quote:

and someday just write how you feel and what you think thats real poetry

But yet when I right how I feel, the poems don't flow properly.

Um...I don't wanna say what the title is...but yeah.

You see the tears in my eyes
Windows into a painful past
You seem to start to recognize
All that would not last
I pulled you back
And pushed you away
I know love is what I lack
But, I want you to stay
Can't you handle the pain?
I know that I can't
My blood is just a stain
Written on my heart with some sick slant
You won't come back, you've gone away
This just might as well be my very last day

And another with no title:

You’ve hurt me so much that I can’t look in your eyes
I’m uncomfortable around you, for you are who I despise
I try my best to love you, I know that you do too
But, I know that all you want to do, is be left alone to stew
So, when I see you coming back, I sit and watch you fly
Cuz’ I don’t want you near me now, I almost wish to watch you die
If you could only hear my words, I know what you would say
I don’t need this to be my story, so I say goodbye today
When all is said, and all is done, I sit back and reflect
And think about the pain you’ve caused from all of your neglect
I won’t ever tell you what I mean, because you won’t understand
But, if you ever do just know, all I want is to hold your hand
See, I may despise you and hate you and such, but you don’t seem to care
Cuz’ you feel the same, and you just leave by flying right through the air
Don’t try to tell me that I’m wrong, or that I don’t get you
Because I’m right and all I can do, is try my hardest to love you
You make it so hard to be your friend, I think that’s what you want
So, I just let you be alone, so you can try to taunt
If you ever see me crying alone, it’s because I don’t know what to do
You left me to die, and now I know it’s because you know I can’t love you


it's about someone...so yeah...anyway...tell me what you think.

quote:

dude, this is <b>really</b> <u>good.</u>

damn wolfie's right we need a blush smilie thanks nyd it is good sepcially considering I made it up in under 2 min

by the way I have recieved poetry.com/org whicever it is I am thinking of using all of them as wall paper

and someday just write how you feel ahd what you think thats real poetry

Thanks!

There should be a blushing smiley. That'd be me. I am a blusher. I'll just pick these two and pretend that they are combined.

Damn, I wish i could write poems as good as you guys.

Wolfie those are pretty good, really paints a picture while you read them

quote:

Originally posted by ampmaster:
ID

Who am I
what am I
I walk like you
I talk like you
but I'm not like you
I'm the stranger in your midst
the lone ranger in the crowd
the outcast in the cliques
you think I'm just an average joe but I'm diffrent than that
I'm better than that
heck I'm just plain stranger than that
how you gonna react?
when you find out that I'm diffrent than that?

note: I made this up in about 2 minutes

dude, this is <b>really</b> <u>good.</u>

These are in order of how much I like them.

------------------------------
The Tragic Snow White

Just a girl in
shades.

Flips and fluffs her
little powder puff.

Angelic,
lost in the gutters.

The pole; her counterpart:
it stands, she
dances. It's bare, she's
in skin.

Entice the perverts
out of suits and ties. Let them
slap cheap treasure to
her strap; drive her to
do more.

Her rendezvous
finishes with riches of
the Taj.
It will tragically
disappear by
sun up.

All that will remain:
A girl
and her bloody
nose dusted with
snow.
--------------------------------
Death in a Way

Lifeless. What will
happen to me?
Am I supposed
to fear this
cycle's end?

You tell me
in a cat
meoooow
that life is
full of
indulgence
for anyone that
dares to
seize it.

They tell me
strict rules and
long-lived
traditions are
the only way to
another world.

Who to
believe? Both
threaten my
fate and claim
no matter what
I always do it
the wrong way.

For now
I hide myself from
such choices, but
I know I will
choose a written
destiny someday
Religion's fist will
beat me into it.

------------------------
Beautiful Dreamer

The images
I see are mere
illusion. The sky
isn't supposed to
be blue, grass isn't
green and
for the moon
to be white
is simply mad

I must be in
nightmare's pit of
malice where these
pictures are
the real, the true,
the only.
Children crying over
their rundown dog.
A husbands splices
his wife and child.
Leaders are praised for
destroying
peaceful homes.

Scream

I am awake. Again the sky
is purple, the grass
orange, the moon
green. I fly with wings
of sugar into my world
where we all have three
eyes and no one cares
at all.
------------------------------
Ode to the Pillow

Your inanimate fur
I just want
to roll into you.

I feel your alien
skin. One way you
are luscious satin, the
other you are industrial
carpet

Your fringe, like
whiskers, kiss my
face. They float
with every
breath.

You comfort me
just by being
you. Why can't I
do the same?

