy.....my family is really complcated

They won't think your crazy. And if you can't call the cops keep a bat in your room. You can't be charged with assault because it's self defense.

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Originally posted by cosmicdream:

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Originally posted by bisexualgirl:
Hi i am a 15 year old girl. i have been in and out of foster homes and now i am living with my grandmother. my mother has never been around and when i see my father he rapes me. he has raped me serval times and i hate. i dont know what to do with all my hurt so i began to cut myself. i want help and i am looking for someone who understands what i am going through and to try and help me with my problem.

"PLEASE HELP"

call for help! police, social workers, anyone! tell ur grandma bout it

I can't.....they will jus think im crazy.....i dont want to go through all that.......its not that easy.....my family is really complcated

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Originally posted by bisexualgirl:
Hi i am a 15 year old girl. i have been in and out of foster homes and now i am living with my grandmother. my mother has never been around and when i see my father he rapes me. he has raped me serval times and i hate. i dont know what to do with all my hurt so i began to cut myself. i want help and i am looking for someone who understands what i am going through and to try and help me with my problem.

"PLEASE HELP"

call for help! police, social workers, anyone! tell ur grandma bout it

Hi i am a 15 year old girl. i have been in and out of foster homes and now i am living with my grandmother. my mother has never been around and when i see my father he rapes me. he has raped me serval times and i hate. i dont know what to do with all my hurt so i began to cut myself. i want help and i am looking for someone who understands what i am going through and to try and help me with my problem.

"PLEASE HELP"

And by the way, cutting does make you feel better..... but for how long? 2 secconds afew more? believe from a real addicted person, the thing that makes you feel soooo good...... will make you feel sooo bad when you start doing it every few hours or every hour i know i use to do it in school because i couldnt last that long. its just like any addiction, you need it and need it until you die from it. deeper and deeper every time
AMBER

I too am a cutter. Cutting is an addiction. its hard. i know. i have been clean from it for almost 6 months with one slip up. sweetheart, i know that things can seem like there never gunna work themselves out. but believe me, things always do.

My story is simple. i was an abused child/teen and i had alot of problems. the only way i could get away from the burning in my heart was making myself bleed. to hurt someone that is physical not mental.

i was too scared to tell anyone. but once i got over that berrior, i can now keep myself in cheak because i know i have people rooting for me.

dont worry about your grandmother. if she relaly loves you then she wont hate you for it. ive found that there are many websites for parents and friends for cutters and their easy to find. dont get descuraged. just find some other form of getting your pain out. there are other ways. email me if you want to. im always open for decussions about it. its part of what keeps me being clean.

if you need it my email address is berbear1384@yahoo.com
AMBER

everyone on here admits and talks about your cutting. i also cut, but unlike some im ashamed to admit it. im not here to share my story, im not quite sure im ready for that. i mean i had thought i wanted help many times. but talking about it doesnt help. it makes me want to do it more. just one question. why, why do you want to share your experiences. help? pity? i dont want ppl to think i want their pity or sympathy. im afraid to share. i dont really want people to know.

I am a recovering cutter...I have been a cutter for the past 2 years...I started to feel and then it escaleted to wanting to die...Well my mom found out and I went to rehab....(like that really helped...NOT)...It made me want to cut more....I was so lost...Well I started to write...I wrote every where and everything...I became so upset that I carved some of my poems on my body...I don't know what was going on in my life when I started to cut...I can't even remember my childhood from age 5 to 12...so...yeah...but..I came here to post one of my poems so you can see that it can get better through different forms of expression...
This is the one carved on my arm...not all of it...just some

Bleeding now
Can't see
My wounds are deep
I can feel the blade against my skin
I don't want this pain anymore
But no one can save me
No one will see me
No one ever has
I feel the blood drip
Down my wrists
Into the puddle on the floor
I can't feel the blade
Have I gone to far
Can I go back
Can anyone see me
Have they always seen me
No more pain...No more blood
The truth is revealed

But I got through it...so...you can too...If you ever need anyone...I am here...
Val