I'm new to this forum. I'm 23 and not a teenager either. I've recently graduated college - with several awards and recongnition for projects I've done. I'm looking for a job at the moment so I can get a car. So, I'm stuck at home till then...

I'm not sure where to start. When I thought the abuse started or that it's still continuing years later? Even after I've said something to them. Even after I went to someone about it? – a doctor no less.

My mother (and father sometimes) calls me a bitch, wench, self-centered spoiled child (I might be), one time she called me a whore, she’s accused me of doing drugs once to (Which I’ve never EVER done – I don’t even smoke)... she's called me countless things and tells me I make her say those things. I give her no choice.

My father has blamed me for everything and anything that happens to my mother. When she has seizures I get blamed for those even when I’m not home. She was choking on a piece of Stake and it was my fault when I wasn’t even in the room. I got blamed for my dog dragging my mother down the steps shattering her leg. “It was your Dog, it’s your fault!”

This has been going on for the past few years.

I don’t know where I’m going with this.

I’m just not sure what to do anymore… The yell, fighting, blaming and name calling has to stop somewhere. I’ve tried just ‘hiding’ in my room. I’ll go out at night and try to come back late to avoid them, when my mother would be waiting for me in the living room with her glass of wine. I can't hide in my room, they will ask me out to the living room to "talk to me". I’ve run away and just came back because they apologized. I’ve tried going to my family doctor, he brushed it off as “mother daughter fighting.” I just want it to stop and I don’t know what to do.

I also believe my mother is very depressed. She cries at night for no reason, she gets upset at herself for little things she can’t control. She hasn’t tried to make any friends since we’ve movied up here (that was seven years ago) and she’s moody.

I have no place to go, have no car to get there, no place to stay. I just want it to stop…

what else can I do?

They'll just give you a place to talk about your situation and they will be qualified to give you proper advice. I'm not a specialist in child abuse, nd I don't think anyone here is, which is why those hotlines exist. By calling, it won't send police to your house or something, don't worry.

I don't think that by calling you are obligated to report anything. There will be people there who know more about abuse than most of us on YN do, and who would better know how to help you further.

I really do think you should call. Please let us know how things work out for you.

what happens if I call that hotline?

You need help. My fastest solution will be to calla hotline such as

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Domestic Violence

1-800-799-SAFE

Child Abuse

1-800-4-A-CHILD

Your situation sounds pretty bad and you need to get out of there.