I'm tired of waiting for you
My heart can't take anymore
I've tried so hard to stay true
You've left me injured at the core
I wish you would leave if you didn't care
Leave me to bring myself back together
I don't think, you knew it was my heart you could tear
I knew we couldn't last forever
But I didn't think we couldn't be at all

Why do they all die?
in the darkness of the days
men go again in to the breach
fighting men, standing tall and dying were they lay
a solider by an other name would be solider but they go beyond
older the America and American as apple pie
who are these modern day warriors, these samurai who go where no man dares
we call them many names and they have won hundreds more
but the name we all can call the by is United States Marine

My pain is song
That must go on
Thinking hating my way out or
To understand what the world is about
Would the tears that fill my eyes
And make the world wonder why I cry.
My pain is song
That began when you left me
Standing in the rain nothing around
But empty steps
Leading to nowhere but ending up here
You let this happen you let me cry.
Why didn't try to stand up for me. Why didn't try to
Help. Gave me hope you gave me faith
Then you let my life end this way.
My pain is song

I suck at making up titles.

Betrayal
-------------------------------------
Even my blood betrays me-
leads to
awkward conversations
stupid questions
penetrating, caring looks
Betrayal, indeed.
Leaving me alone.
Blocking me out.
Blocking me-
I block myself out
with this silly little metal
-but the metal is not at all silly
it understands
more than one metal-
which one am I talking about?
Maybe both.
It kills me...
not me singing anymore
to me
to me
to me
even the radio has more control
Unexplainable
I deny myself.

...All Lost...(Austin)
---------------------------
Sister.
Daughter.
Friend.
Classmate.
Cousin.
Aqquaintance.
Penpal.
Niece.
Grandaughter.
Student.
Fan.
Crush.
Neighbor.
Lost.

I Hate
---------------------------------------------
Everything!
that I do.
Everything!
that I'm afraid to do.
Everything!
that I say.
Everything!
that I can't bring myself to say.
Everything!
that I think.
Everything!
that I don't think of.
Everything!
that I want.
Everything!
that I'm ungrateful for.
Everything!
that I don't care about.
That I love.
That I hate.
That I don't believe.
Everything!
that I strive for.
Everyone!
that I want to be with.
Everyone!
that I avoid.
Everyone!
that avoids me.
Everything.
Everyone.
My life.

Prussian Blue
-------------------------------
Your opinions
evil
expressable
it's only fair
but...
why is hate free?
you ought to pay
I have plenty, I'm sure
I don't hate them all
I hate you
for hating
no reason.
...so stupid,
that I hate myself
you've corrupted
the youth
the beauty
the color
It makes me cry

Madonna, Mockingly
----------------------------------
I can't get-
the words out
the tears out
the blood out
the pain out.
I hurt.
You're hurting, too.
A cavity in my soul.
Rotting
like my teeth
that you don't notice
You're lazy
Won't report his violations
(Won't get me some dentists
to cure the cavities inside
The cavities, they almost killed me
I'm still dying)
I wouldn't be dying
if I as never born
if you had just told
someone
the first time.

ID

Who am I
what am I
I walk like you
I talk like you
but I'm not like you
I'm the stranger in your midst
the lone ranger in the crowd
the outcast in the cliques
you think I'm just an average joe but I'm diffrent than that
I'm better than that
heck I'm just plain stranger than that
how you gonna react?
when you find out that I'm diffrent than that?

note: I made this up in about 2 minutes

Okay I'm new and this is a messy poem but it is truth and I have better ones but I would first Like to share this one. Okay here:

You look into my eyes, saying you need to see your reflection
But I know theres more to say
You pull me close saying you need a piece of gum
But is that the real reason
You tap me on my shoulder to show off a new dance
But why am I the only one you show
If you love meI wish you would say
For I have a confession I Love you too.

Man these things just keep popping into my brain and I gotta put em somewhere!

Please, Daddy

Why did you leave me daddy?
Why did you divorce me?
Was I bad?
Or did you just love her more?
I tried to be perfect
I didn't mean to scream so loud
When you ripped the earring from my ear
I know it was just a mistake daddy
The comb got caught on accident
But why did you and mommy fight about it
And leave me out?
I felt so alone.
Why wouldn't you get my opinion?
I didn't want you to leave!
Mommy was just so mad
She didn't mean what she said.
Please come back to me daddy
I'll be good!
You can throw pots and pans and lamps at me
And I won't even utter a sound.
I swear,
Just as long as you come back to me
I don't want a divorce; I don't want to be split up
Please don't leave me
I need you
This isn't the way it's supposed to be!
Why did you go?
Come back to me please
I can't live this life of secrecy
Between two houses
Can't pretend I hate one of you in order to show love for the other
I need you both!
Can't you see?
It's tearing the heart right out of me!

Lost

What has happened to us?
We are the people we said we'd never be,
We have gone our separate ways and thus,
Lost ourselves- the old you and me.
We have let go of our childhood longings and dreams,
Ripped the bonds that held us together,
Though the child inside each of us protests and screams,
That we must stick together through this stormy, sorrowful weather.
But this child is unseen, unheard, ignored,
And slowly begins to fade,
With her she takes all the memories stored,
Of all the times we had and games we played.
Lives go on,
Friendships are dismissed from the mind,
It seems so wrong,
Because they were a once-in-a-lifetime find
Now we only think about each other when we sit by the window
On a lonely, rainy gray day
And wonder silently what happened to those people I used to love and know,
Those people I let slip away?

