I haven't been up here in over a year! Hey everyone, it's me, headpowerbbb! Anyway, I belive the last post I left was about depression, and I don't think it's any worse now, but my mom has informed me more than once that I've been depressed since I was little, anyway I'm on medicine now, so that's cool, but now I have a problem with cutting myself, not real deep or anything but enough to keep the blood coming and I just can't help myself. I don't do it for attention and I don't do it because . . .. Well, the thing is I don't know why I do it and I can't stop, I mean I've tried, I threw my razors away but now I have another one, and I try not to go to it, but I did last night, and my mom is worried, and I'm mad at myself because of. And that's one of the things, when I get mad I hurt myself because I feel like it's my fault even when it isn't, and I've cut my thigh, and I've written words on my arm, and I think I also do it because I like blood, and to be flat out honest, I think I'm gettin' an eating disorder, and I don't want to end up in the hospital! Please help. Besides I can't stop thinking about my weight, and I don't like to force myself to eat, and none of my clothes really fit me anymore. Please give helpful words, I need you guys. Thanks
Headpowerbbb

headpowerbbb-
i was a cutter i know what your going through. put those razors in the trash and get some rubber band to put on your wrist, when you feel mad just snap yourselfand it will feel all most as if you were cutting, and it doesn't leave any marks. one question, you don't have to answer if you don't want to. Have you gotten any help? ( tryed to talk to someone)

G-d don't make no junk. that's a fact. You are beautiful!!!!!!! I think you should tell your mom whats going on so you can work it out together. Try to finda different way to deal with things. i know its gonna be hard but you know its not healthy and I know you can do it!!! I'll pray for you!!!!!

It is totaly possible to get outa cutting and stuuff without medical and without a shrink . Friends sumtimes help . Finding a diff way to deal with stuff helps ..........i think it is possible

Sounds like you are in really bad shape.

Ok that doesn't sound really helpful.

All I can say is that I will pray for you. I'll pray that somehow or another you'll be delivered of these things you have.

I can't really help out much.
I've been depressed and all, but usually when I get depressed or I'm about to I start to pray that the Lord will help me to over come what I'm depressed about.

Just pray, prayer changes things and trust me it does. Alot of people will say I crazy for thinking and believing that praying will change stuff, but it has worked many times for me and people I know.

hi strength2008, i guess it's possible to cure yourself from depression and cutting with no meds, i don't know, i guess it depends on how deep the depression is. i don't know, i'm on meds for depression, and mine is only mild.
luv ya too!

It's awsome to know that you are getting better! I used to cut, and burn my skin. I've stopped, and I too have scars, and looking at them is very wierd.
I have a question; Is it possible to cure yourself from something such as depression or cutting, on your own with no guidance or medicine?

thankx so much you're so helpful! I do it when I'm mad, bored, or need to hurt myself. i couldn't help it. i try not to worry about my weight, but I get on the scale two three times a day, and i don't like forcing it. to be honest though, I'm not really ashamed, even though someone asked me today if a cat scratched me and I didn't know what to say. it's weird, i did it about three days ago, and I'm trying to stop. thanks, talk again when I can, you're so helpful, thanks for being here. and yeah, I'm got scares on my arms, and thigh, gotta go.

i know what you mean,i dont want to end up in a hospital either,you should try figuring out WHY you do it,theirs a reason for EVERYTHING,i well i havent cut myself for a pretty long time(weeks).i did know why i was doing it,and i couldnt stop,i tried and i only went for half a week.i just had to do it when i felt i coudnt handle it,i just had to feel a relief,my mom doesnt know and hopefully shes not going to know.my two arms have scars mostly everywhere,and i have to wear long sleeves everyday know.look maybe you should tell your doctor how you feel maybe the medication isint working for you.and about your eating disorder dont worry about your weight or apperiance,dont pay attention to what people say or what their thinking.eat what you want,just exercise,trust me going to regret it when your all grown up and have an eating disorder.and your gonna regret having your arms scared and being ashamed.good luck!!