Hey I just came across this website and i found it so interesting so many different aspects

I have a lot on my mind at the moment and i need so advice. my mam and dad are seperated my dad basicly wants nothing to do with me. I have been in concelling since i was four till now and in an out of hospital for self harm, they say its down to because of whats happened through out my childhood. but its not even that anymore my mam and i got councelling nearly every week and nothing gets sorted, we both verbal and physically abuse eachother and all my counceller says its " when you get angry leave the room", i dont understand how that is mean to help when your mam keeps running at you screaming and shouting abuse. I am also an only child which doesn't really help i have no other brothers or sisters to talk to. when me and my mam do have an arguement she turns my hole family against me and makes up lies. I'm finished school this year and hope to go to uni but before that there is a holiday coming up for the seniors and guess what she told me I'm not aloud go till I'm 18 thats the law blah blah, she is trying to put strings on me to hold me down. all my friends are going on this trip but she wont let me go, whats so weird about it is a few months ago she said oh where are you guys thinking about going for your trip. why is she doing this to me anything i look forward to she trys to take away from me and this is just the recent argument that happened tonight. The last arguement she called me a slapper and that she hated me you no I really dont understand how she thinks i can ever stop going to councelling if all she does is knock me back, i am very self concious about my weight and she is always telling me i'm putting on weight and i should lose it and just always in my face about it, i can honestly say I'm not a fat girl but i'm not skinny either

someone please help me i duuno what her deal is