i cut my self and i proud to admit it. it dose help makes me feel more in control of my own life. Have you ever tasted your own blood?

*sighs* This is a topic that really bugs me... I cut myself, I know what it's like, but for the life of me, I can't figure out why people do it. Quite honestly, it didn't really help me much, just made me feel worse because of teh people nagging about it. And of course I didn't want to hurt the people I love. Cutting hurts others, not only yourself... But I'm not trying to campaign here and get all of you to stop like I did. I understand that some people feel that this is their way to cope. I just want you to know that there are other ways and that people do care about you. Here's a randomer you don't know telling you that I care about everyone of you. No one should feel bad enough that they resort to cutting themselves. The world is a indeed a horrible place when people feel they have to do that. Just know that you can stop if you really want. I did. *hugs everyone* Message me if you wanna talk. I'd love to.
~Kait

hello

hey im 16 i have no home i left because my old girls on drugs shes pregnent again with her 6 kid again with a different dad i now resort to sliting my rist to see if i can feel pain

You shouldn't post in threads that are dead.

And learn some grammar.

Hello. About a year ago when my family started to be separated I started to become very sad.... Hearing my parents argue makes me it in my room and cry my eyes out...Then if they were angery at each other they would take it out on me....I been put down alot about things and they don't understand that I hurt when they do this...When my father left my home I felt.. I guess depress.. but not knowing it truely.....I thought i just missed him... My father has always been in and out my life since I was a baby so i figure i was just sad for his dismiss like I always am..... So when he came back my mother and him staretd ot argue once again..... So to find a way to not show my emtions I use it on my friends and writting on my computer.. to let out anger i had... I didn't want my family to knwo how i felt so I always hid what I did....They staretd to think I was doing things that I shouldn't be doing.... So i was banned from talking to my friends and being oneth computer to write.... I was afriad to wirte on paper becaus emy mother migth find it... Now my father has left once again and my mother staret dot become more cruel to me.. yelling at everything and saying I will ended up being a homeless person because I acted like my father.. So I started to pick my scabs feeling a litte enjoyment doing that.. I wan to cut my self so badly but couldn't knwoing that my friends will see this.. I didn't want them to see that i turn into a self harming freak....So I found other ways of harming my self that didn't leave that much permant damage. i decided that brusing my self was go to do...If I dont do it that hard it would diappear... Now i didn't have any clue that i was a self injury perosn... It was that every hit gave me so much happiness that it wasn't even pain anymore just bliss... That was until one day my friend was talking about harming yourself...So I looked up the causing of self harm... Which at first thought it was just cutting.. I looked at the symptoms and found out that I shouldn't keep this inside....SO i decided ot tell my story to the readers here.... I'm not looking fot pity.. Just getting things off my chest.

I could definitely say I’ve been there. It’s like an addiction. Your lust to cut gets worse each time you cut. I’ve been cutting since I was 11. I’m now 16 just about 5 years. It’s hard to quit. My advice to you is to get help now. All those years that passed me buy were so hard on me. It wasn’t so bad in the beginning, but once I got into the whole peer pressure and growing up stage (which I’m still going thru) it got a lot worse. The only way I would control my rage, my anger, my depression, was by cutting. Bleeding was the only thing that reminded me that I was alive. Now I’m with this wonderful guy, he made me stop the entire cutting. I mean there’s one thing in life you should never do stop doing something for someone. Because when they let you down, it’s a lot worse. Yeah and I contradict myself. Anyway, it’s been tough, now that I can’t cut I get anxious, extremely angry, I get out of control. Sometimes I cry for days. When before, with slightest little sadness I underwent, ill just go for the blade. Please talk to someone. I wouldn’t want you to go thru what I’m going thru. Get help now. I really hope I helped in any way. =)

I understand where your comming from because I tend to cut too. I've been cutting since I was 13 it's been two years already. Everytime I cut it seems to get deeper or longer. No matter what they get worse each and every time. I really don;t know why I cut. It seems more like a habit now. I cut for no apparent reason. Sometimes I could be bored and I somehow find a blade or knife in my hand. I've been trying to find help and I've lasted 2 months without cutting thanks to rubber bands. My suggestion is wear a rubber band on your wrist and when you feel like cutting just snap it. So this way you feel the pain but you don't get cut. Its not the best idea but it works.

