Dear A,

I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise and I'm sorry that I had to lie to you about it. I can't decide what's worse - you being proud of me for something I didn't do, or you being upset when I am honest. You are a good friend and I don't want to hurt you.

So if you ever read this, yes, I did it again. I got out the razorblades and I'm not proud of it. I don't like the scars on my arms any more than you do. Please understand why I had to.

I'm sorry I'm such a crappy friend. You deserve someone better than me - why did you choose me in the first place?

I love you.

Love,
M.

Dear ----

I'll never even meet you but you made me lose my mind, then you took my heart away. I know there never was a way that you could stay but I love you any way so keep my heart today. I never wanted to say goodbye but it had to happen love and life like death and the end sometimes must be torn asunder. I've said my bit we've said goodbye and I will only speak of the sorrow in my eyes.

Dear Self,

You need to get yourself a punching bag. Seriously.

Sincerely,
The Anger Inside

Dear Universe,

you suck

thanks for nothing

amp

Dear YV,

keep that line of thought up and I'm coming to Yuma to smack you. You've helped and improved the lives of dozens of people including my own stupid self. your gift of life was a gift of light to the rest of us, who would only be in deeper darkness with out you

Amp

Dear God,

You say that with one word you created everything. Why did you waste your breath on me?

Sincerely,

Me

Dear life and divine providence,

FUCK YOU STRAIGHT TO HELL!

Dear ----

I'm sorry... I'm just so sorry...

Dear Life,

Today I realized it was all worth it. Thanks. (Read my blog in my profile and this will make more sense.)

<3Cap

Dear Life,

what YV said

Dear Life,

FUCK YOU!

to all the girls in my grade at school,

so monday is our last day. ack! after fourteen wild, crazy years together. just wanted to let all of you know that i'm going to miss everyone, and i love, love, love each and every one of you!

feeling nauseatingly nostalgic and sentimental,
hugs for now,
N

Dear a mother of a friend of mines,
Why do you look at me so. It doesn't matter that I am Catholic and you are Christian Reformed. We still believe in god, so why question the time I spend with your daughter. I also feel it is insane, but I will never say it, that you do not let a girl read or watch Harry Potter for the witch craft content. God says love everyone so why are you being so cruel to me!
--Sahn

Dear Amanda Gillbert,
Screw you and you're univeristies stupid policies. I want a fucking scholarship because I deserve a fucking scholarship. I kicked the SAT's ASS just so that I could get accepted into saint mary of the freaking woods college and now you're telling me that you don't offer scholarships to distance students?? Well FUCK YOU. I'm supposed to get 10 GRAND off of every year, ok bitch? I could have gotten into FUCKING HARVARD if I wanted to, and your talking shit about how you honor scholarships from other institutions?? My parents won't let me leave ok? They won't let me go to a decent university and they're willing to let me fail in everything from here on out because I didn't have a propper education, ok? SO GIVE ME A FUCKING PROPPER EDUCATION AND GIVE ME MY GODDAMN SCHOLARSHIP

I would shoot you in the face if I could right now,
Sphinx

Dear ----

I hardly know you, but you've changed my life. Just thinking about you my pulse speeds up, and I can hardly breath. And the part that kills me is that I have no idea if you feel the same way at all. I want to tell you, but I'm so afraid you'll think I am just immature and ridiculous. It's crazy that I would be so attatched, but... I can't help it. You've become one of the best friends I've ever had. I'm crazy about you, and I can't do anything about it. And it's stupid and just.... I don't know. I just don't know.

Dear M,

... i wish i could tell you everything i'm hiding from you, but i can't. even after being with you for one year and six months. and i guess i do, in a way, deserve to hear all you've had to say within the past few weeks.what's worse, i know you'll hate me alot more when you find out i'm still lying to you. i love you, and i'm scared i'll lose you. i just hope one day, we could erase all our mistakes and pretend they never happened. but life doesn't work that way, does it? obviously.

i hope you're sleeping tight.
i love you,
N

Dear Body,
This sucks I know but all the running, all the physicals, all the push ups, all the barely complete pull ups will become easier and we shall thrive in bootcamp where other survive
-the mind

Dear family, I didn't think asking any one of you to come here for this weekend, and especially at that price, was asking so fucking much. But I guess it is. It pisses me off though, because I don't feel like it's such a big deal for you, and it is a very big deal for me, not to mention that I'd save a fuckload of money if you did it because I wouldn't have to mail half of my things back in boxes. but more importantly, because it would be nice to spend time together here, and it would help me a lot. Two days isn't that much time, I don't think it would fucking kill you. But I guess I was wrong, two days definetly is way too much to fucking ask for. Well who gives a fuck now.

Dear hands,
Quit shaking and begging me to hurt. Stop scratching my face.

Dear eyes,
Quit staring when it is time to stop. Quit magnifying my flaws and minimizing my self worth.

Dear mouth,
Stop demanding others do what I want. Quit eating only things yellow in color. Stop saying everything is fine, it is not.

-the body

I know, but I'm telling you, if you lived here you'd spend it. You think you wouldn't but then you come and that's what it costs and you end up spending it. though it is dumb as fuck. and you buy a lot less because you can't afford it. but you end up doing it anyway.