You know who,

I hate you more then love, but i love you more then dirt. You saw the signs and kept on going.

I destroyed myself you know. Relationships lay in ruin, my self-esteem is writhing on the floor. Gasping for air I ponder why you meant so much to me.

I'm slowly committing suicide for you, morbid thoughts replay in my head. Your voice is in the background,not unlike an old, repetitive record.

Fallen for you,
Ironically enough this is me.

Dear YV's feet,

Your message to your sister's suitcase was hilarious. Seriously. That was toooo funny. I just wanted to let you know.

Still laughing,
Cap.

Dear My Sister's Suit Cases,

If you ever trip me again I swear I will burn you in the back yard and dance around you with a stick. You have been warned.

Sincerely,

YV's feet

Mom,

I know last night when you talked with me, you hated that we were so far apart, and that you weren't talking about distance. Truthfully I'd like to fix this mess we're in, but I'm too scared too trust you, because I've fallen for this before and I don't want to get hurt again.

I don't know if you know this, but I love you, even though you've put me through so much. However, just because I love you, doesn't mean we should try and fix things, I think things have gone too far this time.

I really try with you, but everytime i talk to you, you somehow put me down, and I can't stand it anymore, you're slowly killing me, making me feel like nothing.

So this is why I can't fix this, even though I want to, this is why I just need to escape from you, because I don't think you understand what you're doing.

I really miss you, I love you, please, i wish you could understand how you make me feel, and all the hurt you've put me through. I just want things to be right, even though I know they never can be.

You loving daughter,

Alysha

Jeric- We haven't spent much time together lately, so do you want to go do something after this weekend? Or maybe we could walk somewhere like we used to. I don't know. Suggest something? I don't know if you realise it, but it feels like you're alientating me. If it's on purpouse, please stop. If you don't want to be around me, you could just tell me I guess, in a nice way... I haven't seen anything of you lately. All I know of you is your voice through a wall. And so we should do something together--just us. We'll have fun. If we both make the effort.
-Your eternal brother

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Just know that whenever you want to talk I'm up for it and willing to listen.

Thanks! It's good to know! about that asshole, I'm still pissed but whatever it's time to get over it I guess...

and Amp, good points there, you are completely right.

All,

As you may or may not know you've been disappointing me alot over the years. No this isn't anything specific just the general crap that every single one of you is guilty of. Yes all 6 Billion (with a few exceptions but that's very few) All of you disregard the others. You struggle for yourselves and ignore those in pain. those who suffer and those who starve. this is intolerable to me. as such I'm writing this letter asking you lot to shape up or ship out and get to improving the planet you all bitch some much about

thanks,

Friends,

I am no longer the same person I use to be. Everyone keeps telling me that I've changed, that I'm not who I use to be. And yes, I do believe that is true. I'm trying to find who I really am and what I truly believe in. I'm trying to find a way to live with myself. I know that I get depressed and I close up leaving you all out of my life for long periods of time. But please don't take it personal. I don't have anything against any of you.

I miss you all, I really do. If I don't see you guys as often as I use to it is because we all have different schedules now and I no longer attend church which is where we all use to meet. I don't think I'm going back there any time soon. I'm sorry that this has caused us to grow apart in a way and that I'm no longer willing to go through all that at the present moment.

Please try to understand that none of you have done nothing wrong. I still think about you guys and wonder how you all are doing. I still wish that we could all hang out and just joke about silly things and talk about our lives. But sometimes things don't come out the way we wish. It seems that I'm no longer in the same path I use to be, and I am sorry about that. I love you all with all my heart, never doubt that.

No matter what happens and where I'll end up; I will always have you all in my heart.

your friend,

.......

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Who the fuck do you think you are?Fuck you.

huh?

Not Dear! starting letters with dear is so repetitive. Just hope everything's ok. Got me worried a couple day's ago, and I'm still expecting an explanation on your part. Just know that whenever you want to talk I'm up for it and willing to listen. Kisses. Cya

Who the fuck do you think you are?Fuck you.