I don't know if I'm going to write more to this or not, but somehow it seems unfinished to me... I don't know. What do you think? Does it suck or what?

Midnight Shadow

Within the shadows I am at home
Throught this world I walk alone-
Only darkness, there is no light
I am a shadow in the night-
I live my life unheard, unseen
Throught these years, alone i've been-
I am a whisper on the storm
From reality my life is torn
My world, as a shattered mirror
Broken, twisted by pain and fear-
Nothing left , all hope is gone
All light within my soul is drawn-
As an angel, i fall from grace
I now fade without a trace-
I am alone, my heart is hollow
I walk this world as a midnight shadow-

The Watcher

As mornings grow our demons hide
Shadows covering what the gods forbid
Eminent truths are only seen
By he whose mind is free and eyes are keen

A deadly fire burns in his eyes
Reveling truth in seas of lies
He sees hope when there is none
But also sees what we've become

Pain and torment hang in the air
More deadly then the serpents stare
Our lives are sin, our world destroyed
Nothing left but a howling void

He knows the darkness of our souls
And the cruelty that we bestow
Upon this world our hatred hath grown
Like wild spirits our evil now roams

We are the fallen, we are the cursed
Upon this world our poisons dispersed
This land we have striped of life
And left only our pain and strife

He knows the written in times of old
Prophecies in blood and stone
Words that spoke of what we’d be
Of how we’d burn our eternal tree

Our world shattered, no more than shards
Our fate strewn across the stars
This life now ends, just shadows and dust
We fade away into the dusk

As mornings grow our demons hide
Shadows covering what the gods forbid
He watches as we live in sin
And knows the end will soon begin

Life vs. Death

Life vs. death
it's a complicated battle.
It's ultimate winner
will forever hang in my shadow.
I don't have a lot to lose
and with this option I must choose
Life vs. death
which do I want more?
This decision is a difficult chore.
I have nothing to risk,
I'm already dead inside.
I'll just end it quickly and stop trying to hide
From the feers I constantly shove aside.
The knife goes in,
twists,
and it's over.
It's all over.

Secrets

Secrets run as deep as an ocean,
And twice as dark and cold
But we’re all going through the motions,
It’s all normal- so I’m told

Crying every time I’m alone
And whenever I get a rest,
Sorrow, anger, frustration, heavy as a stone
Settles on my chest

What’s my secret?
What could I possibly hide?
The combination to my heart and mind is set
I keep everything locked away inside

But I open it, only for you:
My writing, my one true peace of mind
My outlet, my friend, my obsession, my passion, it’s true
It’s me that you will find.

Me, the overweight girl
No guys are after me.
I don’t have eyes as beautiful as pearls,
Just ones as deep and lonely and wet as the sea

My hair doesn’t shine like the sun
My clothes aren’t real trendy,
My pants aren’t size one
And my body’s not real bendy

I beat myself up about getting eighties in school
When nobody else is worrying about grades of their own
I feel like a fool
And my heart turns to stone

I sometimes pull my hair hard,
Cuz I know it hurts
I jokingly refer to myself as a fat lard
Cuz I know it hurts
I like to tell myself I’m dumb
Cuz I know it hurts
I like to cry til I’m numb
All because I hurt.


Will someone please discover my secret?
Save me from the person I am?
Please help me so I’ll never again regret,
Being the person I am

Please stop me from hating me
It hurts too much
Why aren’t there guys dating me?
I know the reason, and it hurts so much.

I think about starving myself
All too often
I thought if I put those ideas on a shelf
Maybe my heart would start to soften

But it’s hard to forget
When the constant reminder’s still there
Especially when no one can interpret
Why I feel so scared

My life isn’t half bad
My parents love me a lot
But it’s like I’m always sad
Because I’m always being a person I’m not.

This can’t be right
What’s wrong with me?
The person on the inside fights
With the person that you see

Why am I so depressed?
Why do I love the pain?
Why am I so stressed?
Am I going insane?

Why am I so stupid?
Why am I so frightened?
Was it something that I did?
I’d really love to be enlightened

Will I always be this way?
Will this person ever leave me alone?
Or will she be with me everyday?
To me, that’s unknown


But I really would like a friend
Someone who I could talk to
Someone who’s there in the end
Someone who doesn’t lie to you

Someone to share my pain with
Someone to understand
Someone to lose or gain with
Confidence and happiness hand in hand

Someone to catch me when I fall
Someone who won’t let me down
Someone who doesn’t care what people say at all
Someone who won’t let me sink in my tears and drown

I guess I won’t ever find somebody like that
They’re all gone now
And now that I’m alone, sad, and fat,
I’m simply another dumb cow

My "friends"- I gave up on them
My "team"- I gave up on them too
Myself- I gave up on me
But I will never give up my writing
My words, my poems and stories, however worthless and horrible they are,
They're the only thing I haven't given up on
Because they haven't given up on me.
To those of you who did:
Thank you. You have no idea how free I am now. I hope you enjoyed torturing me over the last few years because I don't give a damn about you anymore.