Hello Everybody!
Sorry I keep making topics about this stuff but I have no one else to talk to about it (besides my friends of course & you know how you are) But, I just feel bad. When I see someone die I think it's my fault. When someone is upset I think it's my fault. When people say something when I'm walking by I think their saying something bad about me. I'm afraid of everything around me!!! It's like I'm just sitting in a corner waiting to die. And it's scary. I made a few nice friends but it feels like I can't trust anyone because it's all backfired. And I just back away from people. Like I have done so many times before. I'm afraid I'm going to start cutting again. Being more angry & violent & I'm just scared. I just can't get away... from my feelings, my life, myself. And I'm sick of it... so if anyone has any tips on how I can become a nicer person I would appreciate it. Thanks a Bunch. And if I have any mistakes I'm sorry I have a realy bad pain in my chest... Thanks again,
-JM

I posted a thread about anxiety. I think this might be what you have. I know that alot of times no matter what anyone else says you can't stop thinking these things. You might want to talk to someone besides just your friends. Maybe a therapist can help. You shouldn't have to feel this way, and believe me...you CAN CAN CAN CAAAAAN get better. I will pray for you.

It's not your fault! I feel like you think that your not good enough for other people. But that's a lie, so don't tell that to yourself. You say that you can't trust nobody, has anyone done you wrong and that is why you feel no one should be trusted?
I hope that you get to feel much better. I'll be praying for you.(and please don't be offended by this)

sweet day.

Okay, from what I understand, psychological problems generally fall into two categories: neurosis (blaming yourself for everything) and character disorders (blaming others for everything). Now, it seems to me like everybody has a little bit of one or the other of these, but it sounds like you might have a pretty bad neurosis. Now, that may sound like I'm saying you're crazy, but I'm NOT. I see a psychiatrist myself, and therapy is nothing to get freaked out about. In fact, it's often the healthiest people who go into therapy, because when you really have to get worried is when you start pretending you don't have a problem at all. If I were you, I'd talk to a counselor or a therapist and tell them exactly what you posted here. Note: This is totally my opinion. I'm 15, and I'm no psychiatrist. I'm just guessing here! God bless.

man, i still feel like that sometimes. expecally since my stupid axiety meds didn't help, made things worse. i feel like everyone can tell i'm axious, and a little depressed. you are nice, you are getting over your depression.
Lauren

I think you're involuntarily trying to overcompensate for certain things that make you feel bad, as if apologizing voids any wrong-doings. In other words, you probably don't want to blame anyone else for things because they might get upset, thus killing your self-esteem, so you take the blame.

But hey, who knows?

ahh im sorry! i didnt mean to make it seem like you had a disorder you probably dont!! im saying if what you said is really really bad then maybe you should see about it

Great... I have a disorder... nice. Well, I don't always think everything is my fualt... it depends... Like today I got a messed up haircut & I blamed it on the lady that cut my hair... But I told my Dad that he said "You make things so unlivable" And he's mad at me again... Everyone's always mad at me for something or other. I have bruises all over... I'm just angry. I'm not talking to anyone at school. I don't really trust anyone there... they suck. Theripist. My Dad said no when my Mom died. So I'm just going to have to find a way to help myself.
Thanks,
-JM

I am actually the opposite of you. Whenever I spill something or break something, which I do a lot, I blame it on someone else, even though everyone saw me do it.

hey u know i used to be like that too? and i figure i still am

I'm not tryign to be pessimistic or whatever but maybe that's actually a physchological "disorder" thing that you can get help for. I'll bet its really hard to deal with, and I can only offer my sympathies. Here's what I suggest:
I know school guidance counselors (sp?) are often no good but if yours is okay then maybe you should try to talking to them about it and ask if they think a pyschiatrist or therapist could help you talk it out and give professional advice just to hellp you sort things out (I'm not saying you're in any way a "headcase" trust me!) Otherwise...mayeb talk to your parents? It's not that easy to say to yourself "stop it, JM, everything is NOT my fault! I am going to stop thinking the world is out to get me." Oh wait if you think the world is out to get you could you possibly be manic? Well I hope that helped and if it just made you sad to think that it could be more than a bad way of thinking then I'm really sorry!!!
Best wishes,
~Quebby~

JM, you have to stop blaming yourself for everything. it's not your fault that they died. it's just...their time's up. that's all.i'm gonna talk to you on aim.