I burn my arms... i havent been doing it for long...and actually at this point im not in that bad of shape emotionally...two years ago i moved from public school to a private school near my town...i loved it there, i have never been happier...but then the summer after 7th grade after only being at the private school for a year, i decided to leave...i was in a bad mood and i had gotten in a fight with my mom...she walked into my room and i was crying...she asked what was wrong and the first thing that popped into my head was, "i want to go back to public school"...i had just gotten in a fight with my boyfriend that night too...about two weeks after i decided that i was leaving my school one of my best friends was diagnosed with osteosarcoma, a type of bone cancer...by christmastime it had spread to his lungs, both of them...at this point i had fallen into a bit of a depression...i was back at the public school that i had been at my entire life...i had no friends at that school and that's part of the reason that i left in the first place...but i thought that everyone would have forgotten about the past, i guess they didnt...i had no friends at public school and most of my friends from private school were all really busy with their lives...i have been doing a lot better...ive made probably four friends...who arent really that good of friends but at this point im used to it...my friend with cancer is in remission right now...everything should be ok...but right now things arent...everything seems so messed up...im a freshman but i only have one freshman class, the rest are sophomore and junior classes...the kids that i have classes with call me "phenom" as in phenomenal...at least they know who i am...i have so much pressure to be the best and do the best...not really by my parents or teachers(they are all telling me to lay off a little) but by myself....i want to be the top ranked person of the sophomore class...i want to graduate a year early(im supposed to be in 8th grade right now which means if i do graduate early i will be 16 years old)...im just so frustrated about everything in my life...ive cut a couple of times but the blood isnt for me...i had thought about burning myself before but i had never gone through with it...now i love it, i feel so awesome, i feel like maybe for once in my life im not that perfect person that everyone thinks i am...the biggest problem though is that everyone at school is beginning to find out...which is really bad, because not many people have heard of burning and they all hate everyone who cuts because, "they are so dramatic and stupid...they cut for the wrong reasons"...i dont want to be one of those girls....im not like that...i used to cry at least two hours a day...i havent cried in almost a month...taking out the curling iron that i use and feeling my skin on my arms burning makes me feel better than i have felt in a long time....i love it...its bad, i know...but there are so few dangers to it...its not like cutting where you can hit a nerve...its just skin, it grows back...

<3Remember we are much more than our mistakes

A lot of people who start cutting, bruising, burning think that they inventing their unique form of self-mutilation and feel special with their condition. Hate to burst your bubble but every form of self-mutilation you can think of has not only been done before but it has been done to the point where it is classified with a caption in every psychiatric textbook. Don't feel special or wear it like a badge of honor. It is dangerous and a cry for help.

there's this great organizationthing that helps with people who harm themselves.

[link]www.twloha.com[/link]

visit it sometime.

also, what you said vegancath, "You're probably young, and you're developing all these emotions right now, it's totally normal to want to self harm." really makes me mad. because i dont think that anyone should ever say that self harm is normal. and when does it have anything to do with how "young" you are?
people who are older than "young" deal with that.
i dont know. maybe i interpreted it wrong. or maybe you worded it wrong.
but i still think thats really wrong to say.

Just thinking about burning or cutting makes my arms tingle. I honestly cannot understand why people would hurt themselves like that...nyah.

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there arent many people who burn to deal with stuff like that

not really, it's actually alot more common then any one thinks. It's also extremely similer to cutting in the type of self harm it is and despite what the OP is saying you actually endanger yourself just as much through burning (say the word "infection" with me kids) and burning actually affects more nerves then a knife

there arent many people who burn to deal with stuff like that normaly they cut i turned to drugs and alcohol =) i kno people who smoke and every year that theyve known each other they burned a cigarette across their arms

im sorry. i dont really know what your goin through but ive been through some hard times too. I didnt try burning but i did cut and try to do some awfull things. you are amazingly gifted if you are that ahead. look at yourself, you are phenominal. I dont have real friends either, but dont let that get you down. You are too special to do anything that could seriously hurt you.

Dont let things stress you out, let em in then let em out. Accept things.

I'm sorry that you have to go through this. I cut myself, so in a way I can relate to you. I also know it's hard to stop, but you should try.

Please step back and take a look at yourself. You seem like a very gifted, smart, and goal-oriented individual. This won't help you in any way, I promise. We seem to be alike in more ways than one, and I speak from experience when telling you that you should stop this while you can. Feel free to contact me for support.
*Hugs*

I was a "bruiser"-someone that would bruise myself for the rush. I stopped as soon as i learnd it was no differnt from a drug. addictive, unnatural and unhealthy. it was hard for me, but i took up another sport and startd riting poetry and now i feel just as great, without the destruction. love always, veggie

this is a sad story.
However it seems the reason youre burning is because you dont want to be like everyone else and cut?

That doesnt seem right.
When things get bad sometimes we feel the need to harm ourselves, we blame ourselves, etc. It's not that bad really, and it's not always your fault.
You're probably young, and you're developing all these emotions right now, it's totally normal to want to self harm.


Can I reccomend, if you're already on this forum, you try www.recoveryourlife.com
It helped me out of a lot of bad times, people are always on to help and theres a lot of things that curb the urges.
If you want to chat to someone hit me up on msn cath__murphy@hotmail.co.uk


Did you also know that burning is, aside to being a form of self harm, it is a form of body modification, as is cutting. A lot of people feel the same way as you for art and beauty sake too, and spiritual, and sometimes sexual.

You're not alone