Last April, I was hospitalized for an eating disorder and depression, cutting, etc. My mom made me stop taking my antidepressants about a month ago, because she doesn't thing I should need it for more than a year.
Not long after, she told me that she is embarrassed by my weight and that I need to take care of myself. She told me that I wouldn't be able to be a teacher because all I would be able to show children is how to sit and eat all day.

I got really upset, obviously, and told her that what she said makes me really want to cut. She rolled her eyes and told me not to try making her feel bad because she doesn't.

Because I'm off my medicine, I can't sleep at night AT ALL. I go days without sleep, and sometimes can take an hour nap every now and then. I'm exhausted all the time. I hate my body more than ever, and taking a shower makes me really angry. I hate getting dressed and ready for the day because I feel like no matter what I do, I'll look awful. I can't remember a moment when I wasn't holding back tears. I'm completely miserable.

My dad doesn't understand this problem, and wouldn't even if I explained it to him. My mom is always around and it makes me so angry. I have one more year before I can move out, but she is constantly making me feel horrible about myself. I don't want to say that I hate her..but I REALLY REALLY can't stand her at all..

Any advise?

Thats really bad for you self esteem
and self worth..I advise you to talk to someone..it will help. There are many people like that, skeptical and think nothing's wrong.
You need to tell her to that what she's doing to you hurts and want her to stop. Im sorry this is happening to you but you have to do something about this. Her complaining about your weight is going to make your eating disorder even worse.
And crash your depression.

I know she's your mom but pay no mind to what she says, just try on getting your antidepressants back.

*hope everything goes well.* =)

I dont know if you still need advice or not but I have similar problems with my parents at home. All I do is listen to my music and read. I dont know if it would work for you, but it brings me to a different place where no one can touch me. I relax and just forget everything else in the world and in my life for a few brief moments and can be myself.
And when my mom says stuff to me like that, I just ignore her and go along with it. I act as if I care what she is saying and then leave when she is done with her long speech. Tune out what they say. Its what I do, see if it works for you.

Dreamer :0)