I cut/burn myself, and even tho I know that it won't get me n-e where, i still do it, but only becuz the pain can get to be tooo much all at once and when it is all weighing down on your heart there isn't much you can do.

my mom has ALS which is a terminal illness and i used to be real sick last year as a Junior in high school. but no matter how much your life may suck, someone else has it worse. I've become really interested in Africa in the last 4 years and seeing whats happening in Darfur and becoming more politically active has made me rethink everything. If you are not in this world, who is going to feed those starving children or clean water or stop global warming?

one person can't change the world, but you can make a hell of a difference. Read books about/by Ghandi, Nelsen Mandela, Paul Wellstone, Barack Obama...make it happen. And know that no one can love you until you love yourself. and always take care of others less fortunate. ITS NOT as bad as your mind has made it out to be. life goes on

so youre thinking, blah, blah, blah, i know all this...so another thing that really helps is excersing. i like xc skiing, running and rowing cause i can get out my anger and it raises your endorphine levels (the happy hormone). Seriously makes a HUGE difference. Also get a happy light. (mimmicks the sunlight). and dont eat junk food. and be smart cause you deserve it.

hey! im 13 and i am in the 8th grade. I can really relate to you story (or what i have heard of it) i started cutting my wrists last year and have been kind of sucidial. It is pretty unexpected for me too. I mean, i am very athletic and i have many friends=, but i just feel sdo much better when i do cut my wrists or do other stuff like self-abuse. im just going to keep on writing because i have some more to say... it seems when i cut myself (the only time my mom and dad found out) they just seemed to brush it off. my mom seemed very concerned at first but then i guess just brushed it off like it was only an accident (even though i had carved a "k" into my left wrist) i guess i dont feel appreciated you know? my older sister has depression and she is the only one who i can relate to.

I haven't but my best friend has only recently learned that cutting herself isn't getting her anywhere. she's made a really huge turn-around in her life. so don't let anyone tell you it's impossible to recover and feel better about life, yourself, and what's goin on. I'm here for ya if you ever need someone to just vent at because you're upset. much love!

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I'm anorexic in phases. I'll lose ten pounds one month and then be fine the next.

i have all 3 problems and i'm trying to cope.
so...yeah, you're not the only one.
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I do all three. Or tried to, in the case of suicide. 9 times from age 13 to 16. and i'm only 17 right now. I've also been bulimic since i was 8 years old. i was doing better, but right now i'm in a relapse so....yeah. try and get help. and if you are, then that's good!um...yeah, i dont know the rest of your situation so i cant tell a whole lot, but....yeah. that's my advice for now!

umm... i'm anorexic/bulimic. have been since last year; not too worried about it though, cuz it's not out of control.

feel odd saying this because everyone else is still doing something i took 4 years to get out of. i guess with depression alot of emotions and actions take place in attempt to make yourself feel better.
cutting,eating disorders, suicidal is all too common these days. and its time to stop. seeking help is the best way to start.
i dont want this to become a entire life story.
just wanted to give a word of support.
as you know your not alone. and all of this.. is beatable. you can become better and there lies greater opportunities.
it takes time, and alot of effort. but in the end it will be worth it. to all. hang on because there is no reason to end life before it starts.

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i have found that there is a great amount of pressure on me. I have all these people putting all these expectations on me and its really hard sometimes.

first of all don't worry about what other people want you to do. if you go through your life always doing what other people want, you're going to have a hard time being happy. do what YOU want. really. i mean, i'm in university right now, have a B average. and well i'm dropping out and going to college instead. why? because thats what i want to do, is everybody else happy about this NO. you're an adult now, you should be able to trust your own decisions. if you have a hard time making decisions, sit back and ask youself this question: What do i have to do in my life to make ME happy? and you know what. go for it!

Hey I am 17 and I have cut since I was 11, I have battled with eating disorders, and I suffer from chronic depression, I have been suicidal. I have been thrown into mental hostpitals on 3 different occassions, and I must say it was NOT FUN! For a while everything had gotten better, but since I have graduated Highschool and all that Lovely stuff, i have found that there is a great amount of pressure on me. I have all these people putting all these expectations on me and its really hard sometimes.

and also im slightly overweight and i was bullemic for a few months and surprisingly i got over it... the cutting tho, never stopped

dUMARS3, OR W/E ur name is, i dont think u have any right to sya those things! it's not about how weak or strong we are! if we packed wait after wait after wait (even small things then dont seem "big" to u) ud eventually fall. thats what happened to us okay? i used to think tht until my brothers got into drugs my sister cut herself extremely AND had kidney disease, my mom tried to commit suicide last spring, and my dad is always yelling. one by one u wouldn't say i should cut, but add em all together and it equals one pretty sucky life! and im sure alot of us feel that way, and the last thing we need is someone telling us "your too good for cutting." and BTW i'll donate my next cut to u!

Hey actually i just started cutting three days ago. i guess u could call me fresh meat! (not a joke) ive already treid to stop but i know thats impossible. my mom tried to commit suicide last spring (i was the one that found the note) and my sister was suicidle for about a year a couple years back and my brothers in jail now. i've called the suicide hotline, but it didn't help. i have no one to talk to. i tried going to my sister but she just doesnt really care... I feel really alone. my sis always said "gnawing turns to slight bleeding, bleeding turns to deep uts, and deep cuts turn into gouges." (does anyone agree?) because i never planned on making myself bleed, just to feel pain (it doesnt hurt me... it tickles)(sick, i know) and so i started bleeding slightly and now there getting deeper. i dont want to kill my self (most of the time) but... well i really dont know. i guess u could just say im C-O-N-F-U-S-E-D!

I was once bullemic. And my friends surprisingly didnt find out until 3 months after. I was a wreck. And my parents still dont know which i sthe sad thing. I think i may still have a sort of an eating disorder but i'm trying to get through this by myself. I dont want to hurt my parents.

ok i have been all thouse but to tell yu the truth they never go away ever there still there but they can be treated with medication and councleing i have both but isome times it still happens

i'm a great listener. Email me thru YN.

God Bless, Collielvr101

***Don't get scared of my closing (God Bless). I really do have an open mind***

You make me want to cry.Its so so so sad I mean I can relate to what you are experiencing...I mean I never had an eating disorder..or anything like that but I have been totally depressed...I feel sad on the inside. I feel like nobody cares...I think about commiting suicide but can't because I am not suicidal. Funny...Huh? Life just isn't fair...Cry to myself all the time...I feel much better but I can't talk to anyone I know about this crap...I am to within myself to confess to anyone...I just want to talk to strangers with the same problems and I hope that if anyone needs a friend or even a hug they can talk to me.

i know exactly how you feel w/ the all of it. once upon a time i was suicidal, as you'll see in some of earlier posts. i'm pretty much wrapping up my depression since mid July, yet i am still a cutter. *shrug* i've never had an eating disorder, but i'm sure it's about the same as cutting...its a way to distract pain.

Anyway.

If anyone wants to ever to just talk and spill out about depression, suicide (i've had both on and off ever since i was 11 years old), or cutting (which i'm really heavy in right now, and have been before earlier this summer AND in seventh grade), or even eating disorders (that's similar to cutting, as i said), i'm here. email me thru youthnoise...i love all you guys.

God Bless, Collielvr101