Nothing is more addictive than a wound self- inflicted!!!!!

Just if you don't give up your life,god will help you,pray and read bible.

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I used to cut and I've got my share of scars and cuts from it...It's really not good to cut cause if you do, I'm sorry If I offend anyone out there but, after cutting comes thinking about other ways to hurt yourself...These urges get stronger and stronger and stronger until you wanna kill yourself...Trust me I've been there many times before and I'm only 16...I can't tell you what to do or how to live your life. I was just talking to a friend of mine the other day about when I was cutting and suicidal...Yeah I know how you can get so down that you turn to a knife, or a thumtack, or a pin, or glass, or whatever; and I know how good it feels when you cut yourself and your blood starts flowing out the hole you just made in your skin but sooner or later that little cut isn't enough anymore...Then you cut bigger and bigger, and bigger until you almost slice your wrists right off...Nothing is worth killing yourself over...Nothing at all...I wrote this poem after I stopped cutting...I believe you should all read it...

Life or Death

I lived a very easy life,
Some of you might say.
Getting up late, schooling at home,
I almost always got an A.

I had the loving family,
And the friends that really cared.
But to how I really felt inside,
All were unawares.
School and stuff was weighing me down,
And really pressuring me.
Not to mention living up
To the expectations of what I was to be.
I lived in a fishbowl
Where all thought they could see me.
But what everyone didn't know,
Is what they did NOT see.
I seemed to have it all together,
I seemed to have the life.
But deep inside, I couldn't handle it,
My soul was full of strife.

Soon I began cutting and planning ways to die.
Ev'ry time I drew blood,
I felt like I could fly.
But soon the excitement wore off,
And I had to find a way,
To drown all my sorrows
Before I had to pay.

I told my friend I couldn't live,
That I was prepared to die.
She couldn't believe what I was saying,
She wanted to know why.
I told her that among other things
I always lied to save my hide;
So I was ready to end it all
And just commit suicide.

She told me not to do it,
There was another way.
God loved me and didn't want
Me to ever die that way.
She quoted me some scripture
And we had a real long talk.
Hours did go by,
And still onward did we walk.
She said, "I can't stop you,
But you have a choice to make.
Live your life for God,
Or with that knife your's take."

She gave me a choice, Life or Death
Which really must be made.
I made the choice, I chose to live
And foundations have I laid
To help the teens like me who have to choose,
What shall it be? Life or Death?
Ask yourself, do you really want to kill yourself? Do you really want to LOSE?

If you want to talk email me at webmaster@riveroflifecog.com

Hum. Not to sound unsympathetic, but looking for sympathy is pointless.

I used to be in your shoes. I hated my life. I wanted to just die and I thought that all my problems would end. I used to have no freedom..and I guess I don't have much now either, but I was fighting with my parents one night and I took a knife out and I was about to stab myself in the heart, but my parents stopped me. I was so depressed, I was going to kill myself in front of my parents, and I didn't care. I got help, and now I am happy. I don't have a perfect life still, but I'm happy. I have lots of friends who love me, and my parents do care about me. Spend a lot of time with a best friend...or get an animal. Do something that will interest you and occupy a lot of your time. That does it for me when I'm sad. I love doing web pages, and I do that a lot, so I don't have deal with my parents or other things. Get better. Email me if you want, brea87@attbi.com

Self-mutilation seems to be a disgusting horrible thing to anyone who hasn't done it, but I speak from experience, that it really does make you feel better. My dad always tells me to squeeze the skin between my thumb and my index finger to get rid of my headaches...and I guess that's what it's like, cutting yourself. It's like your body can only be hurt at one spot on your body at one time, if someone else is hurt, it can only process one. That's what it seems like, and that's why I cut myself. I haven't done it in a month or so, because I'm over what was upsetting me, but I have scars now, on my wrist, and I am embarressed and scared everyday of my life that someone is going to see them and put two and two together. Now, I'm not sure why I did it. It wasn't for attention, and I hate when people say that. If you wanted attention, you would walk in the street naked, you wouldn't cut your wrist. But I do know that when you cut yourself, you feel better, or at least I did. It's like a rush of adreniline, you're on a high afterwards. I don't know why, but I do know that if you do cut yourself, or make yourself throw up, or anything like that, you need medical attention as soon as you can get it. But just because you do that, it doesn't mean you are a bad or weird person. It may not be a normal thing to do, but it doesn't make you not normal. But if you do self-mutilate yourself, the only thing I can urge you to do is just to realize that it's self mutilation...You started it, you can stop doing it.

