I need some advice and opinions on some things. I never noticed it, but a lot of people talk down to me. Like, they make me feel stupid when I state my opinions or when I make a joke. I think it's because I'm small, but I want it to stop without ripping anyones head off. What should I do?

One other thing... I don't know how to make friends. I mean, yeah, I have friends but I'm always so afraid of getting close because I've been betrayed by so many people that were close to me. I end up becoming mean and distant to people who try to get close. I even do it with my boyfriend sometimes. And we've been together for a year! I want someone I can just hang out with and feel comfortable with. I need a best friend. I need some advice on how I should go about this. Or how I should get closer to the few friends I have now. I can't control it, I subconciously turn into super b!tch to them! I get afraid of getting close. I just want a friend that I can call when I'm mad and laugh with when I'm happy. Everyone else around me has that....why can't I?

I'd hoped you'd be able to ask your boyfriend questions about your sex life...

I can tell my boyfriend stuff....but I mean "girl" stiff. Like I can't ask my boyfriend questions about my sex life and expect him to answer from a girls point of view. Plus, some things that I get upset about, I get scared to ask my boyfriend.

You have a boyfriend, but you can't call him when you're mad?

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I just want a friend that I can call when I'm mad and laugh with when I'm happy. Everyone else around me has that....

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I don't really have that. Should I want that?