Maya

Hmmm,

I'm suprised really, that you, out there, who i've never met could actually give a damn about anything to do with me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I appreciate it, even if I find it hard to comprehend. I mean I'm suprised you put up with me, but i'd like to say thanks anyway for doing so.

Thanks all,

Triss

Dear God,
If you could in your mercy find some way of Jess the girl I am willing to give my soul to have return to me (and let me keep my soul, which I am rather attached to) I would be forever at your mercy for what you would wish me to do with my life as long as she is at my side

Regards,
Amp

Dear _____,

I'm sick of these fucking excuses. You know what you did; don't act like you don't. Things aren't the same anymore. This is all your fucking fault. Stop trying to pretend things are normal, because we both know that they can never be normal. Whatever we used to have is gone.

Gone.

-Michelle.

Uh,

Lets just say that i've lost all respect for you, you're a jerk and I never want to see your face again. Yeah, I'm angry, and I think I have a right to be. You're an ass, I can't beleive you did that, you don't even know me.

You know who you are, I think you should drop dead,

Triss

Dear Fina,

I must say I was shocked about your thread concerning YNoisers Deepest Darkest Secrets. If only people would know about OUR deepest darkest secrets they would be shocked. But since you see no wrong in exposing others I thought that you would love if I exposed us and brought our secrets in to the light. I will do this to make you happy. Thank you for this giving me this wonderful idea.


P.S
I am torn between you and YNMod1. I can't decide yet.

Love,

FG7

Dear "Angel,"

It's been years now since I've heard from you or seen you. I remember that we use to talk in seventh grade. We didn't know each other that well but I started liking you then. I remember that we were both shy and we stopped talking to each other in eight grade. Ever since then my liking grew to an infatuation for you. It was because of you that I started writing poetry. I remember I use to think that "I'd love you from afar," as corny as that sounds. I could never build up the courage to tell you my feelings for you, much less talk to you. I was too shy, too scared.

It's a bit funny to look back and think how obvious I actually was. I remember I use to pretend I was ignoring you when you passed by. But you made me so nervous that I would actually tremble in your presence. I had always felt I wasn't good enough to aspire to anything with you, or even try and get close to you.

Back in high school my friends and I would make "code names" for the guys that we liked so that no one knew who we'd be talking about if we said it out loud. Your code name was "Angel." Yes, girls sometimes do that. :P

If you could only see how many poems I wrote about you in those years. I think I have about forty of them. I just feel that even though you probably never knew about my feelings for you I wanted to thank you because it was because of you that I found a liking in poetry. I don't know if I would've started writing if it wasn't because you inspired me.

The feelings that I had for you were pure. I was in awe simply by your mere presence. And that was the reason your code name was Angel, I idealized the person that you were as something that was too far away from my reach.

Well, I just wanted to say thank you and that I hope everything is working out for you in your life. I don't know what path you have taken or where you are now. But where ever it is that you are I wish you the best and blessings from above. May you find true love yourself and I hope that life has been kind to you. Take care and God bless you.

Your Once Secret Admirer,

YV

Dear little boy lost,

Remember me? I know you must be scared right now and hurt and feeling alone at times. But don't because she's here with you and she'll always be here for you. She knows you don't think of her much anymore or think of her as much of friend. Look, she's been distracted. I'm her inner voice and I should know. Alot of why she seems distant and distracted is because things she wants to tell you but can't.

Don't blame it on her and don't think it's because of you. The life she had before you wasn't always sunshine and daisies. In fact, it was really never that. A reason she is the way she is coming into this friendship is because of what life and the people closest to her, her family, has taught her. Also, she was never really willing to forgive and forget.

I share some of the blame because I never let her hear the end of alot of the things she was told and taught. I don't necessarily care if she forgives, I just don't want her to forget. Forgetting where you came from and the things that make you who you are is like forgetting how to breathe.