I was suicidal and depressed for a very long time and took me forever to want to live but I finally got some help. Even though everythings telling you to hide your secret don't because without help things can only get worse. I went to my church youth group leader but a school counselor is even better. Email me at Beachbabe958@hotmail.com and I can ask my youth group leader for some info packets cause I lost mine a long time but maybe I could see if she has any left and email them to you if your interested.

wow, Girl, your story is so sad. Please don't cut yourself, stop hurting yourself, it's not helping you at all but causing you more problems. I don't know how many times I've said this but: take care of your body, is the only one you've ever have. Now, I want to talk to you about that pain in your heart, which I believe to be the most important thing, look, I'm pretty sure this thing about your ex boyfriend will pass, I know it doesn't sound easy or perhaps possible cuz it is recent, but look, sometimes relationships don't work for the better and you will be better off withouth him. Right now concentrate in yourself, don't give up in this struggle because life is full of them. I'm pretty sure that you must have some one, a friend, who you can lean on in this time of pain. I hope that you are strong and have faith in yourself because you can overcome this if you put your heart to it. My God, you are so young and seeing teenagers like this really upsets me. You deserve so much better in this life, don't you give and fight for you want out of life. You have so much future ahead of you, please seek help and don't be afraid to do so. You already acknowleged that you have a problem, now the secong step is to ask for help from someone that you trust. Please please take care of yourself and girl if you need to talk to some one you can talk to me if you wish.

i have read what you have writen and i thank you for your advice as for teddy yes gurl i know who you are and well things went down hill since the last time we talked. i have seeked help and am going through therepy. i thank you all for your help

Everyone has something to say, and in their own way they are saying it because they don't want you to feel bad. But you do, this is the problem. I was disowned by both my parents, I haven't seen either of them since I was your age, only now has my mother made an effort to talk to me. I have been down this road and many others. What you do is not perfectly normal, but many people feel this way. It isn't an easy thing to get over, partially you may blame yourself for your prolems. The cutting gives you a release, reminds you that you can still feel, you are human. I think one of the best things you could do is keep yourself busy, spend time with your friends, go places and do things. Keep your mind busy, don't think about all of the misery. It is hard when you are alone in your room crying, but you have to try not to engage in this type of behavior. Things seem pretty bad right now, but they can't always be this bad, you have to live for the better days. You have the strength to overcome this, just by the simple fact you have the strength to understand how you feel and to ask for help.

I don't know you, so I could be way off base, but I'm here to talk if you want

I know you want help for this but I just want to rant a bit then move on to the helping part. Ok you broke up with your boyfriend! Ok, so you feel lonely but that is no reason to cut yourself. Afterall there are plenty more fish in the sea. Your mother disowned you. I know this can be hard as well but why has she disowned you? Now I want you to know that parents dont always make the best choices with there words. She could have easily just been really peeoed at you and that is what came out of her mouth. Now if she did in fact disown you then dont sweat it, I know its hard but you are plenty old enough to take care of yourself. Your father being a major druggie is a tough one as well but not for you. You cannot let your families choices cause you harm. You should not worry about your dads problem he is after all an adult and free to make his own choices in life. Now as for your cutting, JUST STOP! DONT DO IT! You began by choosing to do it so you can also make the choice to stop doing it as well. Now as for the who can you talk to, being here is a start but you should really talk to a person you trust. ANd dont worry about your grandmother if she loves you then she will want to help!

Oh wait..........

That post didn't sound right

I'm not mad at all.

Just to let you know..........

Man, I hope you know my screen name on here because if you don't and you ask me who I am, I would feel like such a fool.


Bye N Have a nice day

Hey D,

You told me you were happy about breaking up with your boyfriend. I know you were having problems but you said you were okay now. You told me, you would talk to me if you needed and you haven't.

Why did you lie to me? Why did you say you felt okay when really you weren't? You know you could have told me and you didn't.


Oh ever mind, I don't even think you know who I am on here. So just forget it!!!!!!!!!!!

You could have talked to me!!!!!!!