Her past has taught her well in how to love people unconditionally, how to treat people with dignity and respect, and it has let her have the biggest heart and soul possible. But at the same time it has made her weary of lettng people in and getting close to them for fear of hurting them and eventually getting hurt herself.

Inner voice to inner voice, she loves you with all her heart, soul, being and passion. Nothing is out of question when it comes to what she would do for you. Moving into new territory is hard enough, but when you've got one of your only life lines thousands of miles away, it's tougher. She's already moved on with her life after you left, but it hasn't really caught up to her until now that you are really gone.

In her heart it is like you are still here. She can still hear your voice on the last day you were there telling her good-bye. How you looked that day, she still remembers. That's the last image she has burned into her mind of you. She doesn't hate you for leaving because she understands why.

It just seems more real now that you're gone and never coming back. You are starting to make real and tangible plans for your future and she doesn't get to be apart of them. So, she just feels left behind and forgotten. Jealous as well, because she knows that you will never be hers the way she want you to be.

Just don't forget where you've come from and the friends you've left behind that made you who you are today. Good-bye my child.

Signed,
Iamastar

Dear Holy Bagel-

Why are you not answering my prayers? I go to your shrine, the Oven, every day, and watch for you, and wait for you, but still you do not return, if I cannot pay the $4 to make you appear. You demand ultimate sacrifice, and a no-sugar diet, but my Bread, why does this have to be? Why must you be so strict? Am I not your loyal servant? Do I not hold you highest among all Breads?! I bought cheddar cheese today, but only because I needed it! To garnish your holy frame! I didn't buy the mini-bagels as you commanded; I didn't have the money. I resist the temptation every day after work to go to the donut store and buy those glazed and lemon filled donuts. Oh, Bagel, why have you forsaken me? Answer me, please!

Your faithful servant,
Shade

Dana-
I didn’t want it to happen like this. I never wanted to hurt you. I was scared. You knew I was scared. You knew how I was feeling. I was selfish. I tried apologizing. I tried a million times. Why won’t you listen. Why won’t you even give me a chance to explain. You know you meant so much to me. You also know he meant nothing. What do I have to do to prove this to you. I know you can understand. You know all about parent expactations and how much it hurts to let them down. Just please listen to me. At least once. That is all I am asking.
-Lindsay

Kristen-

If I could ask you a question it would not be why. I’m sure to many other people would ask you that. It’s not that important any way, at least not now. I would want to know why you never talked to me about it. I know you moved across the country but that didn’t make me any less of a friend or any less willing to listen. I always thought you had so much life in you. Thinking back on that now I realize that could have been the problem. You had so much life and no way to live it. Am I close?

I’m sorry I couldn’t go to you funeral. I really hope you understand. We did hold a small memorial for you. We tried to make it as happy as possible. I know you would have hated it if it was sad. Remember the trails behind the apartments? We made a sign for you. We put it on the tree that we put that swing on. I should take a picture and send it with this letter. That is if it is still there. We made it pretty hard to get down. Plus that’s not a well traveled place. We made another sign for you and put it on the school fence. Don’t worry, we took it down before it blew away. Joel is in journalism this year. He wrote an article for you but it didn’t make it into the school paper. Apparently if you aren’t a cheerleader you aren’t worth their time. The other day in art Mrs. ****** asked if anyone had talked to you recently. I couldn’t bring myself to tell her but Ashlee did. She was as shocked as we were. You should know that she said you had so much talent.

Just so you know I am sending this letter to your mother. I haven’t been able to visit your grave yet so I was hoping she could put this there for me. I will go to your grave as soon as I can. Hopefully after I graduate I can take a trip there. I will have another letter for you, and Daisies. I know how you liked Daisies.

I guess my motivation for this letter was purely selfish. I just wanted to say goodbye. I sorry I didn’t say it sooner. Please forgive me.

-Dana